Item 7 (Commentary, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 6r

Of Angels.

That every man hath a particular Angel to assist him

...

and we must bless God for but not pray to them. See D. Feat.

[Austen's note 'See D. Feat.' may refer to Daniel Featley's sermon in Clavis Mystica (1685) that is her source text here. In this sermon, Featley writes of the 'superstitious error' of those who believe we should pray to angels. Austen's note here may thus be a reminder to herself of this superstitious error rather than an indication of an extended debt to Featley in the passage.]

Item 8 (Commentary, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 6r-9r (rectos only)

Assistances by Angels

Good Angels often give good assistances to men

...

The paralytic man which Christ had cured. He was overloaded with himself. He had a soul in a sack, no limbs to move.

[Versos blank.]

Item 9.7.4 (Commentary, Dream, Meditation, Religious writing, Vision), fols. 14r-15r (fol. 14v is blank)

A discussion of prophetic visions and miracles, compared to revelation by God's word.

If any had told Socrates that he saw a divine vision, he presently esteemed him vain and proud.

...

Yet we are not to conclude God in his Law, as that he should have no prerogative, nor so to bind him up in his ordinances, as that he never can, or never does work by an extraordinary way of Revelation.

Item 13 (Commentary, Dream, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 21r-22r (rectos only; fol. 21v blank)

Katherine Austen's meditation and commentary on her own 'dream of monition'

Observation on my Dream of Monition.

Certainly I may have an expectation, a dependence of something extraordinary, to befall me

...

Yet my God hath sweetened those bitterness, else the gall would have been impossible to take.

Item 14 (Autobiography, Letter, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 22v-23r

An address to a man who has called Austen an 'old goat', followed by a reflection on the punishment she wishes for him and a meditation on the good things in her life (particularly her little daughter, Anne).

Sir if you had been a Gentleman, as you pretend to, you would have had civiler words in your mouth.

...

And this is the true sanctuary of refuge and rest. See pag. 85. [fol. 71v]

Item 15 (Biblical writing, Commentary, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 23v-24r

Example of Joseph to his Brethren not to revenge

It was a lasting remembrance the dread which Joseph's brethren was in

...

Then was his Chastity assaulted, and instead of Honour brought to a prison by a shameful manner, appearing to his disgrace.

[Fol. 24v is blank.]

Item 16 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 25r-30r (rectos only; versos blank except fol. 27v.

Of the Feare of God

No man is more miserable than he that fears God as an enemy

...

Yet still the fire is kept alive, it burns within, when the light breaks not forth.

See B. C. [Book C] what the fear of the Lord is. P. 121. I will teach you the fear of the Lord.

[On fol. 27v, a cross-reference is written 'B. A. [Book A] xSee p. 125. in Miracles of Divine mercy.']

Item 22 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 34r

A meditation on Hildegard of Bingen and her qualities as a prophet, drawn from Thomas Fuller's The Holy State.

Of Hildegardis

God first humbles and afflicts, whom he intends to illuminate with more than ordinary grace

...

Hildegardis was for certain a gracious virgin, and God might perform some great wonders by her hand.

[See Fuller (1642).]

[Fols. 34v-35r are a blank opening.]

Item 23 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 35v

A meditation on Katherine Austen's troubles and afflictions, in particular her widowhood.

Surely my God is preparing for me halcyon days for days of trouble and molestation I have found from men.

...

Continue thy help in all my crosses, o God of help and father full of pity. Amen.

[At the top of fol. 35v, before item 23 begins, are two notes, which read 'B. J. [Book J] pag. 87.' and 'Here add this to B. C. [Book C] 131 or B. F. [Book F] pag. 79'.]

Item 25 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 36r-38r

A meditation on the benefit of afflictions, drawing on Jeremy Taylor's The Rule and Exercises of Holy Living (1653), running on the rectos of 36r-38r, with related brief meditations and notes on the versos.

Item 25.1 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 36r-38r (rectos only, plus a note identifying the source on fol. 37v)

A meditation on the benefit of afflictions, drawing on Jeremy Taylor's discussion 'Of Contentedness' in The Rule and Exercises of Holy Living (although not following it verbatim for long).

Wait on God's time for thy deliverance out of troubles

...

I will never leave thee nor forsake thee. Friends and estate may and thou wilt never. See B. A. [Book A] 143.

[See Taylor (1653), especially pages 153-155.]

Item 25.2 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 36v (separate from but related to the text on fols. 36r-38r)

Of afflictions' benefit

Great are the riches that are hidden in tribulation.

...

And unfortunate indulgence abandons us to contagious prosperity.

Item 25.4 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 37v

We are apt to believe the first part of the Covenant blessings and mercies. But not the second part which belongs to us, resignation and obedience.

[This is the complete text of this meditation.]

Item 26 (Diary entry, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 38v

9 Nov. [November] 1664.

It pleased God to take away an honest servant William Chandeler

...

Now the work is done and 1/2 an hour after died, speaking to the last minute.

Item 27 (Diary entry, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 39r-v

27 Nov. 64.

Upon paying for the fall of Mr Rich's house.

May I as readily receive losses with patience as thy bounty with gladness.

...

And that hand of Love will crown me. Amen.

[The date is written at the top of fol. 39v, but seems to relate to the whole piece.]

Item 28 (Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 39v

Lord if it be thy will, say it is enough to thy servant my days and years of sighing; and enter not into judgement with thy servant for before thee no flesh can be found acceptable.

[This is the complete text of this meditation.]

Item 29 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 40r

A meditation on the duty to praise God like the Psalmist David.

My God grant I may begin that triumphant duty to praise thee on earth

...

O let me magnify and bless thy name for that great mercy and blessing to me, surely with David thy mercies are more in number than I can count.

Item 31 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 40r-40v

A meditation on remarriage, inciting herself to remain a widow.

I wish I may rightly understand of things and consider my condition may be happy if I will help to make it so.

...

What a far blesseder condition is it to be daily supported and directed by the aid of heaven, by the assistance of his mercy to me.

Item 34.1 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 42r

I know o Lord thou canst glorify thy name, in the destruction and extirpation of me and mine.

...

Let them be a family thou mayst delight to save them and deliver them from the many dangers and accidents, from their enemies and from the devices of supplanters to them

Item 34.3 (Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 42r

Lord imprint every day more in me and my children the marks of thy bounty, that we should receive so much, and deserve so little.

[This is the complete text of item 34.3.]

Item 37 (Autobiography, Meditation), fol. 44v

A meditation on ingenuity and education, relating to herself.

There is nothing I adore more in this world than ingenuity

...

And for the proper derivation of the word, I am not a scholar to know from where it comes.

Item 38 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 45r-45v

Upon Sister Austen's unkindness to me upon all occasions.

My punishment is for that sin.

...

A poor condition God does afford contentment, as well as rich.

['Sister Austen' is Katherine Austen's sister-in-law, the wife of her husband's brother, John (see biographical article).]

Item 42 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 49r-50r

A series of meditations on honour, particularly in relation to wealth and in contrast to mediocrity.

Of Ho. [Honour] Contraries.

Item 42.1 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 49r

Of Ho. [Honour] Contraries

Contraries, and transcendants have a relation though by opposition one to another.

...

And know for what extravagance it was sold.

Item 42.2 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 50r

Of Honour.

I esteem Honour not anything worth, unless it be well guarded with wealth

...

or contrive unworthy detainings of any person's money, whereby I am made most really contemptable.

Item 42.3 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 49v

True honour consists not so much in those preferments and titles of the world

...

The honour of worthy actions brings not only peace of mind, but makes the goodmen to shine. P. 18 Gaud.

[This item is followed by a note, at the end of fol. 49v, reading 'Book J. pag. 12 of mediocrity and of honour'.]

Item 42.4 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 50r

Reflections on honour, wealth and remarriage.

Perhaps I may change my condition after I have answered some designs.

...

A rich woman must not marry with a person of mean fortune.

Item 42.5 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 50r

A meditation on mediocrity and honour.

Surely mediocrity is the happiest condition we can obtain.

...

And yet he may be as happy by a sweet peace without going up those additional steps which creates obligations.

[This item is followed by a series of notes, at the bottom of fol. 50r, reading 'See Book C pag. 50. The ill effect of honour, p. 73. and pag. 21', in [illeg.] book. Arguments for it: man is made to grow: p. 63 Book C. Book [illeg.]'.]

Item 43 (Autobiography, Family record, Meditation), fol. 51r

1664

I observe what a long and healthy age my Grandmother Rudd lived above 80

...

Dear mother thou hadst a great estate and a great burden too.

Item 45 (Diary entry, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 52r

These two last weeks have been weeks of discomposure to me, of troubles.

...

Sprinkle Lord with thy blessing all my actions if it be thy will, however with patience and discretion to govern myself in all that shall befall me.

Item 46 (Accounts, Autobiography, Diary entry, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 52r-53r (fol. 52v is blank)

Upon lending Mr C. money

His abominable rudeness for my kindness to him, I may learn a lesson from.

...

And thus I may be glad I have met with some to prevent more.

Item 48 (Commentary, Dream, Family record, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 54r

On the death of Mr Francis Duffield, my husband's cousin germane. Died De. [December] 18 1664 of smallpox, aged 35 [or 33; difficult to read] at Medenham.

How many young persons are dead since I had my dream gave me intimation of mine.

...

I may not shrink by fear, but learn to render up myself to the Almighty's pleasure.

Item 49 (Biblical writing, Commentary, Meditation, Psalm, Religious writing), fol. 55r

A religious meditation based on Austen's reading of Psalm 68.

O this day in the multitude of things I am aweary.

...

Yet in patient bearing and forbearing, he went beyond all men before him.

Item 50 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 55v

On my troubles in 1664.

My troubles may be above the strength of nature

...

but still his favour will shine upon me in this time of peril.

[Austen refers to Jeremy Taylor in the course of this meditation, but there is no reference to a specific text.]

[A cross in the margin half-way through this meditation marks its connection to the next item.]

Item 51 (Family record, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 55v

This 5th May 1666 my multitude of business and of cross affairs I do renew that petition that my God would strengthen me and waft me over this ocean where I am.

[This is the complete text of item 51.]

[A cross in the margin half-way through item 50 matches a cross at the beginning of msItem 51, which has apparently been added to the page two years later.]

Item 52 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 56r

To attain a sweet nature

The beginning of a gracious disposition is to be qualified with joy.

...

what sour, peevish dispositions ariseth in the temper of men and women.

Item 53 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 56r

To spend time

Consider how to spend my time, not trifling away, but with method

...

But he is far worse than a beast. Their nature is to be ignorant, 'tis man's fault if he be so.

Item 54 (Diary entry, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 56v

Jan. 28 1664 [1665]

Troubles

Remember David and all his afflictions.

...

Free me from the perplexities of troublesome men, who makes advantages of accidental casualties

Item 55 (Diary entry, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 56v

Feb. 10th

My gracious Father, help thy servant out of the multitude of encumberances that does beset me round.

...

what are the sins lie hidden and unrepented of, that thy displeasure is so many ways upon me.

Item 58 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 57r

20 Feb.

[The first digit of the number has been altered, and is not clearly readable]

How does God Almighty comfort me, that he relieveth the fatherless and widows.

...

O praise the Lord while I live that hath been the help of the afflicted and hath been so to every generation. See Psalm 6 and 7th.

Item 70 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 61v

Meditation

If the Lord is not on our side, how men rise up against us.

...

And sanctified adversity is better than fortunes, where heaven denies it.

Item 71 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 61v

Sure if they take away our estate, three worlds would hear of it. Heaven, Earth, and Hell. Hell would gape, Earth would complain, and Heaven would judge.

[This is the complete text of this item.]

Item 74 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 62r-62v

A meditation focusing on the passing of six years since the death of Austen's husband.

Heaven can light my candle

...

That all widows and orphans, all fatherless and friendless, may put their trust in God, may set their hope in him, who hath been my ready defence in the years of my distress, then when the water floods were ready to drown me.

[A cross appears before the following passage, in the middle of this meditation on f. 62r (it is not clear whether there is a corresponding cross elsewhere in the manuscript): I could not be at home the 14th of February to rejoice in the favours of God in preserving me in 6 years of troubles, I waiting on the Committee, but I may have another day may give the relation of it.]

[For the significance of six years, see biographical article.]

Item 80 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 65r

On their reporting our business to the Parliament the day they were rising.

Now I am sure this is the time all my monitions to me tended.

...

And I shall magnify his name, whether we have it, or whether we lose it, for thy mercy hath and will endure forever.

Item 84 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fols. 67v-68r

On report at Parliament.

For this complaint of oppression, God hath punished the Land formerly, in the great Calamities which fell upon the times.

...

O God that hast heard the sighing of oppressed widows, of helpless orphans heretofore, hear me at this time.

[Three lines of this item, at the bottom of fol. 67v, have been scored out.]

Item 85 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 68r

Meditation.

O merciful Father. Let me never forget thy testimonies of conduct.

...

that if it seems good in this sight of God, to lend us that pleasant and fruitful Canaan, to possess to his Glory.

Item 86 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 68v

1665

Surely when I consider the passages of my widow state, what a blessing I am to be thankful

...

Let us still observe that which can never be too much observed, how Divine providence never fails the innocent.

Item 88 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 69r

O God though my enemies seek to take advantage upon my weak and destitute and helpless condition

...

Surely he that helps those that cannot help themselves will disappoint their devices.

Item 89 (Autobiography, Meditation, Address to the reader), fol. 69v

In Answer to one why not marry to ease me of my burdens.

O noe Cousin, marriage should be peaceable

...

when I have parted with my interest, can render a compensation.

Item 90 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 70r-70v

Many women have had great Afflictions.

...

God the Father of peace[?], God the son the prince of peace, God the holy spirit the

[This meditation ends with an incomplete sentence.]

Item 91 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 70v

Blessed be the Lord that hath given me a rebuke in this so near expectation of ours.

...

And the result of this will be converted for the best, let the event be seemingly displeasant.

Item 92 (Diary entry, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fols. 70v-71r

25 March 1665 at the Sac. [Sacrament]

The Light of Heavens Divine providence hath hitherto been my Splendour, my Luminary.

...

By the perpetual changes we see in this world, God will prepare us for those durable constancies we shall find forever in the next.

[Three lines before the end of this meditation, an indented note reads 'Begin. this discourse p. 33 [fol. 36r], ending 39 [fol. 42r]. Begins at page 56 [fol. 56v] to 84 [fol. 71r; this page]. This note appears to link together, thematically, msItems 25-34 and msItems 54-92. MsItems 25-34 are mostly concerned with trials and afflictions, and their benefits (drawing on Jeremy Taylor); msItems 54-92 are predominantly concerned with Austen's own tribulations in relation to Highbury in 1664/5.]

Item 94 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 71v-72r

Certainly if there was such a story of that Queen's grief which brought the comfort of her Lover to her

...

O thou holy spirit my sanctifier, sanctify thy servant to discharge thy will.

[At the bottom of fol. 71v is the note 'See page 170'. The last numbered page in this manuscript is p. 168 [f. 113v].]

Item 95 (Autobiography, Meditation, Notes, Religious writing), fol. 72r

The last week I attended a friend of mine (Cousin Birkenhead's wife, Mr Prier's daughter) to her grave.

...

The 21 April Aunt Wilson mother to Cousin Samuel Wilson. ['Aged 79' also appears at the end of this msItem, but it is unclear whether it refers to 'Aunt Wilson'.]

Item 96 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 72v

Of Newington Barrow [Highbury; standardise place] hazard, 1665.

If there is such a power can take away that which the Laws of the Land does affirm to us

...

And how many parties to satisfy, and to behave myself obliging too. Direct me my God.

Item 97 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fols. 72v-73r

Lord how are they increased that trouble me?

...

Thou hast not forsaken them who depends on thy promises, and seekes thee with a true sincere heart. Read 27 Psalm.

Item 98 (Autobiography, Commentary, Dream, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 73r

What shall I say of my foregoeing felicities.

...

And let that blessing on a dying nation take all that I can offer.

Item 99 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 73v

Of English and Dutch Quarrel, 1665

I pray God compose an agreement, and union between both Nations.

...

Now you unworthy nation are become injurious and insolent to your obliged benefactors, who created you.

Item 100 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 73v

On the battle at sea, June 1666.

Every one in these sad encounters prays and desires a particular prosperity.

...

and that all parties may be ready to comply to amity and detest the fury of blood and slaughter of mankind.

Item 101 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 74r

Upon God's giving me health.

Surely o God when I was attended with discomposing infirmities

...

Praised be the God of my help. Read 7 Psalms called the Hallelujahs, before 119.

Item 102 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 74r

How shall we hide ourselves under those storms of calamity and scenes of these miseries of mankind, but under thy wings o Lord.

[This is the entire text of item 102. It appears to relate to or follow on from msItem 100: they appear at the bottom of two facing pages, fol. 73v and fol. 74r respectively.]

Item 103 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 74v-75v

Upon my Jewel.

Surely in the sparks of this Gem, I can see the sparks and shinings of God's love dart out to me.

...

O thou the helper of the destitute instruct me to those ends. See book J 89.

Item 104 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 76r

Some persons may think me void of ordinary understanding to make so much of a trivial thing of so small external value.

...

But the great God hath done it.

Item 105 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 76v

Who knows but perhaps God in his providence sent me 6 years of trouble to prepare and fit me for the bountiful and prosperous blessing God was making ready for me and for my son.

...

and know how to manage so great favours of God's providence.

Item 106 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 77r-78r

See Meditation in Parchment book, p. 73, on my 36th year. This on my 37th, April 30th 1665, being Sabbath day.

God Almighty hath been pleased to add another year to my life

...

And now the 37th year of my life is in the seventh year of my widowhood.

Item 107 (Autobiography, Diary entry, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 78r-79r, but not 78v (see item 108)

This 30th of April 1666.

In the recital of the dangers of this year, I may well add and apply to that observation of the last year

...

Let us remember how eminently thy favour hath been our hiding place.

[This item has been added the year after item 106.]

Item 108 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 78v

To rejoice in God, a duty in all conditions.

My God let me be assured, whatever rugged path thou hast designed and dictated for me to pass

...

And what Saint did ever exceed him [St Paul] in his joys in Christ.

Item 109 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 79v-80v

May 20 [1665]

If the Parliament takes away our estate, who are to sit in June next.

Blessed Alderman (Highlord) [Alderman John Highlord]. How do I revere thy memory, who wast the foundation in a great part of my second and later fortune

...

And however they succeed in this world, it may not be a snare to their family or ruin to their eternal estate.

[About three-quarters of the way down fol. 80r, a cross and the number 107 directs us to p. 107 [f. 82v], where msItem 113 has been added at the bottom of the page.]

[For Alderman John Highlord, see biographical article.]

Item 111 (Autobiography, Commentary, Meditation, Psalm, Religious writing), fols. 81r-82r

A meditation drawing on Psalms 120 and 121, written on the occasion of Austen's sister-in-law issuing a suit against her for the property of the Red Lion.

Upon 25 May 1665, the receiving a writ to go to trial at the suit of Sister Austen against me

...

I think them well, and am not ready to see their depravity so run into them with a consent.

[It is possible, although it seems unlikely, that fol. 82r, where Austen moves from Psalm 120 to Psalm 121, was written on a separate occasion.]

Item 112 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 82v

On the trial

My heart desires to resign the events of this world to God's blessed pleasure.

...

Rather o God let him [Austen's son, Thomas] lose all that this world can given than lose that or thy grace to carry and fit him to a heavenly inheritance.

[[apparently the trial concerning Highbury, not the Red Lion]]

Item 113 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 82v

It is possible to be wronged, and defeated and put by his right by injustice

...

that widows may be their prey, and that they may rob the fatherless.

[A cross and 'page 102' [fol. 80r] next to this item indicates that it is an addition to msItem 109, added to spare space at the bottom of f. 82v.]

Item 114 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 83r

The 30th May [1665], the day before the trial.

O thou natural vice of envy. How ready to be filled with it

...

She can have no triumph over me, nor I can have no loss.

Item 115 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 83v

On the success to us of that suit.

The Judges this day have sentenced for us.

...

That the Lease was fit to continue with me for the preservation of his interest to whom it did belong.

Item 116 (Verse, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 84v

June 16 1665 on L. Barks. suit with me for H. [Highbury]. Meditation.

Thy favour most great Lord, thy favour show

...

Not wound my soul when thy bright aid imparts.

[This poem is numbered '13' in the left hand margin.]

Item 118 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 85v

Not to doubt of a God.

Let us not be startled by the variety of Religions and opinions in the world.

...

As well as Esther and Judith and Deborah.

Item 119 (Meditation, Dialogue, Religious writing), fol. 85v

One troubled his friend was like to die.

...

There is no comparison betwixt a saint and a sinner.

Item 122 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fols. 86v-87r

On Sickness.

O God thou hast exercised thy servant long in sorrows.

...

and we shall be insecure and tossed on the point of danger til we do arrive at that everlasting haven of peace.

Item 123 (Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 87r

The Lord have compassion on these multitudes of people that are took away daily

...

Then will they be happier than if they were transferred to be Kings and Princes in this world.

Item 124 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 87v-88r

A further meditation on the plague.

God's time of deliverance is the best,

...

Abraham had been told him in a dream. Gen. 15.13.

Item 125 (Autobiography, Commentary, Meditation, Psalm, Religious writing), fols. 88v-89r

A further meditation on the plague, drawing on Psalm 91.

91st Psalm, 12 July 65 [1665].

I will say of the Lord he is my refuge

...

David composed this 91 Psalm when 70000 died in 3 days.

Item 128 (Autobiography, Meditation, Prayer, Religious writing), fol. 89v

July 30 1665

O Lord in mercy spare this slender family in this populous contagion.

...

Be entreated o God to give a cessation to the destroying Angel, to stop the rigour of the calamity.

Item 129 (Commentary, Meditation, Psalm, Religious writing), fol. 89v

Psalm 76.

Thou dost cause Judgment to be heard from heaven.

...

The righteous hath hope in his death.

[It is possible that msItems 128 and 129 have been composed as one.]

Item 130 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 90r

May not the thoughts of death dismay me

...

For Highbury, and for the Swan my buildings, may they never possess my desires, or swallow my heart.

Item 131 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 90v-91r

A meditation on the occasion of a suitor seeking her affections, inciting herself to remain a widow for the sake of preserving the family estate.

O my God that hath kept me all my lifetime, keep and defend me in this temptation now.

...

And who can be safe without that special aid, which I depend on in all my surprisements, and will not leave me if I go not from that father of my spiritual and temporal conduct. 114. See 131.

[The contents of p. 114 [fol. 86r] bear no relation to this meditation; but on p. 131 [fol. 94v] Austen meditates further on the dangers of remarriage.]

Item 132 (Commentary, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 91v

A meditation on prosperity and adversity, drawing on Austen's reading of John Donne's funeral sermon for Sir William Cokayne, Alderman and Lord Mayor of London [see DNB], preached at St Paul's on 12 December 1626.

The most remarkable points I have observed out of all the works of Doc. Donne [John Donne] I doe refer to two points. Which are prosperity, and adversity.

...

Honour and fortune crowned his industry, crosses and troubles did the same to his graces, which fitted him for his highest and eternal Crown.

Item 137 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 94v-95v

A reflection on the benefits of not remarrying, in which Austen discusses and dissuades herself from the attractions of a suitor.

We must not run into weak conditions and consent to a dishonourable marriage

...

Thus that person which pretends so great affection to me may be satisfied with an honest conversation and such lawful allowed conferences.

[A note at the end of item 131 [fol. 91r] indicates the link between that msItem and this. Distinctions between items 137-140 are not always clear: all deal with the suitor in one aspect or another.]

[Barbara Todd identifies Austen's suitor as a Scottish physician named Alexander Callendar ('A Young Widow', p. 210).]

Item 141 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 98r-98v

A providential description of Austen falling from a tree in October 1665.

How shall I be able to recite this act of commemoration by the escaping immediate death on a surprise.

...

and if the Almighty had not sent and helped me, I had been blown out, and should no more returned til the great Day.

Item 143 (Accounts, Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 99v-100r

A meditation on the hardships Austen has endured over six years, focusing on her financial hardships, into which is embedded a list of monies she has lost or loaned to other parties between August 1664 and Michaelmas 1665.

Meditations on the sickness and of Highbury.

Through six afflictions God has promised to carry his children, and in the seventh they shall be delivered.

...

At this time is arrived that most bounteous blessing of Highbury, which I hope will wade me through the residue of my expensive buildings and disappointment of rents from a general cause / stroke.

[For the significance of the six-year period, see biographical article.]

Item 144 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 100v-101r

A further meditation focusing on Austen's difficulties over a period of six years, and on her current state of financial hardship.

Far be it from me to imagine I have had those helps and deliverances from my difficulties by the conduct of my own understanding.

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What a heart ought I to have, to be disposed and devoted to his glory.

Item 151 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 103v

On that day Highbury came out of Lease, Mic. [Michaelmas] 1665.

Am I the person am to reap the first fruits of that long expectation

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Highbury. To bury those that are mounted never so high in this world.

Item 154 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 105r

When I deduct the Legacy my Dear Mother left me (at her Decease)

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to draw me from the love and desire of this world to the pursuit of the Divine and spiritual felicities will last forever.

Item 155 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 105v

O that Heaven would direct me what I should do, whether I shall glorify his name by a contemplative private life, or by an active public life.

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We are not to disclose the secrets of a King. But it is honourable to reveal the works of God.

Item 156 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 106r

Meditation.

Bless thy servant with wisdom and industry

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and been greatly blessed by the industry and employment of my predecessors.

[This meditation occupies approximately the top third of the page; the remainder of the page is blank.]

Item 157 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 106v

Feb. 1665 [1666].

Surely I ought to sit down and call my own ways to remembrance.

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I can have that retreat to David's confident argument. That had overcome the lion and the bear, might also vanquish stout Goliath.

Item 159 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 107r

King David was the great example of trouble and confidence in that trouble to his meditations I resort to

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The Lord delivers them out of all.

Item 160 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 107v

This conflict and stratagem of my enemies' devices against us

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Because I know my enemies can go no further, nor do no more than by thy permission.

Item 161 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 107v

My Nansy [Austen's daughter, Anne] is busy and inquisitive in to all things of Husfry

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That she as well as I may see every day assisted, relieved through what heap of troubles God shall cast.

Item 162 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 108r

On Feb. 12 1665 [February 12 1665/6], on Sister Austen's renewing again her pretension for the Red Lion.

What will envy, hatred and covetousness do.

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so many chains, so many lines to put us unto that place of the Blessed where no enemy can assault us.

Item 166 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 110r

O my God, thou hast helped thy servant through infinite many plunges, and obstacles formerly

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which sin and (the) misery to destroy mankind enforces by the Law of that deplorable necessity.

[It is quite possible that msItems 165 and 166 were composed together, as companion pieces.]

Item 167 (Autobiography, Meditation), fol. 110v

One persuading me to pull down that old building on the east side of our house - to build it new.

I don't love to blot out originals

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Yet I do not by this discourse put a bar, but that other reasons may take place.

