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after the death of my mother my father gave me in charge to keepe things of the house, and to looke over his maides. but I was partly willing to ease my selfe. with letting those old servants keepe and doe those things which before they had done. espetialy mary [hole in the paper obscuring letter] 58 who had bin with us from our childhood being kind to us they having better experiance then my selfe and whom I knew to be faithfull; also my father let me keepe the Dary mony to bie what I needed for my selfe and Sister and some things of the house writing them downe that I \might/ know [word scrubbed out] how to doe things the better

And now Lord what shall I render to thee for all thy benefits towards me. for from the beginning as I take it at this Mickilmas I and my Brother and Sister received thou hast nourished me Namely besides the benefit of creation for then thou gavest unto me my selfe. But now for my redemptionthou hast given thy selfe unto mee: of thy mere mercie and goodnes and since thou receivest me into thy Church by Baptisme. thou hast divers times called me to thee by thy word. and now for a Salve and cure of all my sinnes (since my Baptisme) \and/ for my Spirituall growth that I may be confirmed. strengthened. and stablished in all vertuous and godly liveing59 thou hast reconciled and sealed me to thee: even by the Sacra-ment of thy precious Body and Blood. even the cup of salvation therefore will I offer \to/ thee \the/ sacrifce of praise. and will call upon the Name of the Lord.

At this time I was the betted *though not so well as I wish I had bin fitted to receve*. because I had divers times hard my mother instruct her maids. which as I remember was to this efect. that as verily as they receved Bread and Wine so they should "which sealeth a Blessing or a curse. receive Christ to be there Saviour with a stedfast faith that he died for us. being sorry for our sinnes past. porposeing to amend our lives and to be in love and Charity with all: and this sacrament as a or earnest Mr Smith she mentioned sermon some of that of that upon the Lord supper signe and seale" that Christ died for us and that he hath taken away our sins and imputed his righteous to us. and that hee hath made the benefit of his death and passion avaliable to us by it. also she instructed them \that/ they might understand the I wrot breadstich after my sister mended I and she wrot boothose for my Brother. I wrot a wachcase for my father. blessed Trinity. which are three persons and one God. and \that/ whatsoever the Father *doeth*\willeth/ the sonne willeth. and likewise the Holy Ghost etc. according to confession \of/ the Christian faith. also as I remember \[that?]/ a while afore this it was a great joy to me to apprehend the Blessed Trinity by that I observed out of Mr Per-Kings workes (which my Sister read to my mother) which he resembled to the \body of/ [which is one][the] sun the first person in the Trinity. the second to the light. and the third to the heat,60 and following those good duties which before I have mentioned, did for my worke the 17 yeere this yeere knit me gloves I drew me a white coife and wrot it and after a handketchiefe | and Now Lord I confesse unto thee that sin which raigined too much in my youth. being proud of those naturall parts which thou gavest me, which since (and the foolishnesse of the frinch facion made me more proud. increased as my yeres increased. especially as I was commended by any. at this time I loved too much to be in my cosen Eusebys Isham company. because I thought he had a good opinion of me. a while afore this he spake thus. if one could tell how to gett thee away. but I was not minded according to his meaning. for or I was not so hasty to marry I was not hasty of Marriage. but how soever I was fully bent not to mach against my or parrents [my mother) was living] frindes liking for then I expected not to prosper; I now thinking my selfe unked without a mother to goe into any great company. (and withall being minded to see the world) desired to goe with my Aunt Washington to London. who was now here, and my uncle and she very kindly desired my father that I might goe with them who was contented so I went to my Unkle house at wesbery the furthest journy I was yet from home I being somthing sicke by the way. my uncle and Aunt with my cosen Martha kindly entertained me*

58. This is probably Mary Ashwell.
59. Quotation from the Book of Common Prayer, from the collect for the Feast of All Saints.
60. An image Perkins uses several times, for example in An exposition of the symbol or creed of the apostles , 'For the sunne it selfe, and the sunne-beames are both ioyned together, yet they are not both in all places together. For the bodie of the sunne is onely in the heauens, but the sunne-beames are also vpon the earth.' (p. 337) See a similar comment in A golden chaine (p.398). Note that, strictly speaking, this is a Christological rather than Trinitarian metaphor (I could not find Perkins comparing the heat of the sun to the Spirit).