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thy sinne: and healeth all thine infirmities. [etc] still after this I looked ill some thinking I had the greene sicknes. therefore my father injoyned me to morning and evening this was my exercise 4 or 5 yeeres runn up easy stares (which was of three parts) twelfe times and to rest me once. but my wind was so good that sometimes I runn them all and not rest mee. but at last be-ing somtimes idle and cunning though my father scrictly exammened me. whether I run up so many times or no and from the topt to the botome, I should therefore run eleven up \of/ one part of the three and at last my mother thought the cause of my illnes was grife for my Granmo[ther] from the tope to the botome of them all. and so Answere him according to his demand. I suppose the reason that my winde was so good was becauses my mother allowed me to eate any seeds I much complaning of the coldnes of my stomacke especially in this time I read some part of the second booke of Marter\s/ after meate, for which I should not thinke my selfe well unlesse I had eatten some spice which was so little (because they kept it from me) that I thinke did me no harme, other whiles when I had not these I should eate I did net and bred[stitch] bitter Orring pilles without suger onely to wearme my stomack which was so cold that I thought "costomeI should never leave the eating of somwhat to warm me after meales. the 14 yere my mother being indiferent well used to rise early and send for the servants to praires a mornings. but herein I confesse my slouthfullnes in being when I was redy she would here what I could say of my chapter and then I should goe get my breakfast what I thought good and then goe to worke sildome ready. for which my mother would often chide me for my late riseing as also for my dulnes, and \[for]/ loving to be alone, but I doe not remember that it brought any inconveniance to me, for I thought my selfe happie in being somtimes pri-vat that I might powre foorth my selfe in praires to* my father in secret. or else I did ofton (after this) invent or doe some kind of worke. which they thought unposible for me to doe (and not learn) I bringing it foorth afterwards. I remember my mother told my father one day of all the Children she had she knew the lest of my I knit \net/ me apare of glovs and rote dram worke after dispotition for in those \worldy/* things she thought to make me delight in I cared not for. ( yet* afore these 2 yeeres she prevaled with me to keepe a hen which brought me some eges, which when I had gathered mony for them I bought me 2 bookes) also she observed me to be constant to whom, or to what I affected. she therefore desired I +should+chouse or love the in this time my father would have had me learn to sing for the benefit of my lungs but I had no mind to it best,

Now a suden trembleing of heart tooke my mother which caused her somtimes to crie out. she being weake and for coolnes this sumener tooke the breast, and though she was after better in coole weather going up and downe and striving more for her health then ever she did, yet then she would complane of coldnes saying she had truely undergon the Mr horspoole gave my mother phisicke and should have given me too but that he had no lucke somtimes she complaned of heat but often of coold in summer and winter too saying that Mr [illeg.] againe too often let her blood. my mother would often speake of the good and true pickture of mortification in my Granmother as it were wishing for it. she said it would be strang if I should doe it, but I rather thinke it strange that she should say so for I had no skill to note such a thing for a great many years after this now I drew [fl]owers and panted them with water coleures which our men had infirmities of old age, now for 2 or 3 yeere my mother had left taking of phisicke thinking she was better without \it/ but my father perswaed her not to leave it altogether. also my mothe\r/ would have had me a taken some but it has never beene my hap to take any great matter worth the name of phisicke (I praise him who is the auther of my health that nessicity drove me not to it) nether was I now willing for I was not sicke but as I have before shewed; my mother divers time \giving me/ things to harten me. which somtimes I should by stelth get as I did once to a glasse* of strong water taking a letle and so by degrees thirsting for more till thy grace (my God) reclamed me knowing in what case I begane to be in, which might have bene a foule sinne and shame unto me, but now hath been a worning to me ever sence, my mother somtimes speaking of my heavenes (I having not that quicknes of Spirit like her or my sister) said she thought it was because I was borne on a Saturday and that the planet after which the day was called, had dominion over me,