Item 168 (Autobiography, Meditation), fol. 110v

Advising to marry, and to keep what I could (if I do).

It shall never be said I lived a widow (now almost 8 years) under the veil of hypocrisy

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For my eldest, I never intended him but with a proviso, which I hope by God Almighty's blessing he will not need our three interests.

Item 169 (Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 111r

A meditation on God's providences to Austen.

1666 [see note]

Though I may be mistaken in many conceits of things, yet let me endeavour to trace the love and favour of God to me in his many kind dispensations to me

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To him I repose and fly to.

[This date and that for item 170 appear to have been added later (squeezed onto the top of the page).]

Item 170 (Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 111v-112r

Continued meditation on God's providences to Austen.

1666 [see note]

My God I do acknowledge thy providence in preferring me and bringing me in to this condition

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Thou art the Angel of the Covenant, I appeal and shelter myself, til all these calamities are over in thy time.

[This date appears at the top of 112r. It and the dateline to msItem 169 appear to have been added at a later date.]

Item 171 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fol. 112v

I see seldom anything must happen to me but must look big, not one lawsuit but divers together.

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But two great estates to us lie in my hand, my Buildings and Highbury.

Item 172 (Autobiography, Meditation, Religious writing), fols. 112v-113r

Sir Jeffery Palmer's [not identified] telling me our business was ordered to be brought before the Privy Council.

Did I think I was come to the Haven and am I sitting still in the storm?

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These two whole years have been general grievances to be afflicted with.

[A two-line insertion to this item is written on fol. 113r just below msItem 173, and is marked with a cross to be joined directly above this explicit.]

Item 64 (Meditation), fol.150r

A meditation before praying for others

O my God I am not worthy

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and hear and answer according to thy merciful nature

Item 8 (Prose, Meditation), pp. 180-196 [fols. 96v-104v]

A Meditation, or Commemoration of the Love of God the Father, Son, & Holy Ghost

God the Father pitied me when I was lost, & lov'd me when I was loathsome by Sin; Ezech: 16.5. Psalme, 51.4.

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In all these Wars I was safe in Garrisons, & was not strait'ned, nor plundered, nor separated from my dear Relations.

Item 9 (Prose, Meditation), pp. 197-207 [fols. 105r-110r]

A Meditation, or Commemoration of the Love of Christ

Christ lov'd me so dearly, that he left the Joys of his Kingdome, the Praises of his Angels, the Presence of his Father, & willingly undertook the painful Work of my Redemption

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I pronounce my self truly, & everlastingly blessed, & happy in my dearest Lord Jesus

Item 10 (Prose, Meditation), pp. 208-214 [fols. 110v-113v]

A Meditation, or Commemoration of the Love of the Holy Ghost

God the Holy Spirit made me the Object of his Love, and sanctifying-Grace

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but the Holy Ghost; the blessed Messenger of God the Father to me, & from me to the Father (through Christ) from God the Father back to me again, who resolves my Doubts

Item 5 (Meditation), pp.341-342

Meditation on enmity between family members

A man can hardly be easy under the known ill will of any relation, or one he has much to do withal.

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One cannot possibly be made uneasy or miserable, or suffer any evil at another's hands; without the violation of some Christian command which if obeyed would have secured him.

Item 6 (Meditation), pp.342-346

The Ornament of a Meek and Quiet Spirit --

By these words we easily and naturally understand, a soft and gentle temper; a peaceful calm and gentle mind; opposed to anger pride and fierceness, noisiness impatience and a restless discontent.

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but since it is in the sight of God of great price it will undoubtedly be amply recompensed with everlasting peace and rest, and quiet in the world to come.

Item 7 (Meditation), p.346

Meditation on the obligations of love

All duties and obligations to love and service of any sort, arise either from the sense and remembrance of benefits and favour past, and already received, or from the hope and reasonable expectation of benefits and favours to come and to be received;

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All duties of mankind do mutually infer one another.

Item 8 (Biography, Meditation), pp.347-349

Mr Locke

It is said in the Life of the famous Mr John Locke. That some years before his death, he applied himself entirely to the study of the Holy Scripture and found so much pleasure therein that he was very much troubled he had applied his mind to that study no sooner.

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and who by revealing His will, supposes we will employ the judgment and understanding He has given us, in acknowledging, admiring, and following it.

[The rubric is in the margin.]

Item 7 (Meditation), pp.2-3[rev]

Mortimer

No advantage can countervail the loss of honesty.

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Where there's no truth, there can be no worth; and conscience can't be strained without the loss of honour.

[The rubric is in the margin]

Item 4.43 (Meditation, Preface), fol.[291r]

Preliminary meditation on the Gospels

There is no doctrines of men but what are vitiated with some blackness of error; but the doctrine of Christ alone is white like snow, and altogether pure.

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which the philosophers also promised to the followers of their opinions; but Christ alone can give that which the world cannot give.

[Preceded by blank fols [289v-290v].]

Item 5.3 (Meditation), fols [37v-49v]

Preparatory Meditation for Receiving the Sacrament

O how good, how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity

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to the end he may establish our hearts unblameable in holiness before God even our Father at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ with all his saints. Amen

[Followed by blank fols [39r-49v].]

Item 5.3 (Commentary, Meditation), pp.88-144

The Old Testament

Genesis 1.3 Let there be light - The effect before the cause; this expresses the infinite power of God.

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All but the wisdom of being religious, is mere vanity and vexation of spirit.

Item 5.6 (Commentary, Meditation), p.145

Reflections on prophecies

The prophets have interwoven particular prophecies with those concerning the Messias, that neither the prophecies concerning the Messias should be without their proof, nor the particular prophecies without their fruit.

...

so, on the other hand these particular prophecies serving in such a manner to evince and authorize those which regarded the Messias, were not without their fruit and benefit.

Item 5.10 (Commentary, Meditation), pp.150-176

The New Testament

Matthew 1. 19. Just man - A merciful pious good natured man - This gives us example to conceal the faults and failings of our friends and relations (so much as may be with prudence and justice) from the knowledge of others.

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Oh! that these truths were transcribed in my heart.

Item 5.13 (Commentary, Meditation), pp.178-192

The Holy Prophets

Isaiah Ch.1 In a sermon I lately heard, it was said. That this chapter was accounted by the learned to be the most matchless piece of eloquence that was to be found in any author whatever.

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Take heed to your spirit, and let none deal treacherously with the wife of his youth - the Lord hateth putting away. A precept little observed in these our days --

Item 2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 1v

A paragraph on teaching children, with biblical references in the margin

God established a testimony in Jacob, and ordained a law in Israel,

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for what a child is taught in youth, he will not depart from in his age.

E.A.

Item 6 (Meditation), fol. 3v

Certain sentences, worthy often to be remembered.

Whatsoever thou takest in hand, remember the end, and thou shalt never do amiss.

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be diligent in thine own affairs, but be not hasty to meddle in other folks matters, for a busy body is hated.

[

Pointing hand at end of meditation

Item 7 (Meditation), fol. 3v

A godly and fruitful meditation.

[Two columns. On the left is a list with three marginal notes, each corresponding to three points, headed respectively, 'Remember.', 'Consider.', and 'Foresee.' (msItems 7.1-7.3). On the right is a prose meditation, relating to the list on the left (msItem 7.4). ]

Item 7.1 (Meditation), fol. 3v

Remember.

The evil we have done. The good we have not done. The time we have lost.

[In the left margin is written "three things past,"]

[This is the complete text of the item.]

Item 7.2 (Meditation), fol. 3v

Consider.

The shortness of this life. The swift passing of time. How hard it is to be saved.

[In the left margin is written "three things present"]

[This is the complete text of the item.]

Item 7.3 (Meditation), fol. 3v

Foresee.

Death most certain. Gods judgment most severe. Hell pains most intolerable.

[In the left margin is written " three things to come"]

[This is the complete text of the item.]

Item 7.4 (Meditation), fol. 3v

To remember what our substance is, being of the dust of the earth, will make us blush for shame.

...

and of heaven, to desire it, and seek the right way to attain it; which faith in God's praises, for our sins and obedience to his commandments will bring us to.

Item 9 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 4r-v

Meditations of the profit of wisdom, and holy knowledge, which is the science of saints

If any man lack wisdom let him ask of God who giveth to all men liberally, and reproacheth none, and it shall be given him.

...

For though a man be never so perfect among the children of men, yet if the wisdom of the most high be not with him he shall be nothing regarded.

[ The title and editorial corrections are in Richardson's hand (Hand A), but Hand B has written the meditation itself.]

Item 14 (Biblical writing, Meditation, Prayer), fols. 64v-83v

[Manuscript item 14 appears to correspond with number 3 in the list of contents on fol. 1v, "An instruction for prayer, precepts or sentences of scripture, and twelve prayers." This section contains 14 biblical meditations and 12 prayers, alternating except for the first three which are all meditations.]

[ Hand A (Richardson) has written fols. 64v-71r (first 2/3 of the page); Hand B has taken over on fols. 71r (bottom third)-83v as the main hand, though Richardson has heavily edited this scribe's work.]

Item 14.1 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 64v

A meditation on prayer and thanksgiving

Prayer, and thanksgiving, is the best pleasing, and most acceptable sacrifice, that we can offer unto God.

...

But we ought to have a careful respect to worship god, as he himself hath commanded. Therefore consider first,

[The final sentence of this meditation leads into the title of the next entry, "The duties concerning prayer"]

Item 14.2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 64v-66v

The duties concerning Prayer . An instruction for prayer.

Before thou prayest, prepare thyself; and be not as one that tempteth God;

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to the admiring, embracing, honouring, fearing, serving, loving, and ever praising, of that great and mighty Lord; whose glorious name be magnified for ever and ever.

Item 14.3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 66v-67r

Meditations. Of prayer.

True prayer, is the exercise of faith, the nourisher of hope, the fire to kindle charity; and it is like Jacobs ladder;

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And he is faithful and just, which hath promised it.

Item 14.5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 67v

Meditations Of faith.

Faith is the ground, of all good things which are hoped for, and the evidence of things that are not seen.

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He that heareth my word, and believeth in him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation.

Item 14.7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 68v

Meditations Of repentance and humility.

Repentance is the fruit of true faith; without which there is no remission, and without remission we can have no salvation.

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and humble themselves under his mighty hand; for as his greatness is, so is his mercy therefore for the lord is full of compassion slow to anger and of great kindness.

Item 14.9 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 69v-71r

Meditations Of confession of sins and God's readiness to pardon us.

All iniquity is a two edged sword, to slay our souls; and wickedness is a devouring fire, that cannot be quenched

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that we may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance amongst them which are sanctified by faith in Christ Jesus

Item 14.11 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 72v-73r

Concerning prayer for the church, and all temporal blessings.

I exhort saith Paul that supplications prayers and giving of thanks be made for all men for this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our saviour

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For this is the commandment of God that we believe in the name of his son Jesus Christ and love each other as he hath appointed.

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.13 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 74r-75r

Meditation To rely only upon God's mercy in sickness either for recovery, or a more happy estate by death

If any be sick, let him pray to God, the only giver of health; that you may be healed

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that howsoever it pleaseth God to dispose of us, we know that all things work together for the best, unto them that love god

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.15 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 76r

Meditations Of thanksgiving.

What have we that we have not received, therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God giver of all good things

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Therefore let us glorify God in our bodies and spirits for they are gods.

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.17 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 77v-78r

Meditations of Affliction

Misery cometh not forth of the dust neither doth affliction spring out of the earth there

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which the lord hath promised to those that love him, for we must through many afflictions enter into the kingdom of heaven.

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.19 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 79v-80r

Meditations Of thanksgiving for deliverance

Offer unto god praise and pay thy vows unto the most high, for he that offereth praise glorifieth God.

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and lift up their voice to declare his worthy praise, for he saveth and delivereth all that call upon his name, and besides him there is no other saviour

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.21 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 80v-81r

How necessary prayer is every morning.

Every day bringeth his own grief, and gives occasion of our word he cares for the continuance of our earthly welfare.

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for the hope of the unthankful shall melt like the winter ice and flow away like unprofitable water

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.23 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fols. 82r-v

How requisite prayer is at night

Except the Lord build the house and keep the city as David saith the builders and the watchman shall but lose their labours

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Therefore we may lie down and sleep in peace because the lord is our defence, and preserveth us in safety

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 14.25 (Biblical writing, Meditation), fol. 83r

The direction of our prayers

God himself saith, you shall cry unto me, and I will hear you, if you seek me you shall find me, but none cometh to the father but by the son

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and saith whatsoever you shall ask the father in my name he shall give you, that the father may be glorified in the son

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 15 (Meditation, Treatise), fols. 84r-85v

A discourse of the tediousness of life and profit of death

[ This is a precis of and meditation on Mary Sidney, Countess of Pembroke's translation of Philippe de Mornay 's A Discourse of Life and Death]

How cometh it to pass, that mankind only (amongst all other creatures) being endued with reason, should above all other living things be most senseless and sensually affected,

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but to those that live godly, death is an advantage for all things are theirs, and they Christ's, with whom they shall live for ever: amen

[Hand B, with corrections and additions by Hand A]

Item 4 (Meditation, Preface), fols 4v-6v

1. A preface or inducement to prayer./

The great God, and Lord of heaven, and earth, whose we are, and who we only ought to serve

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and cease not, to call often, as David 7 times a day upon the holy name of the Lord, by whom we shall be saved.

[In this meditation, unlike the prayers, there are a number of marginal biblical references. Beside the first lines is written Acts 17.24.27 and beside the final lines is written Psalm 119.104 and Romans 10.13. The meditations and prayers of msItems 4-15 are written by Hand C and edited by Hand A, Elizabeth Richardson.]

Item 11 (Meditation), fols 16r-17v

[These pages are paginated 23-26.]

9. A meditation or direction when you are to receive the communion.

When you comest to communicate, and receive the blessed sacrament of the Lord's supper; first banish all vain, and earthly thoughts

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to redeem us, such vile and miserable sinners, which mercy we are never able sufficiently to acknowledge and admire,

Amen

[In this meditation, unlike the prayers, there are a number of marginal references, usually biblical. Beside the first lines is written ""Devotio Coll: 3:2:"" and beside the final lines is written ""1 Peter 4"" and " "thankfullnes""]

Item 21.10 (Meditation, Prayer), fols 29v-30r

A fruitful meditation not to be said with the mouth lightly: to be cried with heart and mind oft and mightily

Item 22 (Meditation, Prayer), fols 37r-48r

Meditations and a prayer

Out of Granatensis Meditations. How consideration helpeth faith

[These are a series of meditations on consideration. At least the first few are extracted from Luis de Granada's Of Prayer and Meditation. Contayning foure-teene Meditations, for the seauen dayes of the Weeke: both for Mornings and Euenings. Treating of the principall matters and holy misteries of our fayth. Written by F. Lewes de Granada., first published in 1582. I consulted the 1592 edition (An Excellent Treatise of Consideration and Prayer. Written by the same author F. Lewes de Granada, in Portugall: and annexed to his Booke of Meditations) and found excerpts from msItems 22.1-22.4 in that volume (see below). The rest of the meditations in this section might also be extracted from Luis de Granada's work but they were not obvious from a quick search.]

Item 22.1 (Meditation), fol. 37r

Out of Granatensis Meditations. How consideration helpeth faith

[This section is extracted from Luis's meditation on how consideration helps faith, sig. A6r-A8v, pp. 11-16 in 1592 edition.]

Item 22.2 (Meditation), fol. 37v

How consideration helpeth hope

[This section is extracted from Luis's meditation on how consideration helps hope, sigs A9r-A10v, pp. 17-20 in 1592 edition.]

Item 22.3 (Meditation), fols 38r-39r

How consideration helpeth charity

[This section is extracted from Luis's meditation on how consideration helps charity, sigs A10v-B4v, pp. 20-32 in 1592 edition.]

Item 22.4 (Meditation), fols 39r-v

How consideration helpeth devotion

[This section is extracted from Luis's meditation on how consideration helps devotion, sigs B5r-B8r, pp. 33-39 in 1592 edition.]

Item 22.5 (Meditation), fol. 40r

The consideration of the benefits of Almighty God towards mankind

[In this meditation, the benefits of God to man may be reduced to five kinds: the benefit of creation, conservation, redemption, vocation, and secret benefits.]

Item 22.6 (Meditation), fols 40r-41r

The benefit of creation

Item 22.7 (Meditation), fol. 41r-v

The benefit of conservation

Item 22.8 (Meditation), fol. 41v

3. Of the benefit of redemption

Item 22.9 (Meditation), fols 41v-42r

4. Of the benefit of vocation

Item 22.10 (Meditation), fols 42v-44v

The second calling

Item 22.11 (Meditation), fol. 44v

Benefits positive

[This section contains just one sentence: ""Be suche as a man may sometymes vnderstand and knowe them"".]

Item 22.12 (Meditation), fol. 44v

Privative benefits

Item 22.13 (Meditation), fols 44v-45v

The consideration of God's benefits

Item 22.14 (Meditation), fols 45v-46r

3. Of the benefit of redemption

Item 22.15 (Meditation), fols 46r-48r

How greatly we are bound to our Lord for the manner of our redemption

Item 2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [1r]-[7v]

Meditations on the Book of Genesis

1 chapter Genesis. The first thing we read of is God's creation of the world.

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O let us ever do right and justice, and the Lord will bless us.

Item 3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [7v]-[10v]

Meditations on the Book of Exodus

1 chapter Exodus. The doing no ill nor violence God rewards

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O Lord reject me not, but forgive my iniquities: which God of his mercy grant.

[Short line indicates beginning of new book of the Bible.]

Item 4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [11r]-[12v]

Meditations on the Book of Leviticus

Leviticus; 1 chapter. Here we see God commanded them to offer up an offering for their sins

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in him we have redemption through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Item 5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [12v]-[15v]

Meditations on the Book of Numbers

1 chapter Numbers. There the children of Israel was numbered, but the Levites they was not numbered.

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and to endeavour to be admitted amongst the elect, and to him who is most holy.

Item 6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [15v]-[19v]

Meditations on the Book of Deuteronomy

1 chapter Deuteronomy. There Moses blessed them saying the Lord God make you 1000 times as many more as you are

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do all in the name and praise and glory of God, to whom be all honour and power now and for evermore.

Item 7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [19v]-[21v]

Meditations on the Book of Joshua

1 chapter Joshua. Thus Joshua had the command of the Israelites

...

that we may obey him, and not follow after other Gods in whom there is no truth.

Item 8 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [21v]-[23v]

Meditations on the Book of Judges

1 chapter Judges. Judah went up to fight with the Canaanites, and had victory over them

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but let us fear the name of the Lord, and take care to perform what we vow to pay it.

Item 9 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [23v]-[23v]

Meditations on the Book of Ruth

1 chapter Ruth. Now may we see that a mother-in-law, and two daughters did well agree together.

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O let us wash our hands in innocence before we go to his altar of praise and thanksgiving.

Item 10 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [24r]-[27r]

Meditations on the 1st Book of Samuel

1 Samuel 1 chapter. Elkannah had two wives, and God did send him children by the one.

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and the Lord will pardon us for ever, and we shall be happy.

Item 11 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [27r]-[31r]

Meditations on the 2nd Book of Samuel

1 chapter 2 book Samuel. Now David heard of Saul's death and he did mourn

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and ever magnify his holy and blessed name, now and forever.

Item 12 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [31r]-[33v]

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Kings

1 Book Kings, 1 chapter. There may we see God's great goodness to David

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I beseech Almighty God, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.

Item 13 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [34r]-[37v]

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Kings

1 chapter 2 Book Kings. Now Ahaziah fell through a window and was sick

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and let our mouths show forth his praises continually.

Item 14 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [38r]-[41r]

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Chronicles

1 chapter 1 Book Chronicles. Here they set down the generation from Adam to Abraham's children

...

which blessing of his free mercy, God grant unto them, and us their parents.

Item 15 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [41r]-[46v]

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Chronicles

1 chapter 2 Book Chronicles. Here Solomon was strengthened in his kingdom

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and in obeying him, we shall obey our great Lord and our God.

Item 16 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [47r]-[47v]

Meditations on the Book of Ezra

1 chapter Ezra. Let us, when God hath blessed us, build up our heart unto the Lord.

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and doth not desire the death of a sinner.

Item 17 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [48r]-[49r]

Meditations on the Book of Nehemiah

1 chapter Nehemiah. O let us ever pray this prayer, that God will hear us in affliction

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o let us put off all vileness, and let us become holy unto the Lord.

Item 18 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [49r]-[50r]

Meditations on the Book of Esther

1 chapter Esther. Here in this chapter was the strict order for wives to obey their husbands

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for he delights in mercy and loving-kindness

Item 19 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [50r]-[55v]

Meditations on the Book of Job

1 chapter Job. Here we may see a man of patience, what plenty he had of all things

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then shall we inherit everlasting joy and felicity.

Item 23 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [59r]-[83r]

Meditations on the Book of Psalms

1 Psalms. David was a godly man, and one that was according to God's own heart

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and let us sing him praises daily, and hourly for to him is all praise due.

[The meditation on Psalm 119 is divided into 22 parts [77r]-[79r].]

Item 24 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [83r]-[89r]

Meditations on the Book of Proverbs

1 chapter Proverbs. Wisdom is to receive instruction

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and bring us into life everlasting, where we shall be in the heaven of heavens.

Item 25 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [89v]-[91v]

Meditations on the Book of Ecclesiastes

1 chapter Ecclesiastes. Here Solomon shows us great truths

...

which life God of his mercy brings us to, for Jesus Christ our redeemer's sake.

Item 26 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [92r]-[93r]

Meditations on the Song of Solomon

1 chapter Canticles. Let us say here as the church said to Christ

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and grant us his great mercies, in pardoning our offences.

Item 27 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [93v]-[106v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Isaiah

1 chapter Isaiah. Here was a vision which the prophet saw

...

that so we may not be forsaken, but received to life everlasting.

Item 30 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [110r]-[118r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Jeremiah

1 chapter Jeremiah. Here the Lord sent his holy spirit upon this prophet

...

and be heartily sorry for our misdoings, so will he pardon us, and have mercy on us.

Item 31 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [118r]-[119r]

Meditations on the Lamentations of Jeremiah

Lamentations, the 1 chapter. Here we see how the prophet bewailed the misery of Jerusalem

...

which the Lord of his infinite goodness grant unto us.

Item 32 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [119r]-[125r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Ezekiel

1 chapter of Ezekiel. Here did Ezekiel see a vision of the throne of God

...

for the comforts he hath sent, and given us.

Item 33 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [125v]-[127v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Daniel

1 chapter Daniel. Here we see that the Lord always had an eye to the children of Israel

...

and bring us to his heavenly kingdom, there to dwell with him forever.

Item 34 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [127v]-[129v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Hosea

1 chapter Hosea. Here the Lord sent, we see, another prophet to call them

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and always call upon his holy name forever and ever.

Item 35 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [130r]-[130r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Joel

The 1 chapter Joel. Here the Lord, by his prophet Joel, exhorts them to repentance

...

and let us ever give thanks for his goodness to us.

Item 36 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [130v]-[131v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Amos

1 chapter Amos. Here again the Lord sends another prophet to declare to the Israelites

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but increase, that so we may live forever, and be received to glory

Item 37 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [131v]-[131v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Obadiah

1 chapter Obadiah. Here the Lord raiseth the Israelites another prophet

...

and give us everlasting life; and ever let us praise his holy name.

Item 38 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [132r]-[132v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Jonah

1 chapter Jonah. Here God commanded Jonah to preach to Ninevah

...

desiring not the death of any, but that they should repent and live.

Item 39 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [132v]-[133v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Micah

1 chapter of Micah. Another prophet here comes to declare their sin of their idolatry to them

...

and seat us in his kingdom of glory.

Item 40 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [133v]-[134r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Nahum

1 chapter Nahum. Ninevah was destroyed by reason of their sin

...

let us ever pray for to our Lord God of Hosts.

Item 41 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [134r]-[134v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Habakkuk

1 chapter Habakkuk. A complaint against the wicked that persecute the just

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and be ever thankful for his great benefits to us.

Item 42 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [135r]-[135r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Zephaniah

1 chapter Zephaniah. Still we see here the goodness of God

...

for we are then blest forever, with his mighty power.

Item 43 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [135v]-[135v]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Haggai

1 chapter Haggai. The Lord here sends a prophet to prophesy

...

and for ever, bringing us to the life eternal.

Item 44 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [136r]-[138r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Zechariah

1 chapter Zechariah. Here the Lord sent another prophet to help them in their works

...

through his unspeakable mercies, and loving kindness.

Item 45 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [138v]-[139r]

Meditations on the Prophecy of Malachi

1 chapter Malachi. This was one of three prophets which God raised up

...

Amen, Amen, sweet Jesus; Lord God of Hosts, Amen.

Item 47 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [141v]-[142v]

Meditations on the 1st Book of Esdras

1 chapter 1 Book of Esdras. Here is mentioned the laws of Moses

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and cleanse us from all our sins and offences

Item 48 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [142v]-[146v]

Meditations on the 2nd Book of Esdras

1 chapter 2 Book Esdras. Here Esdras reproves the people for their sinfulness

...

and let the Lord God ever be magnified.

Item 49 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [147r]-[149r]

Meditations on the Book of Tobit

1 chapter Tobit. Here is the life of Tobit declared

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o Lord save thy people and bless thine inheritance.

Item 50 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [149v]-[151r]

Meditations on the Book of Judith

1 chapter Judith. Here we see that the King Nebuchadnezzar had the victory

...

o praise him now and forever.

Item 51 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [151v]-[151v]

Meditations on the Book of Esther

10 chapter of Esther. Here is repeated God's blessing to his people

...

and praise him for his infinite mercies

[Meditations on the apocryphal continuation of Esther, chapters 10-16.]

Item 52 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [152r]-[154r]

Meditations on the Book of the Wisdom of Solomon

1 chapter Wisdom of Solomon. Let us here strive to attain wisdom

...

through our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

Item 53 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [154v]-[167r]

Meditations on the Book of Ecclesiasticus

1 chapter Ecclesiasticus. All wisdom comes from the Lord

...

to whom be all praise and honour and glory now and forevermore.

Item 54 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [167r]-[168v]

Meditations on the Book of Baruch

1 chapter Baruch. He writ a book during the captivity of Babylon

...

Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, 3 persons and one God, have mercy on me.

Item 55 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [168v]-[168v]

Meditations on the Song of the Three Children

The Song of the three holy children. We see in Daniel how cruel Nebuchadnezzar was to Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego

...

and give him daily thanks for his blessings to us.

Item 56 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [168v]-[168v]

Meditations on the History of Susanna

The History of Susanna. Here we see one whose name was Joachim

...

for he is ever a good & gracious Lord to us.

Item 57 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [169r]-[169r]

Meditations on the History of Bell and the Dragon

The history of Bell and of the Dragon. Now we see here that Cyrus the Persian was king

...

for he is our strong tower of defence, and great deliverer.

Item 58 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [169r]-[169r]

Meditations on the Prayer of Manasses

The Prayer of Manasseh King of the Jews. Here he prays unto the Lord who is the Almighty God

...

let us praise the Lord God for ever and ever, putting our whole trust in him.

