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my mother growing more destressed had her friends to comfort her, as my Gran-mother who was brought to her, and the minister of the Parish Mr Baxter came often I well remember those effectuall prayiers which he powred out for her, having a good gift in praying extempory: though not \in/ finding out the mallady of her trouble, that thereby he might have aplied a fitt Salve to her sore; she said she should yet be worse, and that she should not speeke, but be as \it/ were without sence, yet desireing they would give her meate, and that my Uncles Henry Isham wife might be with her, a fitt woman to minister helpe unto her both for her mind and body: having had the experience of many -and croses in the worldafflictions (in her selfe) also my mother had a good Neighbour of my they both lived in town; Uncles Richarde Isham wife a vertuous woman, but unable* to come to her be re\a/son of her owne Sickliness;) they that were with my mother , sought to perswade her not to give way to such Mallancoly thoughts; yet she affermed that so she should be; and that she should be well a gaine; Now in part she prophesied truly of her selfe, though not so bad as she feared. herein I cannot but admire thy righteous dealling my God which is according to thy word, laying no more upon us then you wilt enable us to bare, For when my mother was troubled in her mind, she had more health of body then \afterwards/ when she had peace of mind, also she looked as well as are she did also it was thy great mercy not to take away her Speech in the time of her trouble, but that therby she could revall her selfe; I well remember those nights wherein she continued wakeing: having alwayes wordes which she uttered and were best knowne to thee O Lord, and in the night she would call for Suppings that thereby she might refresh her selfe, reherrssing these words of the Angel to Elijah, saying up and eate for thou hast a great jo\u/rney (for she thought she should not die yet) after when she was somthing better that she could give eare to reading she called for the read psal 71Psalmes of David which were often read over to her, and that many times in the night season, I can no better express my mothers troubles then out of the nots of her owne hand-writing, which she keept (carring then about her) as rememberancess and instructions to her selfe: how horribly low she was, the Lord leveing her, as it ware to her selfe the vile visions and outrages the sinfull wordes the which the temter did thus she writeth of her selfe assalt her weaknes ; (yet lord thou didest wonderfully guide her for although she was thus assalted, yet I never remember that ever she brack \foorth/ into any outragious; or unadvissed speech) she much complaned of being temted with blasfem\o/s* thoughts also of hardnes of hart in consealling her wickednes doubtings and great distruct of Gods