Item 59 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [169v]-[172r]

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Maccabees

1 Book of Maccabees 1 chapter. Here we see that after Alexander was dead

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for he redeemed Israel from all their sins.

Item 60 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [172v]-[174r]

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Maccabees

1 chapter 2 Book Maccabees. A letter was writ from the Jews into Egypt

...

and to receive us into their Kingdom, which is for ever; there are we blest forever.

Item 62 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [175r]-[175r]

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Matthew chapters 1-2

1 chapter St. Matthew. Here we see came Jesus, and his happy birth was of a virgin

...

and ever praise his holy name, and parents, and one God.

Item 64 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [176v]-[187v]

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Matthew from chapter 3

3 chapter St. Matthew. John the Baptist he preaches

...

so shall we live forever in the highest heavens, seeing our Lord Jesus our Redeemer.

Item 65 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [188r]-[196r]

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Mark

1 chapter St. Mark. Here we see that John Baptist came to prepare the way before our Saviour

...

and so with his pardon we shall have life for evermore.

Item 66 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [196v]-[210v]

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Luke

1 chapter St. Luke. Here we see that Zachariah was a priest

...

for by his merits have we mercy and which God give unto us.

Item 67 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [211r]-[223r]

Meditations on the Gospel of St. John

1 chapter St. John. Here we see that the prophet John

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and bless his holy name for ever and ever amen. So be it.

Item 68 (Biblical writing, Meditation), [223v]-[238v]

The Acts of the Apostles

Meditations on the Acts of the Apostles

The 1 chapter Acts. Here St Luke tells Theophilus, that he had made a former treatise

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to him be all glory and honour and praise given both now and forever more. Amen.

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Item 71 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [242r]-[251v]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Romans

The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Romans.

The 1 chapter. Here Paul writes to the people

...

that so they may dwell with thee forever.

Item 72 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [252r]-[263r]

Meditations on the First Epistle to the Corinthians

The First Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians

1 chapter Corinthians. Saint Paul gives thanks unto God

...

there to praise and bless his holy name forever more.

Item 73 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [263v]-[269r]

Meditations on the Second Epistle to the Corinthians

The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians

The first chapter. Here he speaks to the people of Corinth

...

and the communion of the Holy Ghost be with us all. Amen.

Item 74 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [269v]-[272r]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Galatians

The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Galatians

The first chapter Galatians. Here we see Saint Paul begins his doctrine with a blessing

...

and blessed be his holy name now and forever more. Amen.

Item 75 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [272r]-[275r]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Ephesians

The Epistle of Saint Paul the Apostle to the Ephesians

The 1 chapter. Here St Paul writes to the Ephesians given them the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ

...

to have a true blessing in him. Amen, Sweet Jesus, Amen.

Item 76 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [275v]-[276v]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Philippians

The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Philippians

1 chapter. Here we see he commends himself

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which God of his mercy grant unto us.

Item 77 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [277r]-[278v]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Colossians

The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Colossians: 1 chapter

Here Saint Paul gives God thanks for their faith

...

calling us unto himself, which God of his mercy grant unto us.

Item 78 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [278v]-[280r]

Meditations on the First Epistle to the Thessalonians

The First Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Thessalonians. The 1st Chapter.

Here Saint Paul commends them, giving thanks to God for them

...

and everlasting joy forever more.

Item 79 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [280r]-[280r]

Meditations on the Second Epistle to the Thessalonians. Chapter 1.

The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Thessalonians. 1 chapter

Here again to the Thessalonians, he gives thanks to God

...

makes us live with him, forever more.

Item 81 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [282v]-[282v]

Meditations on the Second Epistle to the Thessalonians. Chapter 2 - end.

2 Chapter. Second Epistle of St Paul to the Thessalonians

Here s[aith] their faith is desired to be

...

which God of his infinite goodness grant to us.

Item 82 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [283r]-[284v]

Meditations on the First Epistle to Timothy.

The First Epistle of Paul the Apostle to Timothy. 1 chapter

Here Timothy is put in mind of the charge

...

which God in his mercy release us from.

Item 83 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [285r]-[286r]

Meditations on the Second Epistle to Timothy

The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to Timothy

1 chapter. St Paul's love to Timothy, and grace, mercy, and peace from God

...

which God of his mercy grant unto us and to all our friends. Amen. Amen.

Item 84 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [286v]-[287r]

Meditations on the Epistle to Titus

Epistle of Saint Paul to Titus, 1 Chapter

Here Saint Paul shows them his hope of eternal life

...

which God of his mercy grant unto us

Item 85 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [287r]-[287r]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Philemon

The Epistle of Paul to Philemon

1 chapter. Paul gives thanks for Philemon's faith

...

which to God on high be all glory and honour now and forever.

Item 86 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [287v]-[291v]

Meditations on the Epistle to the Hebrews

The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Hebrews

Here St Paul shows us that God

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so he sent his holy spirit upon them.

Item 87 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [291v]-[293r]

Meditations on the Epistle of James

The General Epistle of James. The first chapter.

Here St James shows his people to Christ

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for the only love of his son, our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.

Item 88 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [293r]-[294v]

Meditations on the First Epistle of Peter

The First Epistle General of Peter

1 chapter. Here Saint Peter writes unto the elect

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so may he call us to him, who is king of king and lord of lords.

Item 89 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [295r]-[295v]

Meditations on the Second Epistle of Peter

The Second Epistle General of Peter

1 chapter. Here Simon Peter admonishes them to continue in their faith

...

in giving us salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Item 90 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [296r]-[298r]

Meditations on the First Epistle of John

The First Epistle General of John

1 chapter. The Apostle declareth what they have seen and heard from the beginning

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and give him thanks for our hopes of salvation.

Item 91 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [298r]-[298r]

Meditations on the Second Epistle of John

The Second Epistle of John

Here St John exhorts a venerable matron

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where there is no grief, but perfect comfort.

Item 92 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [298v]-[298v]

Meditations on the Third Epistle of John

The Third Epistle of John

Here he [greets Gaius] whom he loveth in the truth

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for the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ to be ever with us. Amen. Amen.

Item 93 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [298v]-[299r]

Meditations on the Epistle of Jude

The General Epistle of St Jude

Here St Jude speaketh thus

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and sing praises unto him, now and forever more.

Item 94 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), [299v]-[306v]

Meditations on the Revelation of John

The Revelation of St John the Divine

Here we are [ ] the revelations which were shown to St John

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Let us praise him now and forever more. Amen. Amen.

[Flourish at end of text.]

Item 2 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 1-11

Meditations on the Book of Genesis

On the 1st chapter of Genesis. The first thing we read of is God's creation of the world.

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O let us ever do right and justice, and the Lord will bless us.

[Running title at top of page: "On Genesis".]

Item 3 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 11-17

Meditations on the Book Exodus

On the 1st chapter of Exodus. The doing no ill nor violence God rewards

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O Lord reject me not, but forgive my iniquities: which God of his mercy grant.

[Running title at top of page: "On Exodus".]

Item 4 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 17-24

Meditations on the Book of Leviticus

On the 1st chapter of Leviticus. Here we see God commanded them to offer up an offering for their sins

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in him we have redemption through our Lord Jesus Christ.

[Running title at top of page: "On Leviticus".]

Item 5 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 21-26

Meditations on the Book of Numbers

On the 1st chapter of Numbers. There the children of Israel was numbered, but the Levites they was not numbered.

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and to endeavour to be admitted amongst the elect, to him who is most holy.

[Running title at top of page: "On Numbers".]

Item 6 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 26-32

Meditations on the Book of Deuteronomy

On the 1st chapter of Deuteronomy. There Moses blessed them saying the Lord God make you 1000 times as many more as you are

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do all in the name and praise and glory of God, to whom be all honour and power now and for evermore.

[Running title at top of page: "On Deuteronomy".]

Item 7 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 32-35

Meditations on the Book of Joshua

On the 1st chapter of Joshua. Thus Joshua had the command of the Israelites

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that we may obey him, and not follow after other Gods in whom there is no truth.

[Running title at top of page: "On Joshua".]

Item 8 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 36-38

Meditations on the Book of Judges

On the 1st chapter of Judges. Judah went up to fight with the Canaanites, and had victory over them.

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but let us fear the name of the Lord, and take care to perform what we vow to pay it.

[Running title at top of page: "On Judges".]

Item 9 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), p. 39

Meditations on the Book of Ruth

On the 1st chapter of Ruth. Now may we see that a mother-in-law, and two daughters did well agree together.

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O let us wash our hands in innocency before we go to his altar of praise and thanksgiving.

[Running title at top of page: "On Ruth".]

Item 10 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 40-45

Meditations on the 1st Book of Samuel

On the 1st chapter of Samuel. Elkannah had two wives, and God did send him children by the one.

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and the Lord will pardon us for ever, and we shall be happy.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 1st of Samuel".]

Item 11 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 45-49

Meditations on the 2nd Book of Samuel

On the 1st chapter of the 2nd of Samuel. Now David heard of Saul's death and he did mourn

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and ever magnify his holy and blessed name, now and forever.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 2d of Samuel".]

Item 12 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 49-54

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Kings

On the 1st chapter of the 1st Book of the Kings. There may we see God's great goodness to David

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I beseech Almighty God, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 1st of Kings".]

Item 13 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 54-60

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Kings

On the 1st chapter of the 2nd Book of the Kings. Now Ahaziah fell through a window and was sick

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and let our mouths show forth his praises continually.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 2d of Kings".]

Item 14 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 60-68

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Chronicles

On the 1st chapter of the 1st of the Chronicles. Here they set down the generation from Adam to Abraham's children

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which blessing of his free mercy, God grant unto them, and us their parents.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 1st of Chronicles".]

Item 15 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 68-78

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Chronicles

On the 1st chapter of the 2nd Book of the Chronicles. Here Solomon was strengthened in his kingdom

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and in obeying him, we shall obey our great Lord and our God.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 2d of Chronicles".]

Item 16 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 78-80

Meditations on the Book of Ezra

On the 1st chapter of Ezra. Let us, when God hath blessed us, build up our heart unto the Lord.

...

and doth not desire the death of a sinner.

[Running title at top of page: "On Ezra".]

Item 17 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 80-82

Meditations on the Book of Nehemiah

On the 1st chapter of Nehemiah. O let us ever pray this prayer, that God will hear us in affliction

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o let us put off all vileness, and let us become holy unto the Lord.

[Running title at top of page: "On Nehemiah".]

Item 18 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 82-84

Meditations on the Book of Esther

On the 1st chapter of Esther. Here in this chapter was the strict order for wives to obey their husbands

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for he delights in mercy and loving-kindness.

[Running title at top of page: "On Esther".]

Item 19 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 84-95

Meditations on the Book of Job

On the 1st chapter of Job. Here we may see a man of patience, what plenty he had of all things

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then shall we inherit everlasting joy and felicity.

[Running title at top of page: "On Job".]

Item 20 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 95-145

Meditations on the Book of Psalms

On the 1st Psalm. David was a godly man, and one that was according to God's own heart

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and let us sing him praises daily, and hourly for to him is all praise due.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Psalms". The meditation on Psalm 119 is divided into 22 parts (pages 132-137).]

Item 21 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 145-159

Meditations on the Book of Proverbs

On the 1st chapter of Proverbs. Wisdom is to receive instruction

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and bring us into life everlasting, where we shall be in the heaven of heavens.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Proverbs".]

Item 22 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 159-163

Meditations on the Book of Ecclesiastes

On the 1st chapter of Ecclesiastes. Here Solomon shows us great truths

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which life God of his mercy brings us to, for Jesus Christ our redeemer's sake.

[Running title at top of page: "On Ecclesiastes".]

Item 23 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 163-166

Meditations on the Song of Solomon

On the 1st chapter of the Song of Solomon. Let us say here as the church said to Christ

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and grant us his great mercies, in pardoning our offences.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Song of Solomon".]

Item 24 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 166-192

Meditations on the Prophecy of Isaiah

On the 1st chapter of Isaiah. Here was a vision which the prophet saw

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that so we may not be forsaken, but received to life everlasting.

[Running title at top of page: "On Isaiah".]

Item 24 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 166-192

Meditations on the Prophecy of Isaiah

On the 1st chapter of Isaiah. Here was a vision which the prophet saw

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that so we may not be forsaken, but received to life everlasting.

[Running title at top of page: "On Isaiah".]

Item 25 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 192-212

Meditations on the Prophecy of Jeremiah

On the 1st chapter of Jeremiah. Here the Lord sent his holy spirit upon this prophet

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and be heartily sorry for our misdoings, so will he pardon us, and have mercy on us.

[Running title at top of page: "On Jeremiah".]

Item 26 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 212-214

Meditations on the Lamentation of Jeremiah

On the 1st chapter of the Lamentations. Here we see how the prophet bewailed the misery of Jerusalem

...

which the Lord of his infinite goodness grant unto us.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Lamentations".]

Item 27 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 214-228

Meditations on the Prophecy of Ezekiel

On the 1st chapter of Ezekiel. Here did Ezekiel see a vision of the throne of God

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for the comforts he hath sent, and given us.

[Running title at top of page: "On Ezekiel".]

Item 28 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 229-233

Meditations on the Prophecy of Daniel

On the 1st chapter of Daniel. Here we see that the Lord always had an eye to the children of Israel

...

and bring us to his heavenly kingdom, there to dwell with him forever.

[Running title at top of page: "On Daniel".]

Item 29 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 233-238

Meditations on the Prophecy of Hosea

On the 1st chapter of Hosea. Here the Lord sent we see another prophet to call them to repentance.

...

and always call upon his holy name forever and ever.

[Running title at top of page: "On Hosea".]

Item 30 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 238-239

Meditations on the Prophecy of Joel

On the 1st chapter of Joel. Here the Lord, by his prophet Joel, exhorts them to repentance

...

and let us ever give thanks for his goodness to us.

[Running title at top of page: "On Joel".]

Item 31 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 239-241

Meditations on the Prophecy of Amos

On the 1st chapter of Amos. Here again the Lord sends another prophet to declare to the Israelites

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but increase, that so we may live forever, and be received to glory

[Running title at top of page: "On Amos".]

Item 32 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 241-242

Meditations on the Prophecy of Obadiah

On the 1st chapter of Obadiah. Here the Lord raiseth the Iraelites another prophet

...

and give us everlasting life; and ever let us praise his holy name.

[Running title at top of page: "On Obadiah".]

Item 33 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 242-243

Meditations on the Prophecy of Jonah

On the 1st chapter of Jonah. Here God commanded Jonah to preach to Ninevah

...

desiring not the death of any, but that they should repent and live.

[Running title at top of page: "On Jonah".]

Item 34 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 243-245

Meditations on the Prophecy of Micah

On the 1st chapter of Micah. Another prophet here comes to declare their sin of their idolatry to them

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and seat us in his kingdom of glory.

[Running title at top of page: "On Micah".]

Item 35 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), p. 246

Meditations on the Prophecy of Nahum

On the 1st chapter of Nahum. Ninevah was destroyed by reason of their sin

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let us ever pray for to our Lord God of Hosts.

[Running title at top of page: "On Nahum & Habakkuk".]

Item 36 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 246-247

Meditations on the Prophecy of Habakkuk

On the 1st chapter of Habakkuk. A complaint against the wicked that persecute the just

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and be ever thankful for his great benefits to us.

[Running title at top of page: "On Nahum & Habakkuk".]

Item 37 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 247-248

Meditations on the Prophecy of Zephaniah

On the 1st chapter of Zephaniah. Still we see here the goodness of God

...

for we are then blest forever, with his mighty power.

[Running title at top of page: "On Zephaniah".]

Item 38 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 248-249

Meditations on the Prophecy of Haggai

On the 1st chapter of Haggai. The Lord here sends a prophet to prophesy

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and for ever, bringing us to the life eternal.

[Running title at top of page: "On Haggai".]

Item 39 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 249-254

Meditations on the Prophecy of Zechariah

On the 1st chapter of Zechariah. Here the Lord sent another prophet to help them in their works

...

through his unspeakable mercies, and lovingkindness.

[Running title at top of page: "On Zechariah".]

Item 40 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 243-245

Meditations on the Prophecy of Malachi

On the 1st chapter of Malachi. This was one of three prophets which God raised up

...

Amen, Amen, sweet Jesus; Lord God of Hosts, Amen.

[Running title at top of page: "On Malachi".]

Item 41 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 255-258

Meditations on the 1st Book of Esdras

On the 1st chapter of the 1st of Esdras. Here is mentioned the laws of Moses

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and cleanse us from all our sins and offences

[Line below previous item, followed by heading: "Meditations on the Several Chapters of the Apocrypha", followed by another line. Running title at top of page: "On the 1st of Esdras".]

Item 42 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 258-265

Meditations on the 2nd Book of Esdras

On the 1st chapter of the 2nd of Esdras. Here Esdras reproves the people for their sinfulness

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and let the Lord God ever be magnified.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 2nd of Esdras".]

Item 43 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 265-270

Meditations on the Book of Tobit

On the 1st chapter of Tobit. Here is the life of Tobit declared

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o Lord save thy people and bless thine inheritance.

[Running title at top of page: "On Tobit".]

Item 44 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 270-274

Meditations on the Book of Judith

On the 1st chapter of Judith. Here we see that the King Nebuchadnezzar had the victory

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o praise him now and forever.

[Running title at top of page: "On Judith".]

Item 45 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 274-276

Meditations on the Book of Esther

On the rest of the 10th chapter of Esther. Here is repeated God's blessing to his people

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and praise him for his infinite mercies

[Meditations on the apocryphal continuation of Esther, chapters 10-16. Running title at top of page: "On Esther".]

Item 46 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 276-283

Meditations on the Book of the Wisdom of Solomon

On the 1st chapter of the Wisdom of Solomon. Let us here strive to attain wisdom

...

through our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Wisdom of Solomon".]

Item 47 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 283-305

Meditations on the Book of Ecclesiasticus

On the 1st chapter of Ecclesiasticus. All wisdom comes from the Lord

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to whom be all praise and honour and glory now and forevermore.

[Running title at top of page: "On Ecclesiasticus".]

Item 48 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 305-308

Meditations on the Book of Baruch

On the 1st chapter of Baruch. He writ a book during the captivity of Babylon

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Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, 3 persons and one God, have mercy on me.

[Running title at top of page: "On Baruch".]

Item 49 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), p. 308

Meditations on the Song of the Three Children

We see in Daniel how cruel Nebuchadnezzar was to Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego

...

and give him daily thanks for his blessings to us.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Song of the three Children. On the History of Susanna".]

Item 50 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 308-309

Meditations on the History of Susanna

Here we see one whose name was Joachim

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for he is ever a good & gracious Lord to us.

[Running title at top of page: "On the Song of the three Children. On the History of Susanna".]

Item 51 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), p. 309

Meditations on the History of Bell and the Dragon

Now we see here that Cyrus the Persian was king

...

for he is our strong tower of defence, and great deliverer.

[Running title at top of page: "On the History of Bell & the Dragon. On the Prayer of Manasses".]

Item 52 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 309-310

Meditations on the Prayer of Manasses

Here he prays unto the Lord who is the Almighty God

...

let us praise the Lord God for ever and ever, putting our whole trust in him.

[Running title at top of page: "On the History of Bell & the Dragon. On the Prayer of Manasses".]

Item 53 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 310-315

Meditations on the 1st Book of the Maccabees

On the 1st chapter of the 1st of Maccabees. Here we see that after Alexander was dead

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for he redeemed Israel from all their sins.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 1st of Maccabees".]

Item 54 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 315-318

Meditations on the 2nd Book of the Maccabees

On the 1st chapter of the 2nd of the Maccabees. A letter was writ from the Jews into Egypt

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and to receive us into their Kingdom, which is for ever; there are we blest forever.

[Running title at top of page: "On the 2nd of Maccabees".]

Item 55 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 318-341

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Matthew

On the 1st chapter of St. Matthew. Here we see came Jesus, and his happy birth was of a virgin

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so shall we live forever in the highest heavens, seeing our Lord Jesus our Redeemer.

[Large heading: "MEDITATIONS on the Several Chapters of the NEW TESTAMENT". Running title at top of page: "On St. Matthew".]

Item 56 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 341-356

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Mark

On the 1st chapter of St. Mark. Here we see that John Baptist came to prepare the way before our Saviour

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and so with his pardon we shall have life for evermore.

[Running title at top of page: "On St. Mark".]

Item 57 (Prose, Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 356-379

Meditations on the Gospel of St. Luke

On the 1st chapter of St. Luke. Here we see that Zachariah was a priest

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which kingdom the Lord in his mercy bring us to.

[Ends with heading "On the 21st chapter." Running title at top of page: "On St. Luke".]

Item 19 (Meditation), fols.73r-76v

A Meditation concerning Fasting, before the receiving of the holy Communion

Now that I am come to the time to receive the blessed sacrament

...

whether therefore you eat, or drink, do all to the glory of God

Item 21 (Meditation), fols.78v-84r

Considerations concerning Marriage

Some account of marriage as an unhappy life

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grant all my friends to enjoy this happy and blessed friendship

Item 22 (Meditation), fols.84r-87v

Of Marriage and of Widows

As concerning marriage, I would never have married

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they ever most loved, and lived with all

Item 23 (Meditation), fols.88r-91v

Against Sluggishness and Laziness in Religious duties

The condition which we are in

...

O my Soul for the Lord hath dealt graciously with thee

Item 24 (Meditation), fols.92r-96r

A Persuasion of the Forgiving of Injuries

Let us endeavour to follow this holy Doctrine

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and more than the tongue of me an unworthy sinner can express

Item 25 (Meditation), fols.98r-100r

A Meditation on the Confidence of forgiveness of sins

Our sins are great, and what Creature can own they have none?

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with whom we shall inherit our salvation

Item 26 (Meditation), fols.100r-102r

Against Judging of others; with encouragement to bear affliction

Let us not value this world as we see it full of varieties

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with assurance is our greatest consolation

Item 27 (Meditation), fols.102v-103v

To take care rightly to understand ourselves

Let us not forget ourselves, but remember what we are

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we must go on to our house of hope, to our true eternity

Item 28 (Meditation), fols.104r-106r

A Meditation of purity before receiving the Communion

We all ought to give our obedience to God

...

and thankful heart for our redemption

Item 35 (Meditation, Devotional writing), fols.114v-118v

Upon occasion of the death of my boy Henry

If God be pleased to give me a Child

...

to his glory and my comfort

[Line inserted between the lines, after line 30.]

[See also item 36.]

Item 37 (Meditation, Devotional writing), fols.119v-121v

When I lost my Dear Girl Kate

My sorrow is great I confess

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so great a blessing as that sweet child upon me

[See also the next two items (38 and 39).]

Item 38 (Meditation, Devotional writing), fols.121v-125v

On the same occasion

It was God's pleasure to afflict me

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he may call us all to his blessed Kingdom to live with him forever

[The occasion is the death of her daughter Kate (see also items 37 and 39)]

Item 39 (Meditation, Devotional writing), fols.125v-127r

On the same occasion

In the sight of us the unwise

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so must my sorrow submit

[The occasion is the death of her daughter Kate (see also items 37 and 38)]

Item 44 (Meditation), fols.128r-130v

A Contemplation upon the sight of a Cushion

Everything I see reminds me of the Almighty power of God

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to the Exaltation of God's holy name

Item 5 (Meditation), fols. 4r-17r

Rules for spending my precious time well

And first of Rising Early & going to Bed Seasonally

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A good Man can turn a Den of Thieves into a House of Prayer, & a Prison to a Chapel

[Sub-headings introduce meditations and resolutions on different subjects. Biblical references are provided in the margin.]

[Preceded by blank page, fol. 3v.]

Item 5 (Biblical writing, Meditation, Prayer), pp.7-39

The great conquest or the power of faith 1 John 5 the latter part of the 4th verse This is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith

The beloved Apostle, being desirous that all that were called to the fellowship of Christ sufferings, might know how to have and value an interest in them

...

strengthen me for this victory and make it perfect, that by faith I may overcome all things, that separates from thee

Amen

[

This meditation on I John 5:4 ends with a prayer.

On p.32 Halkett mentions the death of Charles I, "an innocent king". On p.36 Halkett has written a marginal note at the bottom of the page in different ink: "at Rossy when Sir Robert Montgomery was married', and on p.37 she has written "at Rosy" in the margin. This probably refers to Rossie House in Fife and to Sir Robert Montgomery, a parliamentary and afterwards royalist officer (d.1684), fifth son of Alexander Montgomery who was sixth earl of Eglinton. He married Elizabeth Livingstone, daughter of James Viscount of Kilsyth ( DNB; Scots Peerage, III, 450; William Fraser, Memorials of the Montgomeries Earls of Eglinton, I (Edinburgh, 1859), 79-81). The event she is highlighting - with these marginal notes and in her table of contents ("observe a remarkable accident"; see msItem 3 above)-is seeing a flock of sheep when she was sad and unable to find comfort in religious duties. One sheep was apart from the flock on a slippery bank, eating from bushes of thorn, yet content. She drew a moral that a true sheep of Christ's fold should not lament severe circumstances.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.1-33.

Item 6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.40-126

Meditations upon the 143 Psalm being a Psalm of David the seventh penitential psalm

[

The 12 verses of the psalm are transcribed on pp. 40-41; she has a few pages of overview, then she explicates each verse on approximately 4-10 pages.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.1-87.

Item 6.2 (Meditation, Prayer), pp.41-43

Introduction to meditations on Psalm 143:1-12, ending with a prayer

What example is fitter for me to follow, than the practice of this holy prophet, who turned all things that had been an occasion of dishonouring God, to his praise

...

and teach me how to live in all things like one that is sealed unto the day of redemption by that spirit, which I beg may be my guide in this, that I am now beginning, and to my end

Amen

Item 6.3 (Meditation), pp.43-48

Meditation on Psalm 143:1

1 Hear my prayer O Lord give ear to my supplications: in thy faithfulness answer me and in thy righteousness

Prayer is the best preparation for prayer, and to whom should it be directed but unto him, whose title is, a God hearing prayer, therefore unto him shall all flesh come

...

therefore I will pray unto my God continually to hear and answer me

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:1.]

Item 6.4 (Meditation), pp.49-57

Meditation on Psalm 143:2

2 And enter not into judgment with thy servant for in thy sight shall no man living be justified

If David who was a man after God's own heart made a deprecation to be delivered from judgment, how shall they appear who hardly ever think upon that day.

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But O Lord remember what I am, flesh that can never be justified, for all is possible for me to do, oh let me not destroy myself but in thee find help

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:2.]

Item 6.5 (Meditation), pp.58-67

Meditation on Psalm 143:3

3 For the enemy hath persecuted my soul he hath smitten my life down to the ground he hath made me to dwell in darkness as those that have been long dead

Here David gives a reason for his earnest intercession for mercy, because his enemy had not only persecuted, but prevailed against him

...

and yet how little, fervency have I in seeking of a true and lively faith, or to be quickened in those graces which may distinguish me from those that are dead and out of thy remembrance, O Lord

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:3.

On p.62 Halkett refers to her own sinfulness causing "the reproach and scandals which now I suffer".

Item 6.6 (Meditation), pp.67-73

Meditation on Psalm 143:4

4 Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me: my heart within me is desolate

To one that knows the beauty of holiness nothing is so anxious as sin,

...

It is that temple made without hands eternal in the heavens to which I steadfastly will look. And that God, I know will give me comfort when I am most desolate. for

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:4.]

Item 6.7 (Meditation), pp.73-82

Meditation on Psalm 143:5

5. I remember the days of old, I meditate on all thy works, I muse on the works of thy hands

the memory is one of the most necessary faculties of the soul, and never more useful than when it is employed, to bring past things present, to be a means to support a desolate spirit by a seasonable application

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Oh give thanks unto the God of heaven for his mercy endureth for ever

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:5.]

Item 6.8 (Meditation), pp.83-88

Meditation on Psalm 143:6

verse 6 I stretch forth my hand unto thee my soul thirsteth after thee as a thirsty land. Selah.

The body is oftentimes made use of to demonstrate the affections of the soul, and examples are borrowed from temporal things the better to express what is spiritual

...

and that thou makest it perpetual in giving me that water after which I shall never thirst because it will be a well of water springing up to everlasting life

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:6.]

Item 6.9 (Meditation), pp.88-97

Meditation on Psalm 143:7

7 Hear me speedily O Lord my spirit faileth hide not thy face from me lest I be like unto them that go down to the pit

This whole psalm is an evidence of David's faith, and his distrust, his faith proceeds from the experience he hath had of God's faithfulness and truth, and upon what he hath heard of the days of old

...

that none may judge me like them that go down into the pit, but rather one that both in life and death shall ever praise thee

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:7.

Halkett refers again to scandal on p.97: "Yet let my sins be blotted out of thy remembrance and all unjust scandals from the tongues of men."

Item 6.10 (Meditation), pp.98-104

Meditation on Psalm 143:8

8 Cause me to hear thy loving kindness in the morning for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk for I lift up my soul unto thee.

Here is a prayer mixed with faith and desire of obedience and no address can be so acceptable to God as what is thus presented

...

oh my God direct me in the safest and the speediest path that leadeth to it, and in the meantime

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:8.]

Item 6.11 (Meditation), pp.104-109

Meditation on Psalm 143:9

9 Deliver me from my enemies I fly unto thee to hide me

None ever did express, faith or reliance upon God but they were sure to find enemies even from that reason because they make God their friend,

...

and I will fly to thee, by that which may make my faith visible to others even good works therefore

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:9.]

Item 6.12 (Meditation), pp.109-115

Meditation on Psalm 143:10

10 Teach me to do thy will for thou art my God: thy spirit is good lead me into the land, of uprightness

I desire nothing more than to obey thy will therefore I beseech thee teach me what it is for thou art my God

...

that it may be no hindrance of my journey to the land that I desire to live uprightly in here, that through thee my God I may be led to that, that is perfect for ever hereafter

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:10.]

Item 6.13 (Meditation), pp.115-118

Meditation on Psalm 143:11

11 Quicken me O Lord for thy name sake: for thy righteousness sake bring my soul out of trouble.

Perseverance is one of the hardest graces to attain in Christianity and therefore David having made one. request to be taught of God he makes another to be quickened

...

but from my own trouble I will take occasion to offer up a prayer for others

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:11.]

Item 6.14 (Meditation), pp.119-126

Meditation on Psalm 143:12

12 And of thy mercy cut off off [sic] mine enemies and destroy all them that afflict my soul: for I am thy servant.

God is so infinite in mercy, that there is very few things that we can seek in mercy that we shall be denied and this David had experience of, which made him thus form his requests

...

while I have continuance here then shall I be partakers of my master's joy hereafter which Lord grant for thy goodness sake

Amen

[The rubric is the text of Psalm 143:12.]

Item 7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.127-196

Elisha's request, and the evidence of its being granted, by a comparison, with the example 2 Kings 2:9 And Elisha said I pray thee let a double portion of thy spirit be upon me

Covetousness is a sin that we are commanded to beware of, and yet we are enjoined to covet earnestly the best gifts and this made, the prophet Elisha when his master was going to leave him (and asking him, what he should do for him before he left him) desire a double portion of his spirit

...

yet thy power may be seen upon ourselves in mortifying corruptions, subduing sin quickening of grace and persevering in the ways of righteousness which will bring glory to thy name and salvation to our souls through our Lord Jesus

Amen

[

In the final sentence 'myself' is emended to 'ourselves' by Halkett.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp. 1-70.

Item 8 (Dream, Meditation), pp.196-197

Finding here an empty place I cannot but insert a dream which I found in a loose paper that I had writ the next day after; (the dream was upon August the 19th 1651 that night)

I thought I was praying alone in my closet and a young man was before me who like Elihu to Job .33.6. offered himself instead of God to answer my requests

...

Lord make my soul fit for mercy and then shew it when and how thou pleases

[Entry not paginated by Halkett; added later into a blank page and a half.]

Item 3 (Meditation), pp.1-9

1 Upon my miscarriage of 2 children March 7 1658/9

What variety of sad effects is produced from that first disobedience which hath ever since been the cause both of sin and punishment

...

Even that peace which passeth understanding peace with thee my God through thy son Jesus Christ

Amen

Item 4 (Meditation), pp.10-16

2 Upon hypocrisy

There is few things more considerable to be looked after than the hypocrisy of the heart, for what good action or duty soever the best or most sincere can perform a hypocrite may outgo them in it

...

and since love is the fulfilling of the law I will love thee oh my God though I cannot keep all thy commandments

Item 5 (Meditation), pp.17-20

3 Upon seeing one in a very great discontent Good Friday night 1659

What various ways God hath to make sinners fly to him sometimes from without sometimes from, within and both oftentimes concurs to bring them low who are too apt to be exalted

...

and let me be ever mindful of those vows I offered up for him that so I may keep what I promised unto thee my God.

[Good Friday was on 11 April in 1659 (see the Ecclesiastical Calendar website: http://www.smart.net/~mmontes/ec-cal.html).]

Item 6 (Meditation), pp.21-29

4 Upon being in a coal pit

I have often heard of the trouble, toil and danger wherewith some hath adventured their lives to get a livelihood to others and now I have been a witness of it

...

so let thy further mercy bring me to conversion, that so I may be wholly thine and that all things may work to make me more fervent faithful and sincere then I have been formerly

Item 7 (Meditation), pp.30-36

5 Upon the violent sickness of my son Henry April 1659

What great occasion have I now to reflect upon my own sin who hath brought down this stroke upon my poor innocent child who hath no guilt but what he hath derived from me

...

let me enjoy them as thine not my own, and then they will be the more blessed to me when I live with them as in all things looking up to thee

Item 8 (Meditation), pp.37-46

6 Upon variety of troubles succeeding one another

How just is God in sending these troubles on me like Job's messengers one upon another

...

then though I fall I shall not utterly be cast down for the Lord will uphold me with his hand and will save me and what belongs to me because I trust in him

Item 9 (Meditation), pp.47-55

7 Upon Mr Dick sending to sue me upon an unjust pretence

How strangely doth this world bewitch men, and what a snare success is, if one ill design prosper, it encourages them to another and that being successful it invites them to a third and so on

...

and in this confidence of thy goodness and mercy will I place my hope and be secure as in that only and best place of refuge

[

In the rubric, Halkett has abbreviated the name ""Dck"", probably indicating ""Dick"", though perhaps it is David Dickson, a Presbyterian minister (1583?-1663) who helped convince Anne Halkett to marry James Halkett in the autobiography (see Loftis pp.239 and xiii-xiv).

On p.52 Halkett refers to events of the Commonwealth: ""and many sad examples these late times hath produced of injustice ingratitude rebellion unnaturalness which I believe they themselves would not imagine they should ever have been guilty of, and yet, being once engaged they have gone on without any reluctancy.""

Item 10 (Meditation), pp.56-64

8 Upon the report of new troubles like to begin

I am not very old; yet I have seen such changes as those that hath lived hundreds of years hath not seen the like

...

Yet be not thou cast down my soul nor too much disquieted within me but hope there in God for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my countenance and my God

[Halkett mentions the threat of war on p.57: ""peace abroad is like to bring home war to us. and we must welcome it if the Lord sees fit to send it"". Halkett mentions Charles II on pp.57-58: ""and give double enjoyments for the time that he hath lived in trouble and exile.""]

Item 11 (Meditation), pp.65-75

9 Upon the peace made betwixt France and Spain

What a long continued war hath been betwixt those two kingdoms and now at last they are come forth to be content to have peace

...

for he had gone astray but now he will keep at least endeavour to walk in the paths of the Lord's commandments and who ever doth that, peace shall be upon them and upon the Israel of God

[

The rubric probably refers to the Treaty of the Pyrenees (Traite des Pyrenees) of 7 November 1659, putting an end to the Franco-Spanish war which began in 1635.

On p.67 Halkett mentions "our afflicted King" and her hopes that the kings of France and Spain might help to restore him.

Item 12 (Meditation), pp.76-83

10 Upon an unhappy child's being a cross to his mother

Undoubtedly children is a blessing from the Lord where they are good and ought to be received so from him

...

but will shew mercy unto thousands of those that love thee and keep thy commandments which is what I desire to do therefore let me obtain mercy both for me and mine even for thy promise sake

[On p.82 Halkett refers to her own disobedience towards her mother.]

Item 13 (Meditation), pp.84-89

11 Upon a fall Sir James had off a mare May 31

How many like this beast gives such requital to their masters and friends and neighbours

...

but I wish and will endeavour that no accident may hap either to myself or others without serious meditation and so I may find many occasions to bless God and improve myself

Item 14 (Meditation), pp.90-95

Upon the recovery of a very extenuated child that was brought to me

What a check may this give to those that dare be so bold as to determine upon life and death from outward appearances

...

for I dare arrogate nothing to myself but must ascribe all to him who is the fountain from whence flows rivers of blessings for evermore

[

To the left of the rubric, bracketed off, is the following note: ""Gibs child at Gilanderstone"". The family name might be Gibb or Gibbs. Halkett has written the following note beneath the meditation: ""it was one Gibs child that lived at Gilanderston belonging (I think) to the Earl of Kincardine." This might be Alexander, Earl of Kincardine, who died in 1680."

Item 15 (Meditation), pp.96-111

13 Upon the sacrament

The time is now again approaching where Christ is exhibited and all the riches of his merits under the form of bread and wine which sacramentally is his body and blood

...

I will again renew my vows at the approaching sacrament and give myself and all I have entirely up to thee who art my God and will for ever save me because I have no hope but in the shadow of thy wings

Item 16 (Meditation), pp.112-117

14 Upon seeing one tormented with the tooth ache

What a strange thing it is that so few people pity this pain and the reason is because it is not mortal

...

and that they are his children by his care in correcting them to prevent their going farther from him. Thus all works for good to those that love the Lord

Item 17 (Meditation), pp.118-123

15 Upon an inward dispute about keeping the house

This world is nothing else but a place of restlessness if we have our desire today we are unquiet if we have not what may satisfy us tomorrow and so still the having one blessing makes us seek for more

...

Then every place I am in would be a temple dedicated to the service of him to whom I dedicate myself and all that's mine to whom be glory ever more

[This meditation concerns her unwillingness to stir outside after a miscarriage, and her guilt about not attending church.]

Item 18 (Meditation), pp.124-131

16 Upon dissension amongst the servants

How often have I resolved if ever I came to that condition as to be able to keep servants that they should either live in peace and unity one with another or else they should not serve me

...

If I could with Joshua say let others do what they please as for me and my house we will serve the Lord, and let all our actions witness the truth of what we do profess

Item 19 (Meditation), pp.132-143

17 Upon riches

How many in the world hath plenty and fullness and in a manner choked with riches; while others are in want and care and penury and knows not at night where to get the next morsel to preserve them from famishing

...

then place my heart and my affections entirely in heaven where my treasure is and then thy allsufficiency shall be my strength on which I shall rest both for myself and all that thou hast given me

Item 20 (Meditation), pp.144-151

18 Upon one dying suddenly after taking a false oath

How sad a thing is it to hear tell of any man dying suddenly but especially when they have been committing a sin and a sin that is so much detested both by God and man

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Lord keep me from the evil of this world and let it not in anything become a snare unto me

Item 21 (Meditation), pp.152-160

19 Upon a great and unusual storm August 1 1659

The Lord hath pronounced it as a curse for sin that their disobedience shall be rewarded with a curse upon their basket and their store

...

we shall in that find more joy even in wants more than when corn and wine and oil abounds

Item 22 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.161-173

20 The conviction upon the 10th verse of the 28 of the second of Chronicles But are there not with you even with you sins against the Lord your God

There is no punishment but sin is the cause of it and where ever sin is, though in the most beloved people of God yet they shall not escape without severe correction

...

oh that we could learn of our Lord and master that lesson of patience and humility and then we should find rest unto our souls

[The rubric is the text of II Chronicles 28:10.]

Item 23 (Meditation), pp.174-184

21 Upon the report of two ministers being murdered

What calling or profession is secure from violence when it is executed upon such as are had in reverence even by pagans for many histories makes mention of the taking and sacking of cities where all hath been put to the sword except the ministers

...

and happy are we if we can learn righteousness, when the Lord's judgments are upon us

Item 24 (Meditation), pp.185-196

22 Upon beauty

What is there in all the creation that more represents God than the beauty and lovely sweetness that is in some faces

...

that we may only glorify him who made all thing and gave wisdom and riches and strength and beauty to bring honour to himself from them that hath these things, and from all that doth behold them

Item 25 (Meditation), pp.197-205

23 Upon poverty

What a despicable object a poor man or woman seems to be and yet oftentimes they are much happier than those that pities them

...

who makes the rich their treasurers to keep and dispose to their necessities who are continually waiting upon God and hath no help but in the shadow of his wings, till all calamities be overpast

Item 26 (Meditation), pp.206-215

24 Upon imagination

There is few things more treacherous than one's own imagination for it oftentimes makes a man betray himself and as oft represents what's terrible to him

...

who desires not the death of any but that all should come to the knowledge of the truth which will dispel all vain imaginations and fix them on the rocks of ages

Item 27 (Meditation), pp.216-221

25 Upon the sickness of my children

Though there be great sickness and pain in the breeding and bringing forth of children yet there is great contentment in them when God gives them perfect in their limbs and their understanding

...

yet I hope in mercy it will be pardoned and not visited upon my poor children who from the womb I have dedicated to my God who will I trust be also their God and lead them in the paths of righteousness for his own name sake

Item 28 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.222-244

26 The power of faith upon Mark 16 verse 17 and 18

Our Lord after he was risen appeared several times before his diffident disciples would believe his resurrection though he had foretold them of it even before his sufferings

...

I cannot think one good thought but by the help of my God I can do all things through him that strengthens me and so all things are easy to them that believe

[

The text of Mark 16:17-18 follows the rubric: ""And these signs shall follow them that believe in my name they shall cast out devils they shall speak with new tongues they shall take up serpents and if they drink any deadly thing it shall not hurt them they shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover.""

There is a reference to Halkett's medical practice on p.242: ""often hath he made these hands of mine which I had made weapons of sins he hath made instruments of doing good to others who hath been sick and near to death that the power of his grace might be known.""

Item 29 (Meditation), pp.245-264

27 Upon the fear of death

I know no meditation so proper for me to be upon after that of faith as upon death which should be swallowed up in victory

...

the Lord who hath formerly can still deliver me and will do it if he sees it conduce to his glory and my good and the good of my poor children, so with humble and (I hope) sincere submission I resign myself

Item 30 (Meditation), pp.265-273

28 Upon a new expectation of discontent from an old cause

What place or country can be a security from punishment when it is in the pursuit of sin in this place

...

since I fling myself wholly upon thee and disclaim all power of myself that so I may be the more firmly established by thee who art my rock and safety and secure defence against all that is threatened or I apprehend

Item 31 (Meditation), pp.274-282

Upon fire 29

How refreshing a thing is a good fire in a cold day and how useful it is at all times is evident from the many variety of professions who get their living by such arts as is necessary to employ fire

...

what is good may be continued and what's ill repented and by this means happy shall that soul be by enjoying peace eternal when the heavens shall melt with fervent heat and all shall be destroyed by fire

Item 32 (Meditation), pp.283-296

30 Upon covetousness

What a restless thing is the heart of man when it is once set upon the world and to covet what is our neighbour's is more particularly forbidden than any other thing in the commands

...

and to crucify all inordinate affections that so I may be acceptable through him who is righteous holiness and trust to all that do rely upon him

Item 33 (Meditation), pp.297-324

31 Upon the birth of my son Robert on the first of February 1659/60 being upon Wednesday betwixt 2 and 3 afternoon and other passages in my child bed

From the first minute that I was sensible of this child's conception till very near the time of his birth I was for the most part under so great fears and apprehensions of death that it made my life uncomfortable to me

...

Confirm my election by giving me a life suitable to what I desire which is to be holy in all manner of conversation that so my profiting may appear to be exemplary to others joy to myself and glorify unto thee who art the God of my salvation

[On p.311 she describes being preserved from a fire.]

Item 34 (Meditation), pp.325-336

32 Upon sad afflictions succeeding one another to a very good woman

Afflictions cometh not forth of the dust neither doth trouble spring out of the ground yet man is born to trouble as the sparks fly upward

...

that so I may live while I am here like an heir of glory that shall be a partaker of that inheritance purchased for believers through him who came to seek and to save the lost sheep of the house of Israel

Item 35 (Meditation), pp.337-354

33 Upon the failings of some that are great professors

There is few things that I have had more combats with myself for than for the rash censuring and condemning them that are more than ordinary in seeming to be religious

...

so if I could like the bee draw honey out of every flower I might delight myself, be useful to others and glorify the God of my salvation

[Part of this meditation discusses the folly of women preaching.]

Item 36 (Meditation), pp.355-365

34 Upon the late change of public affairs

Who can say but that all power is of God and that he puts down and sets up who he will that men may fear before him

...

for all his subjects in the three dominions hath contributed in some measure to strengthen the hands of his enemies, and none but thyself could have wrought this change therefore all may say not unto us not unto us but to thy name will we give praise for ever for this mercy

[This meditation refers to Halkett's hopes for King Charles II's Restoration.]

Item 37 (Meditation), pp.366-380

35 Upon the return of his majesty after his long banishment and variety of other troubles

Hear oh heavens and give ear oh earth and praise the Lord all ye nations of the world for great in mercy is the God of our salvation who only can do wonders to make his name glorious

[

The final page is illegible though a few words are visible. It may contain an extract from Psalm 23.

Halkett refers on p.368 to ""the extraordinary preservation that his majesty had at Worcester"."

After the final page are two modern endpapers.

Item 4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), p.v

Jacob's vow Genesis 28:20

And Jacob vowed a vow saying if God will be with me and help me and keep me in the way that I go

...

of all that thou shall give me I will give the tenth unto thee

[This is not listed in the table of contents: it is on a loose sheet tipped onto a guard.]

Item 5 (Meditation), pp.v-vi

January 9 1660

In relieving the fatherless and widows that are in want in giving to the sick what may conduce to their health putting children to school and all this with being as secretly done as can be

[

This is the entire entry.

Like msItem 4, this is not listed in the table of contents: it is on the same loose sheet tipped onto a guard.

Page vi is unpaginated and blank.

Item 6 (Meditation), pp.1-18

1 Occasional meditations upon the death of my dearest child Betty who died of the smallpox upon Tuesday the 13th of November 1660 in Covent Garden and buried in that church

How many variety of ways is the Lord pleased to try me with and now this is a new one which I have never known before

...

which teaches me that princes are not exempt from those distempers incident to the meanest and neither sex nor condition can be secured when death approaches which shall make me use this as a continual prayer Lord teach me so to number my days that I may apply my heart to wisdom

[Halkett writes on p.3 that had Betty lived another 13 days she would have been 4: so her birth date was 26 November 1656. Halkett notes on p.8 that Betty got sick on 2 November 1660. Halkett refers to Henry, Duke of Gloucester's death (pp.16-18), saying that she had "secretly whispered" to her own heart that she would have been "content" to redeem his life with Betty's. A marginal note indicates that she had the same thoughts when Mary, the Princess Royal died. They both died of smallpox in 1660, the same disease that killed Betty. On p.17 Halkett refers to the Duke of Gloucester and the Princess Royal outliving their father's murder and their own exile.]

Item 7 (Meditation), pp.19-29

2 Upon the disbanding of the army

Who is now living that did ever expect to see this day: that so great and so successful an army who gave laws to 3 kingdoms and cut off their lawful king that set up and pulled down who they pleased, that this army should be disbanded without any resistance only by the vote of king and parliament

...

therefore I will not repine at what the Lord thinks fit to suffer for he that hath done so much as he hath done for this king and people will still continue to do us good I will give thanks therefore to the God of gods for his mercy doth endure for ever

[The table of contents gives more detail than the rubric: ""Upon disbanding the army and the disorder that followed"". The disbanding of the army occurred on 2 October 1660.]

Item 8 (Meditation), pp.30-36

3 Upon the fast which by proclamation was kept January 30 1660/1

This is a day on which the greatest murder was committed that ever story mentioned except the crucifying of our saviour and many hath lain under the guilt of it these many years

...

oh that our repentant tears might be such as might be accepted through our mediator and then we may have hope that what remains shall be blessed and preserved and made glorious by their works of piety and virtue

[This fast was to commemorate the execution of Charles I, which occurred on 30 January 1649. On p.33 Halkett writes that the Scots are blamed and surely they deserve it, if only for being too credulous, but everyone in the three kingdoms is guilty.]

Item 9 (Meditation), pp.37-42

4 Upon my nephew H N having the smallpox

What a fatal disease hath this been to many families this year many a one losing the only child they had, or could hope for

...

I will be just to him and faithful to our common master by still putting him in mind to make good his vows in praising God and living like one that had obtained salvation

[Loftis, p.260, says that Halkett had a nephew called Henry Newton, son of her sister Elizabeth and her husband Henry Newton (later Puckering).]

Item 10 (Meditation), pp.43-48

5 Upon the many disappointments I have met with in my business at court

Were there not an overruling providence that sets a time and period to everything under heaven how apt would the frailty of my nature be to repine at the many disappointments that I meet with

...

and if I am but patient I am confident to see a visible reason why the Lord thinks fit to delay the blessings he intends me either to make them better or me fitter for them and so glory shall be the more ascribed to him

[She refers to the king (pp.45-46), saying that she often said that she would be happy to beg all her life if he could be restored to the throne.]

Item 11 (Meditation), pp.49-51

6 Upon his majesty's coronation Tuesday April 23 1661

How long have I wished and prayed for this day and now the Lord is pleased to let me see it, oh that it might be a day of joy and rejoicing to the whole earth that all might sing praises to our God for his goodness to us in crowning of our king

...

he will the more graciously incline to hear and grant my prayers for the king which shall be that the blessings of heaven and earth may crown him with perpetual happiness that the Lord may direct him in the choosing such a wife as he will bless him with seeing children children [sic] and peace upon this our Israel

Item 12 (Meditation), pp.52-56

7 Upon the death of my dear son Harry being the 12 of May 1661

What a sad journey hath this been hitherto to me into England where I expected greatest satisfaction first in seeing the king and royal family restored and then in seeing my relations and friends

...

I shall have reason to bless the Lord for all my crosses if I can but take them up so as to follow him, who foretold us that through many tribulations we must enter into the kingdom of heaven

[Henry Halkett was born on 13 June 1658 (see p.57). Harry died on Sunday night, the same day he was born. If he had lived one month more he would have been 3 years old (p.53).]

Item 13 (Meditation), pp.57-62

8 Upon making vows

Affliction is the time of bringing sins to remembrance as the widow of Zarepheh said to the prophet Eliah when she thought he had slain her son

...

make good these promises though your sins be as scarlet they shall be white like snow though they be red as crimson they shall be like wool I am willing to be obedient; oh let me be partaker of thy grace

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first line to 1 Kings 17:18.

Halkett is mourning the loss of her son Henry born Sunday 13 June 1658. She fears her inability to keep the vow she made at his birth, to keep Sunday holy, was the cause of his death. She also vowed if the king was restored to keep Tuesdays holy, but she forgot half of them. She recalls a vow (p. 60) to which she was once so firmly tied that nothing but death could have broken it, but when she found out deceit was the ground of her vow she was freed from it by all she told of it. She might be referring to her vow to marry Colonel Joseph Bampfield; the deceit on which it was grounded was that he pretended his wife was dead.

Item 14 (Meditation), pp.63-65

9 Upon Sir James his return home and leaving me behind being upon the 19 of July 1661

Which is most subject to change, the world or our own hearts is hard to determine, for this place which I once loved best of any is now become almost hateful to me from the necessity of my staying in it

...

David's conclusion shall be mine if I find favour in the Lord he can grant me what I most desire but if he have no delight in me here I am let him do what seemeth good unto him-----

[Halkett writes that this place (presumably London) which she once loved best is almost hateful to her because she must remain, while that place she abhorred (presumably Pitfirrane) she wishes she could return to. She refers to her many years' absence from her native country (England), and the happy change in it (the Restoration of the monarchy), that led her to expect she might obtain more satisfaction (presumably for her suits) than she has. Her husband left her to deal with her difficulties; she is pregnant so must follow him soon. In more than 5 years of marriage he has never expressed a dissatisfaction with her or mentioned the person (Colonel Joseph Bampfield) who caused her so much trouble, which shows he is not like most men.]

Item 15 (Meditation), pp.66-70

10 Upon a violent distemper of his son James being on Monday night August 12, 1661

How transitory is all the things of this life and how little to be accounted of. When his ague and fever was in a manner gone so that he thought like Agag that the bitterness of death is past

...

therefore I will not repine at this sickness to my son though at the present it brings many inconveniencies upon me; since I hope it will be a means to make him more obedient unto God and those that honour him he will honour and shew them his salvation

[Halkett is referring to her stepson James.]

Item 16 (Meditation), pp.71-75

11 Upon a grave maker that lived against my window in Henrietta Street

It is a usual proverb the nearer the church the further from God and in appearance it seems verified in that man whose dwelling is joining to the church, and his employment the tolling of passing bells and making graves and yet this man whose age might make him look upon himself as half in the grave already yet is he still as full of cursing and swearing and evil speaking

...

Therefore I will no longer admire why that grave maker can be so little mortified but rather reflect upon myself who should know more: and therefore I sin more, in not making all objects serve for helps, to increase humility and devotion

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""That lived against my window in Henrietta Street"" was added to the rubric later in darker pen

Halkett compares the grave maker with seamen and colliers whose work makes them conversant with death. She also refers to men who were cast by a storm on ""the barbarous Islands"" who thought it miraculous to make it home, but says that the traffic people have now with those islands makes it seem as little terrible to go there as if it were at their own door. This may refer to Barbados, where Halkett had an interest; see NLS MS Acc.6112 and other letters on this.

Item 17 (Meditation), pp.76-80

12 Upon the meeting that was to determine of church government being upon Tuesday 3d of November 1661

This day the Parliament hath appointed to debate and determine of the government of the church or more properly I may say, to determine of those ministers who will not be conform to the government already intended to be established

...

yet I will turn my fears into prayers and make my prayers my practice to live so as not to add to the fuel and if I can obtain no more yet if I can have peace in my own soul, I may thankfully submit the rest to the disposing of my Lord and maker

[In this meditation Halkett credits Episcopacy with being the ancient government of this church and supported by most people. She argues that divisions in the church lead to divisions in the state, and that little separates Episcopalians and Presbyterians (p.78): ""in fundamentals both agree Episcopal and Presbyterian and yet none more violent than they, one against another...""]

Item 18 (Meditation), pp.81-84

13 Upon a deliverance Sir James had from being drowned in the river Teis in his return home

How careful should we be in all our actions if we considered that every step we tread, is towards death, which all at last must meet with, and many times he threatens before he stricks to prepare us to encounter with him

...

I hope my dear husband will be better, and take warning by this; not to venture too rashly into the danger of the swelling waters (which too often he hath done) and will be so mindful of this mercy as not to tempt the Lord who was now his deliverer and will I trust be always from whatsoever may be hurtful to him

[The river is probably the River Tay.]

Item 19 (Meditation), pp. 85-92

14. Upon a dispute with myself New Year's Day 1661/2

This is the first day of the new year and that on which I have several times as a freewill offering given myself to God and yet the advantage I propounded to receive I am disappointed in

...

I will seek and knock till I find the door of mercy opened which I will quietly, expect and hope for; since it is only my desire because I would be acceptable to him, with whom it is all one to give a degree of perfection or to pardon the want of it

[She heard a sermon preached by Mr Gaile ""at St James when my mother had the honour to have the care of the Duke of Gloucester and the Princess Elizabeth"". This sermon blamed the whole kingdom for the breach between the king and his people. A marginal note on p.86 describes Mr Gaile as ""Chaplain to the Countess of Devonshire a good man and an excellent preacher" ". Loftis (p.246) gives his name as Robert Gale (1595-1659), chaplain to the Countess of Devonshire, who was Lady Elizabeth Cavendish (nee Cecil; b. c.1620-1689), wife of the fourth earl. This sermon inspired Halkett to pray for particular things at certain times of the day; for example for the king's preservation after dinner, and to remember death (to commemorate her brush with death at Naworth Castle (see her autobiography, ed. Loftis) at 5pm each day. She spent at least four and a half hours per day praying with someone and reading the Bible or another pious book.]

Item 20 (Meditation), pp.93-95

15 Upon the fast proclaimed to be kept January 15 1661/2 for the unseasonableness of the weather

That kings should be nursing fathers to his people was the promise God made by his evangelical prophet Isaiah, and he hath graciously been pleased to make it good in many; and particularly now to us in taking away our stepfather and bringing home our true father to be a nurse a careful overseer as well as a king to govern his people

...

The king is the last person that will feel the effects of this which threatens famine and yet he is the first that takes order for the preventing it, which is by fasting and prayer and humbling ourselves before him who can only help who will I hope accept of the devotion of the king and evidence it by granting a blessing to him and to his people

[The king is Charles II and the stepfather is Oliver Cromwell.]

Item 22 (Meditation), pp.97-102

Upon Christmas day

This is a day that is set apart to celebrate the remembrance of the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ and though the keeping of this day be much opposed by some yet there is none that makes profession of his name will deny his being manifest in the flesh

...

Lord as thou wert pleased to give thy son and with him doth promise freely to give all things give me from this meditation of the birth of my redeemer earnest desires after the new birth that through him I may be regenerate and live like one born of the spirit and so free from the law of sin and death

Item 23 (Meditation), pp.103-111

Upon St Steven day

This day is dedicated to the remembrance of that blessed martyr St Steven who was stoned to death for witnessing that Jesus was the son of God and the saviour of the world

...

so shall thy name be greatly exalted when others see thy power working in me and subduing by thy grace those inclination which is prone by nature rather to curse, than bless and pray for those that we think our enemies

[St Steven's day is December 26.]

Item 24 (Meditation), pp.112-121

Upon St John's day the Evangelist

This day the church commemorates the feast of St John the Evangelist who was the blessed penman by whom the holy ghost hath revealed to man those excellent things of God, and his son being manifest in the flesh and highly exalted up on high to draw all men unto him

...

for even in heaven thou hast reserved affections and parts by which thou wilt again be known to be the God that took our nature on, to glorify mortality and make man capable of an eternity in heaven

[St John the Evangelist's day is December 27.]

Item 25 (Meditation), pp.122-130

Upon Innocents' day

This day is kept in memory of those many innocent martyrs that was put to death by the rage of King Herod when he found he was mocked of the wise men who first informed him of the star which appeared at the birth of Christ

...

yet no child by its own innocency can claim a right to heaven, but the fountain that was opened for sin and for uncleanness can make white the sinner of the deepest dye and none so free but needs to be made clean Thanks be to God for this unspeakable gift

[The Feast of the Holy Innocents is December 28.]

Item 26 (Meditation), pp.131-137

Upon the circumcision of Christ

This day is kept holy in commemoration of the circumcision of Christ who did not only take our natures upon him but suffered all those things which were incident to nature sin only excepted

...

Lord teach me so to admire thee for thy immense goodness in putting an end to that Law and fulfilling what was impossible for us to perform that my whole life may be but one continued act of praising thee, and since that law of circumcision is abolished yet give me the true circumcision of the heart and of the spirit whose praise is not of men but of God

[The circumcision of Christ is on January 1.]

Item 27 (Meditation), pp.138-145

Upon Good Friday

This day hath the epithet of good from the general good and benefit that from this day's action did accrue to all mankind being kept to commemorate the death and suffering of our Lord Jesus Christ

...

and save me from the wrath of thy offended father and crucify that sin in me which crucified thee so shall I rise with thee in glory to the praise of thy eternal name

Amen

Item 28 (Meditation), pp.146-149

Upon Easter Even

This was the day betwixt the crucifying and the resurrection of our Lord being the Jewish Sabbath on which they all did rest but ill was the preparation to such a rest when they did imbrue their hands in the most innocent blood of the Lord

...

I do beseech thee to put all my sins that they may be buried in thy grave and sealed up there, and if ever they must have a resurrection let it be only to speak the power of thy allsubduing grace that can extend to the pardon of my unlimited transgressions

[Easter Even is Easter Saturday.]

Item 29 (Meditation), pp.150-156

Upon Easter day

This is the great day celebrated to the memory of the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ being the first day of the week

...

for thou can'st quicken my dead hopes at thy own time appointed and if not here yet hereafter raise me to such joys as shall swallow up all the sorrows of this life and make them as inexpressible as they are eternal

Item 30 (Meditation), pp.157-159

Upon the Ascension day

This day is kept in memory of the ascension of our Lord Jesus Christ which was forty days after he arose from the dead and all that time he continued upon earth

...

but as thy being manifest in the flesh was for the redemption of lost man so let the power of it appear in redeeming me from the power of darkness that so I may ascend to thee

[Ascension day is the 40th day after Easter.]

Item 31 (Meditation), pp.160-165

Upon Whitsunday

This was celebrated for the commemoration of the descending of the holy ghost upon the apostles who were all with one accord in one place

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oh that I might nevermore grieve this spirit of God but be sealed by him to the day of redemption

[Whitsunday is the 50th day after Easter.]

Item 32 (Meditation), pp.166-170

On St Andrew's day

This day the Church doth keep in memory of that disciple who had the honour of being one that was first called to follow Christ and he presently left his net and followed him

...

and learn me with meekness and contentedness to receive what thou thinks fittest for me that so I may rejoice at what thou bestowest on others and either having or wanting I may still glorify thee

[St Andrew's day is November 30.]

Item 33 (Meditation), pp.171-176

Upon St Thomas day

This day the Church commemorates the memory of St Thomas who was called Didimus of whom we read no remarkable thing during the life of our Lord Christ

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let me be blessed in being one of those that have not seen and yet have believed to the praise of thy great name though not to the satisfying my desire which make Lord I beseech thee ever conformable to thine

[St Thomas's day is December 21.]

Item 34 (Meditation), pp.177-182

Upon the conversion of St Paul

How memorable is that which the Church this day celebrates being for the conversion of St Paul one who (as he says himself) persecuted beyond measure the Church of God and wasted it

...

when I see run on in sin that they and I may be like to thy servant Paul washed and sanctified by the spirit of our God

[The conversion of St Paul is January 25.]

Item 35 (Meditation), pp.183-186

Upon the purification of St Mary the Virgin recorded in the 2 of Luke 22 24

This day undoubtedly was kept in memory of the purification of the Virgin Mary to shew that the extraordinariness of the conception of her blessed son our saviour did not free her from being subject to the law

...

Lord as thou wert pleased to make choice of a virgin in whose womb thou wouldst be conceived make us all chaste and unblameable that so we may have high conceptions of thee and ever do thy will so shall we be to thee as mother brother or sister

[The purification of the Virgin is February 2.]

Item 36 (Meditation), pp.187-191

Upon St Mathias day

This day was kept by the Church in remembrance of him who was chosen by lot to be numbered with the eleven in the place of Judas who had hanged himself after he had betrayed his master

...

yet if my lot be to be numbered with thy most peculiar servants I may say with the royal prophet the lot is fallen to me in a good ground yea I have a goodly heritage for the hope of what's to come shall sweeten all the embittered cups I meet with here

[St Mathias's day is February 24.]

Item 37 (Meditation), pp.192-195

Upon the Annunciation of the Virgin Mary

This day the Church commemorates the joyful news first prophesied by the prophet Esay and foretold as a promise of mercy to a disobedient King

...

but the incarnation of thy son is the supreme degree of all thy acts by which thou hast manifested thy power love, humility and goodness. For which for ever adoration and praise be ever given to thee

Amen

[The Annunciation of the Virgin Mary is March 25.]

Item 38 (Meditation), pp.196-200

Upon St Mark's Day

This day is kept as a memorial of the evangelist St Mark who was one of the pen men of the Holy Ghost by whom the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ came to be known to the inhabitants of the world

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o bring me to thy sheepfold to the company of thy servants that may be profitable to others, as others have been to me by thy blessing on both

[St Mark's day is April 25.]

Item 39 (Meditation), pp.201-207

Upon St Philip and James day

This day is to commemorate the remembrance of these two saints and disciples Philip and James the reason why they are joined together in one day's celebration

...

that we might see and hope we might attain by thy grace and our endeavour to that life which is eternal which make us with them partakers of, for thy mercy sake

Amen

[St Philip and St James's day is May 1.]

Item 40 (Meditation), pp.208-212

Upon St Barnabas day

The Church this day celebrates the memory of that worthy servant of God who hath the testimony of the spirit that he was a good man full of the holy ghost and of faith

...

so let me be circumspect in all my actions that I may not (to follow my own inclinations) do anything to bring a disrespect upon that truth which leads to thee through the way that is eternal life

[St Barnabas's day is June 11.]

Item 41 (Meditation), pp.213-219

Upon St John Baptist day

This is the day that the Church sets apart to commemorate the memorial of St John Baptist who received that testimony even from the Lord himself that among them that were born of women there had not risen a greater than John the Baptist

...

and both servant and master suffered unjustly to let others see this world was not a place to live in but to die and whatever tribulations we meet with here happy are we if we die in the Lord

[St John the Baptist's day is June 24.]

Item 42 (Meditation), pp.220-226

Upon St Peter's day

This day is kept in memory of that disciple who was most honoured of any except he that lay in Jesus' bosom

...

and if I come either through fear or frailty to deny thee give me such repentance as may evidence my contrition and such grace as may restore me to thy favour again, so shall I make others in love with thee when I declare the mercy thou hast shewed in pardoning my transgressions

[St Peter's day is June 29.]

Item 43 (Meditation), pp.227-229

Upon St James day

The Church having before celebrated a day in remembrance of one of this name joined with Philip dedicates this day to the other disciple who was brother of John

...

Let not the many troubles I meet with make me wish for death nor no prosperous condition make me wish for life but in both let thy spirit guide me in the way that's most agreeable to thee who art my god my glory the lifter up of my head

[St James's day is July 25.]

Item 44 (Meditation), pp.230-233

Upon St Bartholomew's day

This day is by the Church dedicated to the memory of the apostle St Bartholomew who as he was not the first chosen so he was not the last but however first or last happy are they that did attend such a master

...

and though I could not arrive to that high honour of being like thy chief apostle to lie in thy bosom yet if I were admitted but as a door keeper to behold thy beauty I shall be satisfied with it better than to dwell in the tents of wickedness

[

St Bartholomew's day is August 24.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.230-232.

Item 45 (Meditation), pp.234-237

Upon St Matthew's day

This day is kept in remembrance of the apostle St Matthew who was called by Christ from the receipt of custom to follow him

...

Cover then I beseech thee all my sins under the robe of thy son's righteousness and wash me in his blood then will I teach transgressors thy ways and sinners shall be converted unto thee

[

St Matthew's day is September 21.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.233-236.

Item 46 (Meditation), pp.238-242

Upon St Michael and all angels

This day is kept by the Church to magnify the God of all spirits who by the death of his son did not only restore lost man but preserved the blessed angels from falling into that lost estate

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therefore with them will I forever praise thy name, for though theirs may be more perfect yet mine shall be more fervent being like a brand plucked out of the fire kindled for destruction

[

St Michael's day is September 29.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.237-241.

Item 47 (Meditation), pp.243-246

Upon St Luke the Evangelist

The Church in commemoration of this blessed evangelist sets this day apart and though he was not one of the twelve disciples yet it is very probable he was one of the seventy that was sent two and two in every city and place where the Lord would come as so many harbingers before to make preparations for him

...

and therefore I ought not by my want of charity to exclude any to whom thou hast opened a door of hope for God is no respecter of persons for (of all conditions) he that feareth him and worketh righteousness is accepted with him

[

St Luke the Evangelist's day is October 18.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.242-244.

Item 48 (Meditation), pp.247-250

Upon Simon and Jude apostles

This day is kept to celebrate the memory of those two apostles Simon and Jude who the Church it seems thought fit to join together and therefore I shall not put them asunder further than to inquire who they were

...

as to this poor Canaanite who without grace had never been admitted to the apostleship nor had Jude continued faithful; so then it is not of him that willeth or of him that runeth but of God that sheweth mercy

[

St Simon and St Jude's day is October 28.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.245-248.

Item 49 (Meditation), pp.251-257

Upon All Saints day

This day the Church doth set apart to magnify the Lord in general for all the saints to whom he hath shewed mercy as the other was particularly

...

and all this is to make thy glorious mercy shine more bright for which I will ever adore thee and forever pray that I may walk worthy of thy favour and be partaker of the glory which thou gavest unto all thy saints

[

All Saint's day is November 1.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.249-255.

Item 50 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.258-298

Meditations upon the 12 chapter of Isay

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The six verses of Isaiah 12:1-6 are transcribed on pp.258-259, then a separate meditation exists on each verse.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.256-296.

Item 50.2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.259-260

An introduction to the meditation

The title of this chapter is a joyful thanksgiving of the faithful for the mercies of God

...

which being considered well may the prophet Isay teach this lesson both as a general and particular instruction

[Entry paginated by Halkett pp.257-258.]

Item 50.3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.260-265

Meditation on Isaiah 12:1

1 And in that day thou shalt say O Lord I will praise thee though thou wast angry with me thy anger is turned away and thou comfortest me

What day can be so proper to praise God as that day or time wherein he is pleased graciously to manifest himself in mercy after the turning away of his anger and giving comfort to his people

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Let others then be forgetful if they can yet will I ever praise thee for the comfort thou hast given me in this and say

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:1.

This meditation celebrates the Restoration of Charles II.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.258-263.

Item 50.4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.265-271

Meditation on Isaiah 12:2

2 Behold God is my salvation: I will trust and not be afraid; for the Lord Jehovah is my strength, and my song he also is become my salvation

What can be so lovely a thing to behold as God giving salvation. This word behold is often and for the most part to express what is wonderful

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and so becomes my salvation, for he it is that save us from our sins and is the propitiation reconciling God and man

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:2.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.263-269.

Item 50.5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.271-277

Meditation on Isaiah 12:3

Therefore with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation

The former two verses was in the singular but this is in the plural for it is every particular man's faith that must apply salvation

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to them he becomes salvation and well may they then with joy draw water from the wells from whence it comes

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:3.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.269-275.

Item 50.6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.278-286

Meditation on Isaiah 12:4

4 And in that day shall ye say praise the Lord call upon his name declare his doings among the people make mention that his name is exalted

There is no blessing that was ever promised to the Church or people of God but a day hath been prefixed for the accomplishment of it

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Oh that I could declare the Lord's doings without evidencing other people's sins but however while I have life I will make mention that his name is exalted and will

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:4.

The final two words of this meditation are meant to be read with the quotation that heads the next biblical verse.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.276-284.

Item 50.7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.286-292

Meditation on Isaiah 12:5

5 Sing unto the Lord: for he hath done excellent things this is known in all the earth

Another expression of praising the Lord is by singing unto him. And this was the practice of Moses and Miriam and all the Israelites after the Lord had brought them through the Red Sea

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who ruleth over the kingdom of men and giveth it to whomsoever he will and these are the excellent things that is known in all the earth

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:5.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.284-290.

Item 50.8 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.292-298

Meditation on Isaiah 12:6

6 Cry out and shout thou inhabitant of Sion: for great is the holy one of Israel in the midst of thee

This crying and shouting is meant as an expression of joy which is most usual amongst soldiers when they get a victory

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then should we shew the fruits of our chastisements when they had brought us to live like a people who had the holy one of Israel in the midst of us

[

The rubric is the text of Isaiah 12:6.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.290-296.

Item 51 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.299-325

Meditations upon the 4 first verses of the 34 Psalm

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The first four verses of Psalm 34 are transcribed on p.299, then a separate meditation exists on each verse. The end of each meditation makes a complete sentence with the verse of the next one.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.297-323.

Item 51.2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.299-300

An introduction to the meditation

There is none who makes it their business to observe God's ways and their own but will find daily occasions to praise the Lord

...

but extraordinary mercies such as I have received deserves extraordinary praise therefore

[Entry paginated by Halkett pp.297-298.]

Item 51.3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.300-305

Meditation on Psalm 34:1

1 I will bless the Lord at all times his praise shall continually be in my mouth

For upon the beginning of this day the Lord was pleased to give me this strength to assist my weakness and made me a joyful mother of another daughter for that he was pleased to take from me

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for he that hath delivered me out of many sicknesses pains and distress can do it still therefore I will quietly wait for the salvation of God

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 34:1.

The first line refers to the birth of her second daughter and fourth child, Jane.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.298-303.

Item 51.4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.305-310

Meditation on Psalm 34:2

2 My soul shall make her boast in the Lord the humble shall hear thereof and be glad

The soul is the chief part of man and that which only makes the body capable of knowing those excellencies which of itself it could not comprehend

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Hear this ye humble and exalted spirits for I desire that all in earth and heaven may hear me say

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 34:2.

In this meditation she discusses her pain, and her fear as she waits for a surgeon to come to make an incision in her breast (p.307). In the previous meditation she mentioned a distemper in her breast.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.303-308.

Item 51.5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.311-316

Meditation on Psalm 34:3

3 O magnify the Lord with me and let us exalt his name together

It well becometh the just to be thankful and they only are justified who are washed in the blood of the lamb

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but though he never shew me more favour yet what I have received already deserves my continual act of praise for

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 34:3.

She discusses her temporal troubles: reproach, want and exile (from family lands?), and infamy invented by malicious tongues (p.313). She hopes soon to be out of debt, as would only be just (pp.313-314).

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.309-314.

Item 51.6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.316-325

Meditation on Psalm 34:4

4 I sought the Lord and he heard me and delivered me from all my fears

What David spake from his own experience I have found and so shall all that seek the Lord fears and troubles are for the most part the occasions of driving us to seek God

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yet I will still seek to thee who I hope in mercy will hear me and deliver me from all my fears but chiefly from my greatest fear which is displeasing thee

[

The rubric is the text of Psalm 34:4.

She describes her ""late trouble"" which was seeing a ""monster"" (a deformed person) before she conceived her child. She thought of it continually and was sure its mother had never transgressed as she had, but the Lord delivered her from a monstrous birth and gave her a pretty child (pp.317-318). She thanks God for her easy labour (p.319).

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.314-323.

Item 5 (Advice, Meditation, Notes), p.iv

Explanation of contents

When this book was first begun I intended to have divided it into occasional and select meditations the last of the occasional having reached where the select meditations begun and being a sad conclusion I intend the rest of the book to be for instruction to my poor child (who is all the temporal comfort I have left) and praying that they may be useful to him.

...

In this I intend to employ the rest of this book and the remainder of my time

[This is the entire entry.]

Item 6 (Meditation), pp.v-xii

February 14th 1670/71 Upon my going to live at Dunfermline

Man that is born of a woman is of few days and full of trouble. Who can wonder if with trouble I leave this place [Pitfirrane] where I have enjoyed so many blessings and that I am going where there is so many snares and temptations

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Then shall it be written in the volume of thy books that I delight to do thy will oh my God and thy law is within my heart Lord say

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the opening lines to Job 14:1, and beside the final line to Psalm 40:7-8.

Halkett writes that she is going to Dunfermline to live because there lie the remains of her husband Sir James [i.e. in Dunfermline Abbey] and that is where she wants to be buried, and also because there is a school there that her child, Robert, is used to. She will be free from dissension from her stepson, Charles Halkett, because they will not actually live together.

Item 7 (Meditation), p.xiii

Meditation on how she consecrated her widowhood to God

Upon Sunday the 28 of May 1671 I was at Toriburne at the sacrament of the Lord's Supper and there I did most solemnly consecrate my widowhood to the Lord

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and perpetual widowhood while I have life I beg as a mercy and that I may live in all things like one whose husband and maker is the Lord

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final line to Isaiah 54:5.]

Item 9 (Meditation), p.xvi

Resolutions made October 1670

Since it was upon a Saturday that my dearest Sir James died I resolve with the Lord's assistance to make every Saturday a day of retirement and devotion

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And rejoicing to go with them into the house of God which shall ever be my delight And may they [incomplete]

[The unpaginated verso of p.xvi is blank.]

Item 11 (Meditation), pp.xviii-xxi

Resolutions made upon the 9 of December 1670

Vows I dare make none because I have so often broke them but I do most solemnly resolve by the assistance of the Lord to spend the remainder of my days as near as I can like a widow indeed

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for in all things I desire to say with them at Cesaria the will of the Lord be done Acts 21:14

[

At the end of the meditation is the note, ""Resolutions made December 9 1670 being the day before my son-in-law came home to Pitfirrane"". She is referring to her stepson, Sir Charles Halkett.

This is one sheet folded into 2 leaves, tipped onto a guard; i.e. 4 pages. These two leaves were once folded vertically, and the above description/title/note of their contents was written beneath the final lines of the meditation on the outside. It was stored folded for a time before being bound into this volume. See also msItem 51.

Item 12 (Meditation), pp.1-15

Upon the great distemper I was in December 1667 being dead the 9 and near dying the 15 day

My life hath been nothing (ever since I was capable to observe it) but a continual interchangeable condition between good and ill

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so by him let me obtain the privileges he hath purchased for all that are his; even Grace to make fit for glory

Amen

[Halkett describes how she found her husband in bed on 4 November 1667 and thought he was dead. The fright must have raised those vapours from the spleen and caused her distemper. On p. 11 she remembers the pain and anguish of her daughter Jane who died.]

Item 13 (Meditation), pp.16-22

Upon James Halkett's shipwreck at Scarsberry November 10 1667 being Sunday

Who is the man that lives and doth not wilfully put out that light that God hath given but may evidently see enough of the power of God to convince the greatest atheist that he is omnipotent

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and when they once come to love thee: they will love me, because I desire to serve thee though I cannot perform it as I should which pardon for thy mercy sake

Amen

[This meditation is occasioned by her stepson James Halkett's shipwreck at Scarsberry, possibly Scarfskerry, a fishing village in Caithness, Scotland. In this meditation Halkett refers to her stepson's "irreligious way of life" and asks that God preserve him from "temptations to popery".]

Item 14 (Meditation), pp.23-29

Upon seeing one near death yet not sensible of it: P:

How bewitching a thing this world is may appear in many things: but in nothing more than in possessing the heart of one that is not well acquainted with God

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and then happy is the man that is in such a case yea blessed is he who hath the God of Jacob for his help

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final line to Psalm 144:15.]

Item 15 (Meditation), pp.30-34

Meditations upon the peace concluded betwixt the King and the Hollanders September 1667

Peace was one of the great legacies that our Lord left his servants and as peace with him is the chiefest of blessings so peace with others is what only can be valued by the want of it

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so wilt thou be glorified by me, and all that love thy name will praise thee evermore

Amen

[

This note is written in the margin next to the rubric: ""writ then in a loose paper"".

This meditation discusses the end of the Second Anglo-Dutch War, which concluded with the signing of the Treaty of Breda on 31 July 1667.

Item 16 (Meditation), pp.35-39

Upon reviving a misfortune long buried which I heard of May 8th 1668

Though I desire not to increase anyone's misfortune by doing anything that may entail the memory of it to posterity

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for I desire to record nothing but to the end thou mayst have glory and that it may teach me and others (if any ever comes to read these meditations) to fear before thee

[This meditation concerns a crime which happened 40 years ago and was kept secret until now; no further details are given. Those who were accessories to the crime are long buried.]

Item 17 (Meditation), pp.40-45

Upon the sad accident at Naughton on Sunday the 21 of June 1668 that a daughter in law of the family died within half an hour after a fall she had down but 6 steps

What contemplation can be more necessary than seriously to consider our mortality especially when there is daily such sad accidents to put us in mind of it.

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it is still the Lord let him do what seemeth him good and in all things give him praise

[This meditation describes a relative of the family going to church who fell and broke both her legs, her arms were shattered in many pieces and broken and her head was so bruised that she couldn't reason and she died half an hour later. Sometimes good people are punished.]

Item 18 (Meditation), pp.46-54

Upon a relation from one came from London which I heard September 21 1668

Our life should be employed chiefly to meditate upon such things as may enlarge our repentance and increase our devotion

...

and then it may be an example to others and an occasion of bringing glory to thee when mercy is extended unto me who am the vilest of transgressors

[This meditation describes how God justly may make London the seat of his vengeance for their iniquities. The King promised to praise God if he was restored to the throne but he praises only with the lips not the heart. Halkett refers to treason being spoken of in the street and the fears of a new rebellion.]

Item 19 (Meditation), pp.55-57

Upon a detraction from one that professed much friendship and a great professor of religion

Though I do not with any satisfaction record anyone's faults yet as what's ill in them may do good to me I cannot neglect this part of trial amongst many others that I have met with

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so that thou wilt make me acceptable to thy self. to whom only I direct my soul oh save me for I trust in thee who art the God of my salvation

[She describes how a ""professor"" (one who would be thought extraordinary in religion) makes her most innocent actions a crime. She asks God to preserve her from being of that religion who will not go to church if the preacher is not of their principles, yet who scruple not to lie, slander, dissemble and detract from others.]

Item 20 (Meditation), pp.58-63

Upon reading Mr Boyle's occasional reflections January 25 1668/9

I have never seen nor heard of this book before and it hath now given me so much satisfaction that I cannot but bless the spring from which such waters flow and magnify my God

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in this faith I live and trust to die and till that change comes be ever waiting for it is the servant of my Lord and God

[Robert Boyle's Occasional reflections upon several subjects were published in 1665. Halkett describes her intentions for her meditations: to bless and magnify God who inclined her from her youth to contemplate the accidents of her life. When she has read them over years later they have stirred up her praise for God anew. She has added in a different pen that Bishop Hall (i.e. Joseph Hall) has been an example to her for writing occasional meditations. She suggests that when she is dead what she has written may become monuments of praise to God. She writes that no living person has seen her meditations, but that after she is dead she will leave them to God's care; if they can bring glory to him or consolation to anyone he will give them light, but if not she hopes he will bury them in her grave.]

Item 21 (Meditation), pp.64-67

Upon a fright about 12 in the night being on February 20 1668/9

How frail this nature of ours is, I have (since last night) had much reason to reflect upon

...

Therefore I will bless him while I live because all his corrections are for cordials and my God sanctify the remembrance of all thy visitations to me so shall they be future advantages though present troubles

[She was frightened by a dream, which made her think that if the shadow of a shadow could frighten her so much, imagine the terror for those from whom the lord withdraws his light. Two days before she had decided where to send her son Robert to be educated; this reminds her that she can never have contentment without something to mitigate that joy.]

Item 22 (Meditation), pp.68-71

Upon putting out my son to school March 4th 1668/9

To bring up children in the nurture and admonition of the Lord is the duty that is enjoined parents

...

and thus my God I offer up my child and all my concerns in him to thee therefore I beseech thee own him as thine and govern him as thine and then he will be what I above all things wish him acceptable unto thee

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first line to Ephesians 6:4.]

Item 23 (Meditation), pp.72-79

Upon a good woman dying suddenly and distracted and:

Those mercies which are ordinarily received loses their value because we look not upon them as grace but debt

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so should glory be to him who we all ought to serve, and more love and peace and charity one with another and for this I will pray Lord say

Amen

[Halkett describes how a woman rose in the night and broke her wheel [spinning wheel?] and whatever else she could reach; after several hours she and her unborn child died. Another woman was greatly perplexed due to an awakened conscience from spending too much money. Halkett reflects that she has sinned much more than these women: the first woman went to heaven insensible of her situation, the other fears death because she will be judged.]

Item 24 (Meditation), pp.80-81

Upon the dreadful eruption and inundation of the fire April 1 1669 related by the Earl of Winchilsea

Who can read or hear without astonishment and wonder so unparalleled a relation which comes from so credible an eye witness; and yet says, he is not able to express the terror of the sight

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but if the God of nature did not think fit to punish them and spare us he could chain up the evolution of those sulphurous veins and let loose our cooler streams to overwhelm us

[

Compare this description with the later newspaper account Halkett describes on pp.xiv-xv (msItem 8). Heneage Finch, second Earl of Winchilsea published A true and exact account of the late prodigious earthquake...Mount Aetna in 1669. Six editions were printed that year, including one in Edinburgh.

Page 82 is blank.

Item 25 (Meditation), pp.83-88

Upon the Act of Supremacy December 1669

There is few things that have been done of late that have occasioned more variety of opinions than this Act

...

then all would join in one hymn and say glory be to God on high and on earth peace and good will towards men

Amen

[Halkett describes the King's appointing of himself defender of the faith, which she thinks is a good thing because when either party, Presbyterian or Episcopalian, had absolute power they would not yield to the other. She wants to improve both herself and others, while protesting that she only intends her writing for her own use, by praying for peace in their Israel [i.e. Britain].]

Item 26 (Meditation), pp.89-90

Upon two birds feeding in my window in a great snow February 11 1669/70

What object can I behold or fix my thoughts upon but may teach me my duty or reprove me for neglecting it

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Lord let thy goodness lead me to repentance and while I offer praise to thee let my prayers be heard for all that want what by thy blessing I enjoy

Item 27 (Meditation), pp.91-93

Upon the misfortune of S W F who was brained with a fall February 1669/70

David's petition and conclusion was very necessary when he said Lord hold thou me up, and I shall be safe

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it is their sin that misinterprets this and not mine I hope who obeys it

[

There is a marginal biblical reference to Psalm 119:117 beside the first line.

Halkett describes the case of an unnamed man who had escaped harm in foreign countries but fell down the stairs. She wept for his death and some accused her of having a more than ordinary respect for him.

Item 28 (Meditation), pp.94-97

Upon a sudden distemper which I was in on Monday night February 21 1669/70

Had I not this long time used to record judgments and mercies both to others and my self

...

but with the moderation that becomes one who wholly doth desire to be in all things acceptable to him who is my Lord and my God

[Many of Halkett's underlinings are in a different ink, suggesting that she highlighted certain important words while rereading them for her future meditations.]

Item 29 (Meditation), pp.98-101

Upon the burning Major Weere April 11 1670

How can my pen but tremble to write what my heart abhors to think of or to hear related of the horrid crimes that deserted man hath been guilty of

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but oh Lord let none ever venture near the pit of condemnation lest thou swear in thy wrath they shall never enter into thy rest

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final line to Psalm 2.

Major Weir confessed he was incestuous with his sister for 40 years and other abominable acts. To aggravate his sin he was ""a great professor"": he preached at private meetings but vowed he never bowed his knees to God; he pretended that he sat from infirmity.

Item 30 (Meditation), pp.102-104

Upon my son Robert's sickness April 1670

It is above a twelvemonth since I put out my son to school and in all that time he had never but once any thing like a distemper

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and let not any iniquity have dominion over us so will we keep thy precepts and for ever glorify thy name

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final line to Psalm 119:133.]

Item 31 (Meditation), pp.105-109

Upon my being at the sacrament at Toriburne May 29 1670

If grace were only attainable through our own strength or that the measures of it were restrained to our own sense and feeling of it

...

he will subdue our iniquities and cast all our sins into the depths of the sea. So shall my God be glorified for ever

Amen

[She writes that many objected to the sacrament being given on that day which was the anniversary of the king's birth and his restoration, but it would be such a happy day if everyone could make it a day of devotion.]

Item 32 (Meditation), pp.110-114

Upon a great pain my son Robert had with a bile 14 days together

Since I desire to make serious reflections upon all things I meet with I should not omit so remarkable a passage as what hath happened of late to my poor child

...

therefore I beseech thee take him into thy protection and then he cannot but be safe and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips

Amen

Item 33 (Meditation), pp.115-128

Upon the death of my Dearest Sir James Halkett who died upon Saturday morning betwixt eight and nine o'clock being Sept 24 1670

Where is God my maker who giveth songs in the night? If the Lord did not manifest himself under the darkest dispensations what could support an afflicted soul under so sad a trial as the loss of the best of husbands

...

so shall to the King eternal immortal the only wise God be glory ever more

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first line to Job 35:10.

Halkett begins this meditation by referring to being born and bred in another country (England) and to being a stepmother (she says mother-in-law), saying she has suffered from evil tongues. Her husband never disrespected authority, ""(setting aside that time when the whole kingdom was bemisted with a mistaken zeal)"", presumably during the early years of the Civil Wars. He never did anything lawless in the ""Caping trade"" (i.e. ""to seize vessels in a privateering way""-Scottish National Dictionary) though he was for a time enriched by it. She vows never to be ungrateful to his relations, though some of them (presumably his eldest son, Charles) have been unjust to her. She describes her husband's last actions and words. Many have suggested she should fear her stepson, but she has prayed for him.

Item 34 (Meditation), p.128

A postscript, written in a different ink, and enclosed in parentheses, written in still yet another ink

When my dear child Jane was dying severals took notice that my dearest Sir James

...

I am confident they are together magnifying the God of mercy

[In this meditation Halkett describes how when her child Jane was dying, Sir James asked God that he might be the first to meet her.]

Item 35 (Meditation), pp.129-140

Upon my deplorable being a widow

Widowhood is threatened both by the prophet Isaiah and Jeremiah as one of the greatest temporal crosses that can be inflicted

...

then may I say with St Paul to the unmarried and widows it is good for them if they abide even as I (am now and ever desire to be)

Amen so be it

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the first line (to Isaiah 47:9 and Jeremiah 18:21) and the last line (1 Corinthians 7:8).

Halkett describes her fears of being used unkindly, about providing for her child, and about her debt; she lists her duties as a widow, a mother, and a Christian; and she ends by saying that she wants to follow the example of the widow Anna (Luke 2:36-37) and the widow Paul calls a widow indeed (1 Timothy 5:7-10).

Item 36 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.141-180

Meditations upon the 5th verse of the 13 Chapter to the Hebrews

Many differs upon the author of this epistle but all generally conclude who ever was the penman the holy spirit of God was the dictator

...

unto the King eternal immortal invisible the only wise God be honour and glory for ever and ever

Amen

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of Hebrews 13:5: ""Let your conversation be without covetousness and be content with such things as you have for he (which is the Lord) hath said I will never leave thee nor forsake thee.""

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.1-40.

Item 37 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.181-205

Meditations upon the 22 verse of the 4th chapter of the first of Samuel

These were the last words of a dying woman: the wife of Phineas the son of Elie the priest of God the occasion of them will furnish as many observable circumstances as any of the historical part of the Scripture

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that word which can only save us through faith in our Lord Jesus Christ to whom be ever glory world without end

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of 1 Samuel 4:22: ""And she said the glory is departed from Israel for the ark of God is taken"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.41-65.

Item 38 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.206-212

Meditations upon the 20 verse of the 18 Psalm

I have often read this place of scripture with an holy envy to find any one could say this

...

I shall with joy then run the ways of thy commandments for that is chiefly what I most desire

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of Psalm 18:20: ""The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.66-72.

Item 39 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.213-225

Upon the 7th verse of the 13th chap of the first epistle to the Corinthians

One who reads these words and no more may be at a stand to consider what it can be that is able to do all this

...

but this chiefly that we should believe in the name of his son Jesus Christ and love one another

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of 1 Corinthians 13:7: ""Beareth all things, believeth all things hopeth all things, endureth all things."". There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final line to I John 3:23.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.73-85.

Item 40 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.226-236

Upon the 18 and 19 of the 35 Chapter of Jeremiah

The word of God by some is fitly compared to a well furnished shop that hath in it all things suitable for all men under all conditions

...

where there is fullness of joys for evermore and can abundantly make up what ever is wanting here

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of Jeremiah 35:18-19, which begins: ""And Jeremiah said unto the house of the Rechabites thus saith the Lord of hosts the God of Israel..."".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.86-96.

Item 41 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.236-243

Meditations upon the 1 Corinths 6 chapter 11 verse

St Paul in the first chapter of this Epistle after his usual salutation to the Church at Corinth and those which are called to be saints

...

that my faith may be evidenced by my works which may be such as in all things may give glory to thee who are the God of my salvation

Amen

[

This meditation begins with a transcription of 1 Corinthians 6:11: ""And such were some of you but ye are washed but ye are sanctified but ye are justified in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and by the spirit of our God"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.97-103.

Item 50 (Meditation), pp.351-352

Upon Monday the 2d of January 1670/71

I have this many years at the beginning of the New Year given myself unto the Lord as my freewill offering

...

since my Lord finds me fit to have a rod to correct whenever he gives a staff to uphold me but be then ever glorified for all things

Amen

[

The day before this meditation she consecrated her widowhood to God (saying that she would not vow to live as a widow all her days in case God has something else in store). She begs mercy for ""this family"" (her stepchildren) and prays that the Lord will direct him (Sir Charles) towards the choice of a good wife. She alludes to her husband's death, saying that the joy of her stepson's kindness (after she demonstrated her affection and respect to him) was too much to enjoy with her husband's blessing, so one had to be taken from her before she could be happy in the other.

Entry not paginated by Halkett.

Item 2 (Meditation), pp.ii-iii

January 5th 1673/4

Upon Thursday in the evening the snow began and no day nor night intermitted till the 20 day being this day

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and I will endeavour to assist as many as I can and Lord accept of my intended service unto thee

[

The last four words of the meditation are written sideways on the page. In this meditation Halkett mentions that she planned to go to St Andrews but the Lord hindered her.

Pages ii-iii are recto and verso of a scrap of paper pasted onto a guard.

Item 4 (Meditation), p.v

It was but an ordinary rod which Moses had in his hand when the Lord first appeared to him in the burning bush

...

from which may be applied that we should have a veneration for any thing person or place that the Lord makes use of for his praise

[

This is written upside down on the page.

Page v is the verso of page iv.

Item 5 (Meditation), p.vi

If the angel of the Lord in one night smote in the camp of the Assirians a hundred fourscore and five thousand what dis: 2 Kings 19:35

...

Psalm 22:18

[

The first half of the writing on the page is crossed out. Underneath the crossed out portion is a list of biblical references headed, ""That it might be fulfilled"".

Page vi is the recto of another scrap of paper later pasted into the manuscript.

Item 7 (Meditation), pp.1-31

The widow's mite

The great and holy God created all things both in heaven and earth to praise him and as the greatest of Kings was honoured by his acceptation

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Make the King perfect in every good work to do his will working in him that which is well pleasing in his sight through Jesus Christ to whom be glory for ever and ever

Amen

[The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""The Widow's Mite part of it relating to the King"". In this meditation Halkett writes that she is grateful to have the news that her stepson, Sir Charles Halkett, is safe at London and escaped danger in the ""last sea fight"" (probably connected to the third Anglo-Dutch war; since this volume was begun on 23 June 1673, the naval battle may date from then). She regrets, however, that she was froward when several sick people interrupted her the next day. She meditates on King Charles I's patient suffering and describes how after his murder she prayed daily for the present king and his family in their exile. She wept when she first heard in 1652 from Lady Anna Erskine at Fyvie of the plan that the loyal party had of raising an army for the king after Worcester. Halkett spoke her mind (that the king would be restored through God's mercy) to Colonel Overton at Fyvie; he said if it came to pass he would repent what he had done and believe she was a prophetess (Halkett also relays this episode in her autobiography, British Library Add. MS 32376). Now the times are becoming cloudy again, but she remembers how the Lord preserved the king in his going from Oxford to Bristol in March 1644 - her brother Charles Murray, who held a position in his majesty's bedchamber, told how they marched at night through the enemy's army. She describes the ill uses the king met with abroad. At the Restoration the army was disbanded quickly and the designs of the ""fanatics"" were disappointed. She lists the infirmities of holy men to show how the Lord pardons all sins. The king showed great courage in being crowned on the appointed day, although ""the fanatics both in words and papers flung into the King's court at Whitehall"" had claimed that the crown would never be set on his head. Some faithful to the king tried to dissuade him from keeping the appointed day because there would be an eclipse of the sun, which might appear an ill omen, but he said he feared neither because he knew the Lord overruled such events. She records what she witnessed herself when he rode from the Tower to Whitehall the day before the Coronation. His attendants could not keep the multitude from his horse, and Halkett feared an attempt on his life. She prayed and these prayers were heard, because the king rode on serenely. The next day he was crowned, but after it, there was a terrible storm which made her fear some danger to him in his return from Westminster by water to Whitehall where she waited, alone and praying on her knees, and where she had the honour to be the first to kiss his hand after he came into the house. After the crown had been on his head for a time he took it off because the weight of it made his head ache. Some predicted the shortness of his reign, but if she had been there (she was heavily pregnant) she would have interpreted it that he took off his crown to adore God who had set it on his head.]

Item 8 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.32-155

Meditations and resolutions upon Luke 2 verses 36 37 38

The foregoing meditation may be some way confirmed by this that there was one Anna a widow that was a prophetess and though I will not go the length that Solomon doth who says that which hath been is now but this I may say that which hath been may be and the same God who endued this woman with the spirit of prophecy may afford some ray of it when he please and to whom he please for he giveth not the spirit by measure

...

and as an aged woman likewise in behaviour as becometh holiness and looking for that blessed hope and the glorious appearing of the great God and our saviour Jesus Christ to whom with thee and the blessed spirit be ascribed everlasting praise honour and dominion over all and for evermore

Amen Amen

[

The text of Luke 2:36-38 is written out before the meditation, beginning, ""And there was one Anna a prophetess the daughter of Phanuell of the tribe of Aser..."". There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines of the meditation to Ecclesiastes 3:15 and John 3:34.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Meditations and resolution concerning the devout widow Anna Luke 2d verse 36 37 38 in which is observations on the Lord prayer the creed and the ten command"". In this meditation Halkett writes that she was pleased to find one of her own sex, name, and condition in the Bible and that she will make her example her own practice. She will see how far she can follow this widow with fasting and prayers night and day. She rejoices that they have a Protestant king. She describes ""the usurper"" (Oliver Cromwell) -- whenever he fasted, another murder followed (p.62). On 9 December 1670 she resolved to give 1/10th of her money to charity (marginal note: ""Dec 9 1673""). In the year 1644 she set apart that day (Wednesday) to seek mercy to reconcile the division between the king and his people and to mourn for the sins that occasioned it. She explores three clauses of the Lord's prayer: on daily bread, forgiving sins, and leading not into temptation, and writes that kneeling is the best posture for praying. She describes her baptism into the Church of England, and writes of her approval of baptism in the Church of Scotland. When her child Jane was dying Jane spoke to the dishonour of God at the height of her fever, and Halkett struck her. She describes an incident at her sister Elizabeth Newton's house at Charlton when the Prince Elector (Charles Louis, 1617-1680) was visiting [in margin: ""Oct 18 1644""]; she saw a boy carrying home a brown loaf and she said it was hers but it was not.

Page 155 is blank.

Item 9 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp. 156-212

Meditations upon 1 Corinths 1 chapter 11. 12. 13 verses

I have found it so beneficial a divertissement to employ my thoughts sometimes (after my most solemn devotion in the morning of praying and reading the holy scripture) upon some particular passages observable

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Now for this promise and all the mercies offered in thy son Christ Jesus, be thou (with him and the blessed spirit) exalted oh God above the heavens and thy glory above all the earth

Amen Amen

[

The text of 1 Corinthians 1:10-13 is written at the beginning of this meditation: ""10 Now I beseech you brethren by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ that ye all speak the same thing..."". There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 108:5.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Meditations and resolutions upon 1 Cor 1 12 13 verses occasioned by the late rent in this Church"".

Item 11 (Meditation), pp.214-218

Upon the death of Sir Robert Moray who died suddenly in June 1673

Solomon says there is no remembrance of the wise more than the fool for ever and how dieth the wise man? Even as the fool

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for righteous lips are the delight of kings and they love him that speaketh right

[

Halkett witnessed Sir Robert Moray's great submission under the worst trials when she lived in the same house as his lady (Sophia, nee Lindsay (1624-1653), who died in childbirth). Her husband helped her strengthen her faith with discourse, in which Halkett found more satisfaction than in the arguments of the best ministers of Edinburgh who came to see her when his wife died. He was a man of great learning and knowledge; the King said after his death that he would have been a fit companion for any prince, but he struggled with necessity all his life. She wishes his example might be followed by those at court.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.214-217. Page 217 is an interleaved page; its verso is blank and is not recorded in the pagination. The order of the pages is 214-216, 218, 217. The heading on p.217 is ""to follow 217 page in Sir Robert Moray"". Halkett evidently ran out of space in the volume and had to finish up the meditation on a separate page, later bound into the volume. See layout below for further discussion.

Item 12 (Meditation), pp.219-224

Upon the 24 of September 1673

Upon this day three year the Lord was pleased to make me a widow and though I desire every Saturday (being the day of the week) to have serious reflections upon that sad dispensation

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but let pure and unspotted widowhood be my guide even unto death Lord establish thy word unto thy servant who is devoted to thy fear

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 119:38.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon the 24 of Sept: 73 being the Anniversary of Sir James his death something remarkable"".

The bottom of the final leaf is torn and now repaired. It must have been torn before Halkett wrote on it, because no words are lost.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.218-223.

Item 13 (Meditation), pp.225-228

Upon the death of the Laird of Bedbougy who died on Friday at 6 o'clock in the morning

Being resolved with the assistance of the Lord to make all remarkable passages of my own life or what I see or hear of in others useful towards the mortifying of sin or to increase holiness

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Oh ever may he be magnified who never failed me in difficulties

[

Beside the title is the marginal note: ""3d October 1673"".

The Laird of Bedbougy is spelled ""Belbougiy"" in the table of contents (msItem 51); perhaps it is Balbougie, Inverkeithing.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.224-227.

Item 14 (Meditation), pp.229-237

Upon my being at the sacrament at Carnock Sunday 26 of October 1673

Our Lord who knew our frame found it necessary to command us to do something in remembrance of him

...

to the eternal immortal and ever wise God be ascribed all glory world without end

Amen

[

The table of contents (msItem 51) spells the name Carioke. The village of Carnock is in Fife.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.228-236.

Item 15 (Meditation), pp.238-246

Upon the sudden distemper I was in November 10th 1673 being Monday night at 11 o'clock at night

This is a night to be much observed to the Lord for ever: for great mercies deserves great remembrances as trophies of praise set up to glorify the great and holy Lord

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and blessing and glory and wisdom and thanksgiving and honour and praise and might be unto our God for ever and ever

Amen

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Exodus 13:42 and beside the final lines to Revelation 3:12.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.237-245.

Item 16 (Meditation), pp.247-249

Friday 28 of November 1673 upon variety of troubles succeeding one another

It is not long since I was acknowledging it as a mercy the health we enjoyed in the family and the being preserved from some troubles incident to those who cannot be masters of their own

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The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy O Lord endureth for ever forsake not the work of thy own hands

[

Halkett has written a note at the end of this meditation: ""The same day that this was written I received several testimonies of the Lord's favour. For remembering me in my low estate I will give thanks unto the God of heaven for his mercy endures for ever"". There is marginal biblical reference to Psalm 135:23 and 26 beside this note.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.246-248.

Item 17 (Meditation), pp.250-251

December 16 1673

I am this day intending if the Lord give me leave to go to Edinburgh where duty more than inclination calls me

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and if thou wilt be pleased to bring me safe back again in health and peace I will offer thee the sacrifices of thanksgiving and while I live I will bless the Lord

[

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my journey to and return from Edb [Edinburgh]"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.249-250.

Item 18 (Meditation), pp.252-255

Monday the 22 of December

Upon Saturday last the Lord was pleased to bring me and all that went with me safe home again

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who is able to do abundantly above all that I can either ask or think and to him will I ascribe all honour praise and thanksgiving world without end

[

This meditation is not listed in table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.251-254.

Item 19 (Meditation), pp.256-257

Upon Christmas Day 1673

That the birth of Christ was, none denies that professeth Christianity. but at what time, and whether that time should be solemnly kept as a religious duty is a question that hath occasioned much debate in the world

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but with the unleavened bread of sincerity and truth and as many as walk according to this rule peace shall be upon them and upon the Israel of God

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Galatians 6:16.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.255-256.

Item 20 (Meditation), pp.258-259

Upon a bite Robin got with a dog on the inside of his right arm December 27 1673

To be at peace with the beasts of the earth is one of the advantages that Eliphoz says belongs to the man that is under the protection of God

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therefore be not cast down my soul nor so disquieted within me hope thou in God for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my countenance and my God

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Job 5.

This meditation is not listed in table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.257-258.

Item 21 (Meditation), pp.260-262

Upon New Year's Day 1673/4

This is a day celebrated in the Church of England (where I had my birth and education) to commemorate the circumcision of our Lord who in that act became obedient to the law

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and thus accept oh Lord of what I desire in all these though I want words to express myself yet let the sincerity of my heart be pleasing unto thee for thy law is my delight

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 119:77.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.259-261.

Item 22 (Meditation), pp.263-264

January 4th 1673/4 being Sunday

I hope it will be no profaning of this day being dedicated to the service of the Lord if I employ some part of it (as at this time before any are ready to go to church) to give thanks to the Lord who this day was pleased to bring me into the world

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Therefore to him will I commit the keeping of my soul as into the hands of a faithful creator who will perfect what concerneth me and glorify himself by giving me (the most unworthy of his servants) daily occasion for to praise him

[

This item and the three following are listed in condensed form in the table of contents (msItem 51) as ""upon January 4. 13. 24. 30"" [i.e. referring to this meditation and those that follow, on January 13, 24, and 30].

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.262-263.

Item 23 (Meditation), pp.265-266

Upon January 13 1673/4

In my morning devotion upon this day I was more particular than ordinary in begging pardon not only for my own sins but for the sins of the King and for grace and wisdom to direct him in his present troubles

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I may then shine as the stars for ever and ever whoso is wise and will observe these things even they shall understand the loving kindness of the Lord

[

In this meditation Halkett prays for pardon for the sins of the king, her son and his brother (probably her son Robert and his stepbrother Charles), and for a scandalous sinner who had fallen again on the same day on which she was accepted into the church as a penitent. When she rose from prayer she read her usual portion of the Bible, then she took Taylor's Life and death of the holy Jesus (which she had never read before) and read the following words (""page 6"" in margin), that a devout woman who prays in her closet is like a star shining in glory. She took this to mean that her prayers were answered. The book in question is Jeremy Taylor's The great exemplar of sanctity and holy life according to the Christian institution: described in the life and death of the ever-blessed Jesus Christ the saviour of the world, first published in 1649 but also in many subsequent editions. Halkett's marginal reference matches the pages of the 1667 edition, published by J. Flesher for Richard Royston.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.264-265.

Item 24 (Meditation), pp.267-268

Upon Saturday 24 of January 1673/4

As I desire every week to commemorate my widowhood so more particularly when it falls to be the same day of the week and day of the month (though not the same month)

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Perfect that which concerneth me thy mercy O Lord endureth for ever forsake not the works of thy own hands

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 138:8.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.266-267.

Item 25 (Meditation), p.269

January 30th 1673/4

As great public mercy should never be forgot no more should public sins and punishments the one to excite our praise and the other our repentance

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if thou wilt be pleased to give us grace to live so as to redeem the time because our former days hath been exceeding evil

Amen

[

This meditation commemorates the execution of Charles I.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.268.

Item 26 (Meditation), p.270

February first 1673/4 being Sunday

This day being honoured with the name of the Lord's day it will not I hope be offensive unto him if to the ordinary duties of this day either public or private I add my solemn praise and thanksgiving for my child who on this day was born and hath been lent me now 14 year

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so let my presenting of his name to thee obtain the blessings of thy holy spirit upon him to make him serviceable to thee and I will ever bless thy name

[

This meditation celebrates the birth of Halkett's son Robert on 1 February 1660.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.269.

Item 27 (Meditation), pp.271-272

Upon Thursday the 5 of February 1673/4

I am intending this day with the assistance of the Lord to begin my journey to St Andrews where I am to leave Robin for some time and possibly for ever for what assurance have I of one moment of time either to him or to myself

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and will therefore I hope obtain pardon for any fears or trouble or disorder I am in, oh grant these for thy mercy sake

[

In the table of contents (msItem 51) this item is listed as ""Upon my going to and return from St Andrews"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.270-271.

Item 28 (Meditation), pp.273-274

Saturday the 14 of February 1673/4

As no day nor night passes over without marks of the Lord's providential care for which he should be magnified

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And blessed be his glorious name for ever and let the whole earth be filled with his glory

Amen and Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 72:18-19.

This item is not listed in the table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.272-273.

Item 29 (Meditation), p.275

Meditation on being censured

To allay the joy I had for being safe returned one out of friendship informed me that a letter which I had written had occasioned great disorder in the person to whom it was addressed and no doubt made me severely censured by them to whom she made it known

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(that since an untrue report made me write that letter) to believe nothing nor divulge nothing that may either disquiet others or myself. and this will I do if God permit

[

This item is untitled and is not listed in the table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.274.

Item 30 (Meditation), p.276

February 23 1673/4

My own present distemper may make it a useful meditation to reflect upon the death of that worthily esteemed physician Sir Robert Cunningham who died in 48 hours of the Iliack passio

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I resign myself my child all my desires all my difficulties to be disposed of by thee as seemeth good in thy sight. Leave me not neither forsake me O God of my salvation

[

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my own distemper and the death of Sir Ro Cun:"".

Entry paginated by Halkett p.275.

Item 31 (Meditation), pp.277-279

Saturday 28 of February 1673/4 upon the great snow

As I desire to make this day weekly a day of humiliation for sin and interceding for pardon through the merits of Christ and for grace to live all the days of my life. as becomes a widow dedicated to the service of God

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and since thy word hath said it I will believe and wait for it and pray for my self my child and all that are thine that we may live like those that were expecting mercy from thee

[

At the end of the meditation Halkett has written ""The storm of snow began Friday 16 of January and till Saturday the 14 of March very little thaw but then began"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.276-278.

Item 32 (Meditation), pp.280-282

Upon the peace proclaimed with the Dutch February 1673/4

The wars and peace that we have had these late years with that people hath employed several times my thoughts

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The Lord of peace himself give us peace always by all means

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to 2 Thessalonians 3:16.

The Treaty of Westminster of 19 February 1674 ended the third Anglo-Dutch War. In her meditation Halkett writes that though the Dutch have acted barbarically, their profession of the Protestant religion should entitle them to some mercy. But while she offers praise for peace, she laments the divisions at home: ""while two pilots strive which should be steersman the vessel may be in danger of being overwhelmed by contrary tides"" (p.282). She asks God to pity the divisions in church and state and to make the king a nursing father to his church.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.279-281.

Item 33 (Meditation), pp.283-288

Upon the death of Mrs Monro who died in childbed the 27 of March 1674 about 2 o'clock in the morning being entered on the tenth day after her delivery.

Having found the advantage of committing memorable things to writing I cannot omit to register the observations I have made of the life (since I was acquainted with her) and the death of this worthy person

...

may make all women in their several condition imitate her life and then they may be assured of such a death as will lead to the eternal life of blessedness

Amen

[Entry paginated by Halkett pp.282-287.]

Item 34 (Meditation), pp.289-290

Upon my son's return who came here to me last night being April 13 1674

That the Lord is a hearer of prayer is manifested by the return he hath granted to my supplications that with my whole soul I have many times offered up for the preservation of my son who the Lord hath brought safe home again

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he will then be endued with that spirit of thine which will lead him in all well pleasing in thy sight for which I will ever say

Amen

[

There is a modern note in pencil beside the title: ""i.e. the Baronet"". The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my son's Sir Cha: Halkett's return home"". In this meditation Halkett thanks God for returning her stepson home safely from a long and hazardous sea fight.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.288-289.

Item 35 (Meditation), pp.291-294

June 5 1674

Yesterday in friendship I was told, what some was pleased to say of me of my violence against those who now separate themselves from the Church and my uncharitableness to such as differed from me in judgment so that I refused to give anything that might be helpful to them in their necessities or for their health

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let me be mortified to the world and the world to me and let me mind only the one thing needful and let that good part never be taken from me

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Luke 10:42.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon some that traduced me for ill speaking"". In this meditation Halkett protests that she has offered prayers and tears to mend differences, and still gives to the poor, sick and indigent. When she was asked if she would give to those who traduced her, she said yes, because we should know the faith of those of the household of God by their works. They replied, ""if you speak of works you are a papist God keep us from works"" (p.292), leaving her angry. She will pray for separatists.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.290-293.

Item 36 (Meditation), p.295

Meditation upon her son Robert's return

Upon Monday the 6 of July 1674 the Lord was pleased to bring Robin home to me in peace and safety and hath preserved him all the time he was away from me

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for of thee and through thee and to thee are all things (therefore for this late manifestation of thy goodness glory be to thee for ever)

Amen

[

This item is untitled but is listed in the table of contents (msItem 51) as ""and Robin's return 294"". In this meditation Halkett thanks God for bringing her son Robert to her in safety, and preserving him from doing anything sinful, scandalous, or disobedient to his ""Regent"" [i.e. academic tutor] or disobliging to others.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.294.

Item 37 (Meditation), pp.296-299

Meditation on a dying man

Upon July 18 being Saturday I was hastily called from my usual retirement to see one that was dying and earnestly desired to speak with me

...

and that they, and I, and all that loves the Lord Jesus, may live like them that waited for the accomplishing of them Lord grant for thy mercy sake

Amen

[

This item is untitled and is not listed in the table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.295-298.

Item 38 (Meditation), p.300

Sunday 26 of July 1674 upon going to Drummond with my Lord and Lady

Lord since in thy providence thou hast thought fit that I should go a journey this day let me still have thy word in my heart to be a light to my paths

...

for I desire mercy for myself and all mine and all that are thine for the merits of thy son

[

The identity of Halkett's lord and lady are not certain.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.299.

Item 39 (Meditation), p.301

Upon Saturday the first of August 1674

Last night the Lord brought me safe home again, without sickness danger or any ill accident oh that I could say without sin too

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I will make it my endeavour with all men to live in peace and then I will expect the God of peace and love to be with me

[

This item is not mentioned in table of contents.

Entry paginated by Halkett p.300.

Item 40 (Meditation), pp.302-304

Upon Monday the 10 of August

I was yesterday at Toriburne presenting myself at the table of the Lord but never with more deadness of spirit both then and for some few days before

...

and by more diligent preparation for the next day of grace which I expect shortly if with my Lord's permission I may be allowed to present myself again

[

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my going to the sacrament at Toriburne"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.301-303.

Item 41 (Meditation), pp.305-308

Monday 24 of August 1674 Dunfermline

Yesterday I was again at the table of the Lord here at our own church where I had the satisfaction of having my child with me who is now dearer to me than ever

...

Now therefore our God we thank thee and praise thy glorious name for ever

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to 1 Chronicles 29:13.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my being at the sacrament at Dunfermline"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.304-307.

Item 42 (Meditation), pp.309-312

Upon a proposal 1674

Yesterday being Tuesday the first of September a near relation very seriously inquired of me if I intended to marry to which very freely and frankly I answered

...

and my being serviceable to thee who I hope will never let me be forgetful of my former resolutions and that I am devoted to thy fear

[

To the question of whether she intended to marry Halkett answered that she was resolved not to. Her relative said he knew she would be proposed to by someone she highly honoured, ""who being inquired of by a very near relation of his where to make choice for a wife had recommended me. And he being satisfied the next thing was to try me"" (p. 309). She said she was obliged, but determined to remain a widow to do her duty to her child to show him she hadn't forgotten the memory of his father. He said she would have more opportunity to do her son good because the man would settle a good condition on her if he died first. With tears she told him to stop, then prayed alone for strength to resist this temptation. The greatest motive to remarry would be to provide for her child and his father's family, to pay her debts and to help the poor.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.308-311.

Item 43 (Meditation), pp.313-316

Upon the 24 of September 1674

This being the anniversary day of my dearest Sir James's death it must not be passed over with silence nor dry eyes

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Save me from all assaults of the world or flesh or devil for I have no hope but only in thee oh let me never be confounded

[Entry paginated by Halkett pp.312-315.]

Item 44 (Meditation), pp.317-319

Upon the death of my Lord Preston who died suddenly upon Wednesday the 28 of October 1674 betwixt 6 and 7 in the morning

As in water face answereth to face so the heart of man to man says Solomon and what can more truly represent the frailty of, man to man, than to see his own resemblance thus in a moment snatched away

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and I will wait for the accomplishing of it in thy own way and time and praise thee for thy mercy endureth for ever

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Proverbs 27:19.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.316-318.

Item 45 (Meditation), pp.320-322

Upon Thursday the 19 of November 1674

If David said Lord what is man that thou should be mindful of him how may I wonder and admire that ever the Lord should regard me who am the vilest and the most ingrate of all mankind.

...

accept of us O Lord for we are thine forsake not the work of thy own hands

[

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon Robin's going again to St Andrews"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.319-321.

Item 46 (Meditation), pp.323-324

Upon Christmas Day 1674

Shall angels give glory to God on high for the mercies which this day has manifested on earth and shall not I exalt the Lord of Glory

...

Now unto the King eternal immortal invisible the only wise God be honour and glory for ever and ever

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to 1 Timothy 1:17.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.322-323.

Item 47 (Meditation), pp.325-326

Upon New Year's Day 1674/5

The holy Lord and great law giver enacted it for a statute to Israel that none should appear before him empty at that feast of unleavened bread which was celebrated in commemoration of their deliverance from the Egyptian bondage

...

therefore give me that gift of righteousness by which I may exalt thy name and for ever glorify the God of my salvation

Amen

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Exodus 23:15 and beside the final lines to Psalm 68:18 and Romans 5:17.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.324-325.

Item 48 (Meditation), pp.327-329

Upon Tuesday the 5 of January 1674/5

Yesterday in the evening the Lord brought me safe home from Aberdour where I had been partaking of the greatest testimony of Christ humility and man's exaltation.

...

Lord seal this to us with that holy spirit of promise so shall we ascribe Allelujah salvation and glory and honour and power to our God for ever

Amen

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Ephesians 1:13 and Revelation 19:1.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my being at the sacrament at Aberdour"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.326-328.

Item 49 (Meditation), pp.330-333

Tuesday the 12 of January 1674/5

Well may it be said this place is not our rest. And none living hath had greater experience of it than I

...

and deliver me (if thou seest fit) out of all my troubles so will I bless my God which turneth not away my prayer nor his mercy from me

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Psalm 79:66 and 20.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon successive trouble arriving to me"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.329-332.

Item 50 (Meditation), pp.334-336

Thursday 21 of January 1674/5

I have this morning been so ill with a lightness in my head and an oppression of my spirits when I first rise out of my bed that if I had not sometimes formerly felt the like I should have thought I had been going to expire

...

Of thee (it comes) and through thee (it is) and to thee are all things to whom be glory for ever Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Romans 11:36.

The table of contents (msItem 51) lists this item as ""Upon my distemper beginning January 21"".

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.333-335.

Item 2 (Meditation), pp.1-56

The art of divine chemistry

[A meditation prefaced by a prayer. The title also appears on p.2; otherwise there are no other headings. The title might appear on p.2 because on p.1 is a prayer; the mediation proper begins on p.2. At the end of the meditation Halkett has written ""Ended Saturday 2d of September 1676""]

Item 2.2 (Meditation), pp.2-56

The art of divine chemistry

Although affliction cometh not forth of the dust neither doth trouble spring out of the ground: Yet man is born to trouble as the sparks fly upward

...

make me perfect in every good work to do thy will working in me that which is well pleasing in his sight through Jesus Christ to whom be glory for ever and ever

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Job 5:6-7.

The meditation discusses the notion of divine chemistry, the drawing of spiritual good out of temporal evils. Pages 36-51 contain a series of supplications in the form of prose paragraphs with refrains. The first one, on pp.36-38, begins each paragraph with, ""That it may please thee..."" and has the refrain ""I beseech thee to hear me good Lord"" (or a slight abbreviation). Then the final verse (p.38) ends with a fuller version of this refrain: ""I beseech thee to hear me O Lord/ Son of God I beseech thee to hear/ me/ O Lamb of God which taketh away/ the sins of the world have mercy/ upon me"". Pages 38-41 have three verses beginning, ""O thou who... "", then 2 verses beginning, ""Let me not... "", then 4 more verses beginning variously. The refrain is, for the first verse, ""Lord save me or I perish"", and for the rest of the verses, ""Leave me not neither forsake me/ O God of my salvation"". Pages 41-44 have 8 verses beginning variously, then the refrain, ""Lord if thou wilt thou canst make/ me clean"". Pages 44-47 have 8 verses, the last seven beginning with, ""Then""; the refrain is ""O that I might have my request and that/ God would grant me the thing I long/ for"". Pages 47-51 have 8 verses (some very long) beginning variously; the refrain is, ""All the days of my appointed time/ will I wait till my change come"". This structure seems hymn-like.

Item 3 (Meditation), pp.57-201

Monday 4 of September 1676 The rule for thoughts

Thoughts in man is a faculty by which is commenced either good or ill. No, operation of the soul is so unbounded nor no senses of the body so uncontrollable

...

So shall to the King eternal immortal invisible the only wise God be honour and glory for ever and ever

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to 1 Timothy 1:17.]

Item 4 (Meditation), pp.202-258

The rule for action what we are to do from the same apostle and follows in the next verse Philippians 4 9

The proverb calls thoughts free and the opinion that many hath of the truth of this, makes it difficult to bring them in subjection

...

Lord keep my tongue from evil and my lips from speaking guile and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips

Amen

[The meditation begins with the text of Philippians 4:9: ""Those things which ye have both learned and received and seen in me do and the God of peace shall be with you"". There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Psalm 34:13 and Psalm 63:5.]

Item 5 (Meditation), pp.259-291

The rule for words from what our Lord himself hath said in St Matthew 12 37

It is sad to consider that the greatest privilege man hath is his greatest snare and that one and the same instrument may be employed in the greatest good and the greatest evil.

...

Then will I worship thee saying amen blessing and glory and wisdom and thanksgiving and power and might be to our God for ever and ever

Amen

[The meditation begins with the text of Matthew 12:37: ""For by thy words thou shalt be justified and by thy words thou shalt be condemned"". There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Romans 14:18 and Revelation 7:12. At the end of the meditation Halkett has written ""ended Sept 10 1677"".]

Item 6 (Meditation), pp.292-293

Meditation on the seventh year of her widowhood

Finding an empty place here and a loose paper writ by me Saturday the 30th of September 1676 in which there is something fit for me to remember I have here inserted it as a memorial of what I then thought and desired

...

Lord let it not be in vain that I seek from thee this mercy since it is chiefly to make me acceptable in thy sight who art my strength and my redeemer oh redeem me from all my iniquities so shall not sin be my ruin

[This meditation is untitled and is not listed in table of contents.]

Item 7 (Meditation), pp.294-370

Monday the 22 of April 1678

Though it be long since I left off, what is hitherto writ here: yet the occasion of it may be of some advantage to me if the Lord sees fit to give a seasonable opportunity to divulge it. by representing my unparalleled misfortunes and the wonderful power and mercy of God in supporting me under them; which being an evidence of the Lord's compassion may incline others to the greater charity whose severe censure of me occasioned an interruption to the conclusion of this book to relate a true account of my life. What effects it may produce I leave to him to whom I resign the entire disposal of all that concerns me

...

praising thee and saying holy holy holy, Lord God of hosts heaven and earth are full of thy glory Glory be to thee most high

Amen

[This meditation opens with an explanation that she wrote her autobiography between finishing the previous item in this book and beginning this item. She thus wrote her autobiography between 10 September 1677 and 22 April 1678. Her autobiography is British Library MS Additional 32376 (see Perdita catalogue entry), last edited by John Loftis in 1979, and soon to be available again in a forthcoming edition by Suzanne Trill. The table of contents (msItem 10) lists this item as ""Meditations upon the 4th and 5th verses of the 106 Psalm"".]

Item 8 (Meditation), pp.371-380

Tuesday the 26 of November 1678

Having for a time omitted my usual meditations which every morning I make legible that I may by reflection gain advantage and being resolved with the Lord's assistance to fill up what remains in these few leaves. after several thoughts I have fallen upon these words of David's that may not be improper here to be inserted at this time when the mercy of God hath been so visibly seen in the King's preservation

...

make the King perfect in every good work to do his will working in him what is well pleasing in his sight through Jesus Christ to whom be glory for ever and ever

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Hebrews 13:20-21.

The table of contents (msItem 10) lists this item as ""Meditations and prayers concerning the King"". The words of David that Halkett quotes are from Psalm 72:15, which she calls a prayer and a prophecy. She thanks God for delivering the king from the recent conspiracy, presumably the Popish Plot, in which the hand of God was visible: the remorse of one of the conspirators led to the detection of the others. She hopes that the Protestant church will be even more firmly established, due to the intended malice of the Catholic conspirators.

Item 3 (Meditation, Preface), pp.iii-iv

Statement of intent for the volume

Should any know what I have writ, or what I now design to insert in this book; undoubtedly, severe would be their censure

...

So shall thine own works praise thee when thou vouchest to let transgressors teach thy ways that sinners may be converted unto thee

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Psalm 119:18 and Psalm 51:13.

On this prefatory leaf Halkett writes that if anyone knew what she was about to write in this book they would think her vain or impertinent for adding to what many have written already. But she does not intend these morning meditations to be seen by anyone while she is alive; if after her death they fall into someone's hands she hopes God will influence them as he influenced her. She has not meditated as frequently as usual but she is resolved to start again, making Joseph's trials and triumphs the subject after her usual devotion is done.

Item 4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.1-506

Joseph's trials and triumph

Joseph (as Monsieur Paschall observes page 65) was a figure of Christ as being beloved of his father and sent by him to his brethren who sold him and by that means he became their saviour and the saviour of the world. As innocent Joseph was betwixt two criminals in prison so was Jesus betwixt two malefactors upon the cross etc: To these I hope I may without offence add my own observations

...

thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance and make me triumph in the works of thy hands. Glory be to the father and to the son etc

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 92:4.

The reference to ""Monsieur Paschall observes page 65"" in the first line is to a French language edition of Blaise Pascal's Pensees published in Amsterdam in 1672 and 1677.

The first eight pages discuss Joseph's parents, and especially his mother, Rachel. There are many marginal biblical references to Genesis (and other books of the Bible), and different sections are apparent in the text, supported by headings on the versos of some pages, presumably indicating the main biblical source for that passage. These sections are: Genesis 37 (pp.8-28), Genesis 39 (pp.28-51), Genesis 40 (pp.51-80), Genesis 41 (pp.80-138), Genesis 42 (pp.139-188), Genesis 43 (pp.188-255), Genesis 44 (pp.255-288), Genesis 45 (pp.288-336; Halkett's pagination pp.288-335), Genesis 46 (pp.336-377; Halkett's pagination pp.335-376), Genesis 47 (pp.378-414; Halkett's pagination pp.377-413), Genesis 48 (pp.414-449; Halkett's pagination pp.413-448), Genesis 49 (pp.449-497; Halkett's pagination pp.448-496), Genesis 50 (pp.497-506; Halkett's pagination pp.496-505). See msItem 2 above, the table of contents, for a few of the details within the meditation that Halkett wanted to highlight.

Entry paginated by Halkett pp.1-505 (Halkett has two p.324s).

Item 5 (Meditation, Notes), p.v

Notes

Ended Saturday the 5 of November 1681

...

To the praise of my most gracious God who hath brought me through many difficulties and trials since this book was first begun and till he please to end them will I hope support me with his grace so, as that I may do nothing unsuitable to a widow indeed, that is (oh Lord) devoted to thy fear.

[

This is the entire entry.

Page v is the back pastedown.

Item 3 (Meditation, Preface), p.ii

Justification for meditating on the prophecy of Jonah

Monday 21 of January 1683/4

Having ten days since ended what had employed my morning thoughts for some time, after prayer and reading. And finding it very useful both for present and future consolation to meditate upon that blessed word which is able to make me wise unto salvation

...

But let thy power work in me above all that I am able to ask or think to whom be glory world without end

Amen

[Halkett writes that having considered the example of Jesus's humility already (presumably in a now lost volume), she will now make the long suffering of God her next meditation, the best evidence of which is in the Book of Jonah. She asks to be strengthened by God.]

Item 4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.1-147

Meditation upon the Book of Jonah

Jonah 1 chapter 1 verse and 2d

There is twelve that are called the lesser prophets of which this is one. And they are equally divided as to one part for in six of them is mentioned the time wherein they prophesied and the other six is concealed

...

So shall unto the king eternal immortal invisible the only wise God be honour and glory for ever and ever

Amen

ended Saturday the 6 of September 1684

[The meditation itself is prefaced by the text of Jonah 1.1: ""Now the word of the Lord came unto Jonah the son of Amittai saying Arise go to Nineveh that great city and cry against it: for their wickedness is come up before me"". Each verse in the four chapters of Jonah is written out and meditated upon in this meditation.]

Item 5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.148-226

Meditation on the times of David's prayer

Sunday 7th of September 1684

What meditation can be more proper for me now than that which I desire, (and with the Lord's assistance shall make my chief endeavour) to spend the remainder of my days, which is in prayer

...

And blessed be this glorious name for ever and ever: and let the whole earth be filled with thy glory

Amen and Amen

Ended Wednesday the 31 of December 1684

[On pp.149-50 Halkett explains that the subject of her meditation is what time one should pray. Since David is ""the man after God's own heart"" she will follow his example. She begins by listing the verses from the Psalms upon which she will meditate in later pages: Psalm 63:1 (""O God thou art my God early will I seek thee""), Psalm 55:17 (""Evening and morning and at noon will I pray and cry aloud and he shall hear my voice""), Psalm 119:62 (""At midnight I will rise to give thanks unto thee because of thy righteous judgments""), Psalm 119:164 (""Seven times a day do I praise thee because of thy righteous judgment""), Psalm 35:28 (""My tongue shall speak of thy righteousness and praise all the day long"") (pp.150-151). She meditates on Psalm 63:3 (rather than 63:1, as the running heads indicate) on pp.151-159, Psalm 55:17 on pp. 160-168, Psalm 119:62 on pp.168-178, Psalm 119:164 on pp.178-201, and Psalm 35:28 on pp.201-208. From the bottom of pp.208-219 she meditates upon the effects of prayer.]

Item 6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.227-378

Meditation upon Saul, from the Book of Acts

Friday the 2d of January 1684/5

I have heard it observed that when a mill hath nothing to grind; it grinds itself, and so wastes what would be most useful if well employed

...

If that plea prevailed for him I have a higher plea being a daughter of the faith of Abraham blessed Lord loose me from the bonds of my iniquities for thy mercy sake and I will ever bless thy name

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Luke 13:16.

Halkett explains that the next subject of meditation will be Saul, whom God called his chosen vessel (Acts 9:15). The main sections of the meditation come from the selected verses and chapters of the Book of Acts (and are sometimes indicated on running heads; these are supplemented by marginal references to numerous other passages from scripture): Acts 9:1-31 (pp.230-290); Acts 11:26, 30 (pp.291-230); Acts 12:25 (pp.300-302); Acts 13:1-4, 8-17, 23, 39-41, 43-52 (pp.302-328); Acts 14:1-5, 7-12, 15-17, 19-23, 26, 28 (pp.328-337). On p.337 Halkett notes that she is running out of space in her book (something she reprises on p.342) and so she will only be able to make general observations on Paul's life and his epistles. She thus continues more briefly, and rarely fully quotes the biblical verse in question, on Acts 15:1, 22, 26, 31, 35, 37-39 (pp.337-342); Acts 16:3, 4, 6, 7, 9, 12, 14, 15, 17, 24, 27-31, 39, 40 (pp.342-352); Acts 17:1, 4, 10, 11, 13, 23, 28, 31, 33, 34 (pp.352-358); Acts 18:1, 6-9, 11, 17-19, 24 (pp.359-368); Acts 19:1-3, 5-7, 11-13, 15, 17, 19, 20, 26, 40 (pp.368-373); Acts 20:1, 17-19, 23, 29, 33, 36, 37 (pp.373-376); Acts 21:3, 4, 14, 24, 30, 31, 39, 40 (pp.376-377); Acts 22:1, 3, 17, 18, 23, 30 (pp.377-378). According to Simon Cooper, Halkett's biographer who has catalogued her writings (see NLS MS 6489 for a discussion), a continuation of this meditation on Paul's conversion appears in a quarto manuscript of 136 pages, dated 1686 (now lost).

Item 2 (Meditation, Preface), pp.i-ii

Introduction to her meditations, which she intends to be on St Peter

Monday January 24 1686/7

Meditation is the life of action. And no act can be well performed that is not duly considered, and the advantage or prejudice represented, which may be the result of their performance

...

direct these following meditations (which I intend to place on what is recorded of thy servant St Peter) that every step of thy grace to him may raise me nearer to thy self that sower and reaper may rejoice together

Item 3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.iii-iv

Observation Monday 6 of February 1687/8 upon reading Leviticus 8:22.23.24

That the blood of the ram of consecration being put upon the tip of Aaron's right ear the thumb of his right hand and upon the great toe of his right foot and so in the same manner to his sons

...

and that their foot may stand in an even place and not occasion stumbling to others

[This meditation is written on a small scrap of paper.]

Item 5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.1-122

Meditation upon St Peter

St Matthew 4. 18. 19 20

This confirms how good and how pleasing it is for brethren to dwell together in unity: for had any disagreement made Peter and Andrew part asunder perhaps neither of them had been partaker of that grace to which both are now called.

...

Whether I live therefore or die I am the Lord's into whose blessed hands I commit my spirit from this time forth and for evermore

Amen and Amen

ended the 28 of July 1687

[

The meditation begins with a transcription of Matthew 4:18-20. There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Psalm 133:1 and beside the final lines to Romans 14:8.

The table of contents (msItem 66) lists this item as ""Meditations upon what is mentioned in the gospel of St Peter"". In it Halkett meditates on verses from the four gospels but mostly from the book of Matthew. There are a few personal references: ""(Blessed be the Lord for the consolation I received from these words [i.e. Nahum 1:7] three years since which uphold me under the trouble I was then in. And is now a ground of hope for the same mercy under my present difficulties)"" (p.93). The date in the margin is 17 May 1687. The second personal reference is on p.99: ""(Blessed be God for the giving this experience to him [i.e. Job 23:6], to be a ground of hope to others)"", which has the date in the margin 26 May 1687. Halkett always puts these personal notes in parentheses in the middle of a paragraph, with a date in the margin.

Item 6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.123-273

Meditation on Christ's Passion for every day of the week

Monday 15 of August 1687

[The table of contents (msItem 66) lists this item as ""Meditations upon the Passion of our Lord for every day of the week [page] 123"". This meditation was occasioned by a minister suggesting to Halkett that she meditate on the passion of Christ. She meditates upon the Passion at several different times (indicated by a heading on the first page of each new section; see items nested in msItem 6 below).]

Item 6.1 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.123-136

Monday 15 of August 1687

Since I ended the foregoing meditations I was unresolved where to fix my thoughts for my morning employment, till determined by the advice of a devout minister when I was at the sacrament at Carnocke August 7th

...

that I may be ready all ways to give an answer to every man that asketh me a reason of the hope that is in me with meekness and fear

Item 6.2 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.137-151

Tuesday 6 of September 1687

Our blessed Lord who came into the world to save man by suffering, would not want any circumstance that might heighten the meritoriousness of it

...

Therefore I will rejoice in the Lord and joy in the God of my salvation who endured such contradiction of sinners to purchase peace to all believers Oh for ever may thy glorious name be praised

Amen

[The meditation begins with the text of these biblical verses: Matthew 26:47-48 and Luke 22:48. There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Habakkuk 3:18 and Hebrews 12:3.]

Item 6.3 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.152-168

Wednesday 28 of September 1687 Mathew 26 57-59

Solomon the wisest and most experienced of men said wrath is cruel and anger is outrageous but who is able to stand before envy

...

And in the greatest enjoyment which thou vouchsafest to me let me be the more humble, the higher to exalt thy praise

[The meditation opens with the text of Matthew 26:57-60, and the first half of 61. There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Proverbs 27:4.]

Item 6.4 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.169-188

Thursday 20 of October 1687 St Mathew 27 first verse etc

From the practice and experience of the most judicious as well as the most zealous the morning hath been always thought the most proper time to go about the most considerable employment

...

the God of peace and hope fill me with all joy and peace in believing that I may abound in hope through the power of the holy ghost

Amen

[The meditation opens with the text of Matthew 27:1-2. Halkett meditates on selected verses from Matthew 27, as well as a host of other biblical passages.]

Item 6.5 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.189-227

Friday 11th of November 1687 St Mathew 27 32 33 34 etc

What day more proper for this meditation than the same day of the week on which was performed the crucifying of the Lord of life

...

For ever be magnified oh blessed saviour for permitting me thus to apply this to myself for which all praise and glory be ascribed to thee for ever

Amen

[The meditation opens with the text of Matthew 27:32.]

Item 6.6 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.228-239

Saturday 10th of December 1687

Though this was done in the even of that day in which our blessed Lord was crucified yet since in the first computation of time the evening and the morning was the day

...

And then my labour will not be in vain in the Lord for whether I live or die I desire wholly to be thine my Lord

[The meditation opens with the text of Matthew 27:57-58. There is a marginal biblical reference to Genesis 1:5 beside the opening lines of the meditation itself.]

Item 6.7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), pp.240-273

Sunday 18th of December 1687 Mathew 28 1.2.3 etc

What can be more suitable to this day than to meditate upon the resurrection of our blessed Lord from which it is called the Lord's day and become our Christian sabbath

...

and for the merits of the blessed Lord Jesus who hath taught and commanded us when we pray to say Our father which art in heaven etc.

Ended January 25 1687/8 being Wednesday

[The meditation opens with the text of Matthew 28:1-6. There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Luke 11:2.]

Item 7 (Biblical writing, Meditation), p.274

A one-page meditation on the Passion of Christ

Monday 6 of February 1687/8

The Apostle says now ye are the body of Christ and as helps to live suitable to it I desire henceforth to bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus that the world may be crucified unto me and I unto the world

...

This so I may hold up the faith that formerly I destroyed that God may be gloried in me

Amen

[

There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to 1 Corinthians 12:27-28 and Galatians 6:17, 14.

This item is not listed in the table of contents.

A new section, moving from biblical (or as Halkett calls them select) meditations to occasional meditations, begins in the next item.

Item 8 (Meditation), pp.275-278

Meditation on her trials, particularly her son staying abroad

Tuesday the third of May 1687

I had been abroad all day yesterday to pay a neighbourly respect both to them I went with and those I went to see

...

Therefore I shall never be ashamed oh keep my soul and deliver me for I trust in thee: redeem me oh God out of all my troubles

[

The meditation opens with the text of Proverbs 27:1 (prefaced with ""The wise man said""). There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 25:20 and 22.

In this meditation Halkett discusses two trials: being wakened by a fire alarm in the night after falling asleep without doing her devotions, and hearing that her son Robert has received permission to leave his charge for two or three years and stay abroad.

Item 9 (Meditation), p.279

Meditation on the town being saved from a fire

Thursday 12 of May 1687

This day both by the desire of our minister and magistrates we are to meet in the Lord's house (the house of prayer) to offer up jointly together praise to our God for the wonderful deliverance this town and the inhabitants have had from that dreadful fire which broke out on Monday night the 2d of May

...

And my lips shall greatly rejoice when I sing unto thee and my soul which thou hast redeemed oh thou holy one of Israel

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 71:23.]

Item 10 (Meditation), pp.280-282

Thursday 19 of May 1687

Yesterday my son sent me in two letters to read, one to himself the other to Doctor Halkett from Robin my dear child, giving to both an account of a severe letter he had received from my Lord Dumbarton calling him back to London

...

be to him both in life and death advantage and glorify thy self in shewing mercy both to him and me who is devoted to thy fear

Amen

[The identity of Dr Halkett is not certain. Lord Dumbarton must be Lord George Douglas, Earl of Dumbarton (1636?-1692), commander of the Scottish army.]

Item 11 (Meditation), p.283

Meditation on the Restoration

Sunday 29 of May 1687

This day was ordained twenty-seven years since to be ever remembered with solemn thanksgiving for the goodness of God in returning to us our King and princes in peace and safety and establishing the Church and state according to the former government

...

And then thou wilt honour him and bless him with long life and shew him thy salvation

Amen and Amen

Item 12 (Meditation), pp.284-285

Meditation on the sacrament of communion

Saturday 4th of June 1687

Besides my usual devotion which weekly I desire to perform upon this day I have now a further reason to increase it by intending with the Lord's assistance to go to Toriburne to hear the preparation sermon in order to the celebrating the most holy supper of the lord tomorrow

...

O God of hope fill me with all joy and peace in believing that I may abound in hope through the power of the holy ghost

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Romans 15:13.]

Item 13 (Meditation), pp.286-287

Tuesday 7th of June 1687

Yesterday by the Lord's goodness I came well home again having been wonderfully strengthened through the Lord's grace to overcome many discouragement both from the ill day and my own distemper

...

that I may run with patience the race set before me looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith and through him may attain eternal life

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Hebrews 12:1-2.]

Item 14 (Meditation), pp.288-290

Wednesday 8 of June 1687

Being yesterday interrupted of what I designed in making a memorial of God's great goodness to me I resolve to perform it now

...

do I resign myself up to the God of truth, to perfect what concerns me and glorify thy self by shewing mercy to me the greatest of transgressors

Amen and Amen

[There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Deuteronomy 32:3 and Psalm 138:8.]

Item 15 (Meditation), pp.291-292

Saturday 18 of June 1687

Last night I received a letter from my dear child showing he was very well pleased to hear I was satisfied with his resolutions (that he had formerly writ to me of being a Protestant) which he hoped God almighty will confirm and continue

...

for I cast all my care wholly upon God who I know careth for me and this in all my troubles is my great consolation Thanks be to God for this unspeakable gift

[There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to 1 Peter 5:7 and II Corinthians 9:15.]

Item 16 (Meditation), p.293

Meditation on her stepson sending his two daughters to stay with her

Friday 24 of June 1687

Yesterday my son sent two of his daughters to stay with me for the conveniency of being near the schools. And what satisfaction their coming brought me anyone may judge who meets with unexpected desirable things

...

that my endeavours may be successful in bringing them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. And that through all the days of our life we may glorify the God of our salvation

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Ephesians 6:4.]

Item 17 (Meditation), pp.294-298

Monday 27 of June 1687

Yesterday at church I was a witness of what I had never seen before, one who for adultery in her widowhood and had brought forth her child in the fiftieth year of her age

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I am the door of the sheep by me if any man enter in he shall be saved for this I adore magnify and exalt thy name mighty God everlasting father prince of peace from henceforth and for evermore

Amen

[There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to John 10:7-9 and Isaiah 9:6.]

Item 18 (Meditation), p.299

Meditation on going to assist Lady Montrose in her illness

Wednesday 29 of June 1687

I am intending this day to go to Kinross with the Lord's assistance having heard last night that my being there will be satisfactory to them all especially now when my Lady Montrose (who hath honoured that family with marrying into it) is not very well

...

And let them be all taught of the Lord unto whose merciful hands I commit them and myself and all I am concerned in from this time forth and for evermore

Amen

[Lady Montrose is probably Christian (Leslie) Graham, Marchioness of Montrose, 1661-1710. She married first James, 3rd Marquess of Montrose in 1681 and second John Bruce the younger of Kinross in May 1687. She was evidently still using the title from her first marriage in June 1687 (Scots Peerage, VI, 261 and VII, 301-302).]

Item 19 (Meditation), pp.300-301

Meditation on treating the Master of Burleigh's mother who had colic

Saturday 2d of July 1687

Yesterday through the Lord's goodness I returned safe home again and found all well that I left behind me praise to the God of my salvation

...

Lord make the woman that is come into their house like Rachel and Leah to build up a house that may be famous for serving thee And those that honour thee thou wilt honour and shew them thy salvation

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Ruth 4:11.

Halkett recounts how she helped treat the Master of Burleigh's mother for colic. She prays for the lady's health and that the girl who just married into the family would be like Leah and Rachel. Isabel Balfour of Burleigh (no dates given) was the mother of Robert, 4th Lord of Balfour of Burleigh, the Master of Burleigh (Scots Peerage, I, 544-546).

Item 20 (Meditation), pp.301-302

Saturday 9 of July 1687

The Lord it seems did not think fit to grant my requests concerning my Lady Burleigh for she died in 3 days after I left her

...

whether I live or die be thou oh Christ to me both in life and death advantage and I will ever glorify thy name

Item 21 (Meditation), p.303

Meditation on a gift Halkett received from Mr Wallace

July the 15 1687

This morning I received a present from Mr Wallace out of France. I was not sudden in opening the box but first prayed that there might be nothing in it that might occasion my offending God

...

I shall I hope in that shew I am one of the children of my father which is in heaven by doing good to them who have despitefully used me

[Halkett wondered if the gift was to appease her. He gave her two bottles of the Queen of Hungary's water, which was a suitable gift that she could use to help others.]

Item 22 (Meditation), p.304

Meditation on the birth of the eighth daughter of Halkett's daughter-in-law at which Halkett assisted

Monday 25 of July 1687

Yesterday morning by five o'clock in the morning I was sent for to Pitfirrane to my daughter who was beginning them to take her pains

...

for thy mercy oh Lord to her in this and all concerned in her I adore bless and magnify thy name Lord perfect what concerns her and everlasting praise shall be ascribed to thee

Amen

Item 23 (Meditation), pp.305-307

Meditation on preparing for the sacrament

Saturday August 6 1687

I am intending this day with the Lord's assistance to go to Carnocke to hear what the Lord will speak by his servant whom he sends there to instruct the people in their duty for the right preparation to receive that great mystery of our salvation

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O Lord accept of me and forsake not the works of thy own hands I humbly pray thee who art the strength of my heart and my portion for ever

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 73:26.]

Item 24 (Meditation), pp.307-309

Tuesday 9 of August 1687

By the good hand of God upon me I came safe and well home yesterday for the hand of our God is upon all them for good that seek him

...

For this, and all the refreshments that my soul had either public or private, glory be to the God of my salvation who is daily loading us with benefits

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Ezra 8:22.]

Item 25 (Meditation), pp.310-314

Thursday 11th of August 1687

Great reason had the prophet to say cease ye from man whose breath is in his nostrils for wherein is he to be accounted of. And lest I should not believe this from that holy man my own experience confirms it

...

And as many as walk according to this rule peace be on them and mercy and upon the Israel of God

[There is a note to the left of the title: ""the day of the meeting of the Presbyterian Ministers"". There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Isaiah 2:22 and beside the final lines to Galatians 6:16.]

Item 26 (Meditation), pp.315-317

Saturday 20th of August 1687

Among some serious thoughts I had this morning I was reflecting how much more composed my thoughts were, and more serious my meditations (and more frequent) when I had none but my self and servants in my family to disturb me

...

so to carry in all conditions and to all persons as one that desires in all things to glorify God. So be it oh Lord

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Jeremiah 11:5.]

Item 27 (Meditation), pp.318-319

Friday 26 of August 1687

Yesterday my good friend Blaire came here and gave me the account of above a hundred pound sterling paid out and to be paid next week, to several of my creditors

...

and restore to him thy favour again And that will make him find favour in the sight of others and redeem Israel out of all his troubles

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalms 25:22.]

Item 28 (Meditation), pp.320-321

Friday 16 of September 1687

The great storm of rain and wind this morning brought me often to the window to pray for the Lord's putting a restraint upon it that the expectation of the husbandman might not fail nor the hopes of such as next to God's mercy depends on the fruits of the ground

...

Whoso is wise and will observe these things even they shall understand the loving kindness of the Lord

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 107:43.]

Item 29 (Meditation), pp.321-322

Sunday 18 September 1687

I cannot but acknowledge the justice of God for giving me signs of his displeasure this last night in not only depriving me of quiet rest but in making me when I waked like one going to the grave

...

And then I shall have that grace which may make me fit for glory which I beg for the merits and intercession of the Lord Jesus

Amen

Item 30 (Meditation), pp.323-324

Saturday 24 of September 1687

This being the month of the year and the same day both of month and week on which it pleased the Lord to take from me the best of husbands oh how sensibly doth it bring to my mind the sorrow and sadness of the affliction I was under this day seventeen year

...

So shall I glorify thee here, and be glorified by thee hereafter throughout all ages world without end

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Ephesians 3:21.]

Item 31 (Meditation), pp.325-326

Thursday Sept 29.1687 being Michaelmas day

This day (17 year) both of the week and month was my dearest laid in his grave and that the Lord hath thought fit to spare me thus long from lying down in the dust where the worms should cover me

...

Lord shew me the path of life in thy presence is fullness of joy and at thy right hand are pleasures for evermore which make me partaker of in thy own appointed time for mercy sake

Amen

[There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Job 21:26 and beside the final lines to Psalm 16:11.]

Item 32 (Meditation), pp.327-328

Thursday 6 of October 1687

Last night Sir George Mackenzie of Rosehall late advocate and his lady brought their son and only child to commit him to my care being very solicitous of it be [by] the will of God to have him spared to them having buried many

...

And to sow good seed in their hearts which may free them from sin and (so) become servants to God and have fruit unto holiness and the end everlasting life

Amen

[

There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Romans 6:22.

This must be Sir George Mackenzie of Rosehaugh, 1636-1691, who was Lord Advocate of Scotland from 1666-86 and 1688 (Scots Peerage, VII, 505).

Item 33 (Meditation), pp.329-330

Friday 14 of October 1687

This being the anniversary of the King's birth by public authority it is appointed for a day of thanksgiving

...

And blessed be his glorious name for ever and let the whole earth be filled with his glory

Amen and Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 72:18-19.]

Item 34 (Meditation), p.331

Meditation on sore eyes

Saturday 29 of October 1687

I have now above these ten days been so troubled with sore eyes that without trouble I can neither read write nor work which were the chief employments in which I placed greatest satisfaction

...

blessing thy name for the sight I have long enjoyed and if I am deprived of it the will of the Lord be done

Amen

Item 35 (Meditation), p.332

Meditation on the strong wind the night before

Wednesday 9 of November 1687

This last night there was so dreadful a wind as if the prince of the power of the air had got commission to execute his fury upon the workers of iniquity

...

And I beseech thee let the remainder of my days witness the impressions of this night's mercy never to be forgot that so I may in all things live like one devoted to thy fear

Amen

Item 36 (Meditation), pp.333-334

Monday 21 of November 1687

How can I but adore the goodness and mercy of my gracious God who hath vouchsafed to restore to me my eyesight again so that I have this morning for a considerable time been making use of them by candle light to the praise I hope of his great name

...

In quietness and confidence shall be my strength for the Lord is a God of judgment Blessed are all they that wait for him

[There are marginal biblical references beside the final lines to Isaiah 30:15 and 18.]

Item 37 (Meditation), pp.334-335

Saturday November 26.1687

Yesterday I received the sad news of my daughters Cavers death who died that day after bringing a dead child into the world

...

Lord pardon wherein I failed and preserve my grandchildren from ever offending thee as I have done and glory to thy great name for ever

[Cavers was the home of Sir James Halkett's sisters in southern Roxburghshire, Scotland (Loftis, p.236).]

Item 38 (Meditation), p.336

Meditation on Halkett's thankfulness for James Graeme being placed as second minister, replacing Mr Norie who went away

Saturday 3d of December 1687

Though this be a day that I weekly set apart for humiliation yet thanksgiving is not unsuitable nor unseasonable for any time of devotion

...

Lord give thy blessing to his endeavours that they may be successful to turn many to righteousness and so shine as the stars for ever and ever

Amen

[To the left of the title is written, ""the day after Mr Graeme was admitted"". There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Daniel 12:3.]

Item 39 (Meditation), pp.337-339

Sunday 25 of December 1687 being Christmas day

This holy festival falling to be on the same day that the Lord hath commanded to remember to keep holy I hope none will scruple (as they use to do when it falls on a week day) to go to church to commemorate the nativity of our blessed Lord

...

Oh exalted be thy name father son and holy ghost from this time forth and for evermore

Amen

Item 40 (Meditation), pp.340-342

Sunday the first of January 1687/8

This is the day celebrated to the commemoration of the circumcision of our Lord being performed when eight days were accomplished after his birth

...

Lord thou art faithful who hath called me and I hope thou wilt do it to glorify thy self and exalt thy holy [name] for evermore

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to I Thessalonians 5:23-24.]

Item 41 (Meditation), pp.342-343

Wednesday 4th of January 1687/8

Through the long suffering patience of my God I am this day arrived to sixty-six year of age and falling to be on this day of the week that weekly I confess the great enormities of my whole life

...

that when death comes I may have no more to do but into thy hands oh Lord to commend my spirit which I humbly beg for mercy's sake

Amen and Amen

Item 42 (Meditation), p.344

Meditation on the Queen's pregnancy

Sunday 15th of January 1687/8

Having yesterday seen a gazette shewing that the King hath appointed this day to have thanksgivings offered up to God in all the churches in London and ten mile about for the Queen's being with child

...

a joyful mother of a happy child that may be for a blessing to these three kingdoms which I beseech thee oh Lord to grant for mercy sake and I will ever glorify thy name

Amen

[Halkett notes that this was not required in Scotland, but she wished to do it anyway. The queen's pregnancy refers to the pregnancy of Mary of Modena, 1658-1718, second wife of James II, who gave birth to James Francis Edward Stuart (the Prince of Wales) on 10 June 1688. His dates were 1688-1766 and he was the ""old Pretender"", called James III by his Jacobite supporters.]

Item 43 (Meditation), p.345

Meditation on the death of Charles I

January 30th 1687/8

Had I not had occasion to be up early this morning to write letters and by dating them came to remember the horrid and never enough to be detested regicide committed this day upon the best of kings perhaps I might have forgot it

...

Lord grant such an increase of the Royal family as that there may never want one of them to reign and to perpetuate thy praise evermore

Amen

Item 44 (Meditation), pp.346-347

Wednesday first of February 1687/8

Though the wise King Solomon says that better is the day of death than the day of one's birth and one reason may be because the[y] known not what evil shall be upon the earth

...

I beg that the remainder of his life [i.e. her son Robert's] and mine may be so employed as to evidence we are thine and wholly devoted to thy fear

Amen

[There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to Ecclesiastes 7:1 and 11:2.]

Item 45 (Meditation), pp.348-349

Wednesday first of February 1687/8

Resolutions made Thursday 9 of February 1687/8 which with the Lord's assistance I intend to keep

Within these ten days some things having fallen out in this town either very sinful or at least very scandalous either in those on whom the crime was laid or else in their accusers

...

Therefore since I find shewing my self concerned in others' little avails, them and is a trouble to my self. I will forebear all things, but what may be helpful in my way to heaven

Item 46 (Meditation), pp.350-352

Monday 20 of February 1687/8

Having upon Saturday last spent much of the day in my closet and laying before the fire to air my grave clothes (which I had secretly made and locked up in a box with a paper pinned in the inside of the box the reasons why I made them ready and laid them there Saturday April 17 1675 being now near thirteen year.)

...

Oh how should these things make me (and all) seek to the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Amen which O God of infinite [grace] grant for the Lord's sake

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Hebrews 4:16.]

Item 47 (Meditation), p.353

Monday February 27 1687/8

Yesterday I and my family was necessarily detained from going into the house of God by attending the son of (my near kinsman but nearer friend) the Laird of Blaire who was at the point of death with a squinsy [sic]

...

For the expectation of the child's health and the supply wherewith I may advantage others as well as please my self exalted be thy name O Lord send thy blessing to accompany every benefit that all may be to the glory of thy name

Amen

Item 48 (Meditation), p.354

Wednesday 29 of February 1687/8

This being the day on which I weekly make confession of my sins as far as my memory can extend in the breach of every one of the commands of God what can more excite my praise to his great name than to consider his merciful goodness to me

...

Lord give me direction how to improve the mercies in the way that may most exalt thy name and I will praise thee while I have a being

Item 49 (Meditation), pp.355-356

Monday 5 of March 1687/8

In my preparatory thoughts for prayer this morning while I was considering the great duty I was going about and the advantages obtained by it if seriously performed

...

and in all things to glorify thee; as one that hopes to be glorified by thee through our Lord Jesus Christ

Amen

Item 50 (Meditation), pp.357-358

Friday 9 of March 1687/8

How greatly have I been disturbed this morning when I desired to be most serious with the fretting untoward humour of that child who I love as my own but is sometimes so ungovernable that I am much condemned for letting him have so much of his will

...

and whether oh Lord thou art pleased to send more or take away these still I will say blessed be the name of the Lord

Amen

Item 51 (Meditation), pp.359-360

Saturday 17 of March 1687/8

Last night a letter came here (with a fine useful present for the benefit of the family) to inquire if I would be content to have my Lady Roshaugh's niece to come and stay here with her cousin

...

let it come before thee in an acceptable time in the multitude of thy mercy hear me in the truth of thy salvation

Amen

[Lady Rosehaugh is probably Sir George Mackenzie's wife (see msItem 32). His second wife was Margaret Haliburton (d. 1713), whom he married in 1670 (Scots Peerage, III, 73). Her niece is probably the Lady Marguerite Haliburton mentioned in NLS MS 6499, p.65 (msItem 37). See also msItem 57 of this catalogue entry.]

Item 52 (Meditation), p.361

Sunday 25 of March 1688

By the computation of England which I ever follow in whatever papers I date this is the first day that begins the year 88

...

who is to preach in thy sanctuary and to assist me so to hear thy holy word that both speaker and hearer may rejoice in the God of our salvation

Amen

Item 53 (Meditation), pp.362-364

Wednesday the 28 of March 1688

Yesterday I went to see a near neighbour who for a considerable time the Lord hath given her a sad trial and made her an example to others of what he can inflict

...

But if not, I shall pray for both of them (that I have been reflecting on this morning) that the Lord of peace himself may give them peace always by all means

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to II Thessalonians 3:16.]

Item 54 (Meditation), pp.365-368

Friday the 30 of March 1688

What day is there passes over my head wherein I have not great manifestation of the goodness of God either in pardoning my transgressions or dealing with me as if I had never transgressed

...

yet Lord direct us so as that we may be sure to meet in heaven where we shall join together in singing everlasting praise to thee our God

Amen

Item 55 (Meditation), pp.369-371

Wednesday 4 of April 1688

I cannot omit (though with grief I record) what brought tears from my eyes this morning to hear it now brought fully to light what hath this two year been suspected of one who as being looked upon as an honest man

...

and that the Lord hath not forsaken them that seek thee Everlasting praise be therefore ascribed to thee world without end

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the final lines to Psalm 9:10.]

Item 56 (Meditation), pp.372-373

Saturday 7th of April 1688

As a help to mortification I hope it will not be unsuitable to this day's retirement to make some reflections upon that which occasioned a visit here to me yesterday from the Viscount of Strathalane who had been at school here a considerable time

...

and persuaded some that he much respected to return to that truth from which they had revolted which Lord grant for mercy sake

Item 57 (Meditation), pp.374-375

Meditation on teaching the children in her care

Monday 9 of April 1688

Upon Saturday last in the evening my Lord Rosehaugh (late; and present advocate) and his lady came here with her niece who is to stay here and learn what her age and this place is capable of

...

by a holy example I may go before them in all well pleasing in thy sight through our Lord Jesus Christ who is the author and the finisher of our faith to whom be glory for evermore

Amen

[No line divides this meditation from the next, making it difficult to see the ending of one and the beginning of the next. This meditation refers to Sir George Mackenzie of Rosehaugh, 1636-1691, who was Lord Advocate of Scotland from 1666-1686 and 1688, and his wife Margaret Haliburton. Her niece is probably the Lady Marguerite Haliburton mentioned in NLS MS 6499, p.65 (msItem 37). See also msItems 32 and 51 of this catalogue entry.]

Item 58 (Meditation), p.375

Meditation on Easter, which she will celebrate at Aberdour

Easter Eve Saturday 14th of April 1688

Yesterday I had an invitation to the greatest of feasts. The commemoration of the sacrifice of the true paschal lamb even the lamb of God that taketh away the sins of the world

...

And see whatever wicked way there is in me pardon and restrain it for mercy sake and lead me in the way everlasting

Amen

[There are marginal biblical references beside the first lines to John 1:29 and beside the final lines to Psalm 139:23-24.]

Item 59 (Meditation), pp.376-379

Meditation on events of 1666 and 1677

April 14 being Easter Eve 1688

Having lately by the help of a table in Bishop Cousins' devotions for the moveable feasts from the year 1665 to 1743 observed that Easter day fell upon the 15 of April 1666.1677. and 1688. my curiosity led me to look back upon some memories that I had written in 1666 and 1677

...

I hope none of these things shall move me neither count I my life dear unto my self so that I might finish my course with joy firmly believing in the Lord Jesus testifying the gospel of the grace of God So be it

Amen

[Halkett has consulted John Cosin, [Bishop of Durham's] A Collection of Private Devotions; in the Practice of the Ancient Church, called the Hours of Prayer. Taken out of the Holy Scriptures, the Ancient Fathers, and the Divine Service of our own Church, first published in 1627. The page numbers given by Halkett suggest that she consulted the edition of 1676 or 1681. One of the sections of this work is entitled, ""Tables and Rules for the Moveable and Immoveable Feasts. Together with The Days of Fasting and Abstinence through the whole Year"" (sigs B7r-11v). On sig B8r is a chart headed ""Easter-day, from 1665. to 1743,"" which shows that Easter day does fall on April 15, for 1666, 1677 and 1688. In this meditation Halkett looks back at the meditations she wrote on Easter day in 1666 and 1677 and lists the following events that occurred: the death of her daughter Jane on 11 February 1666; someone she was concerned about tried to poison themselves but failed; the war between ""our King and the Hollander"" (i.e. the second Anglo-Dutch war); she saw someone die mad after 3 days of distraction; the fire in London in September 1666; ""Upon Michaelmas day 7 were burnt for witches at Toriburne. And by what hath since happened it may be concluded they died innocent as to that guilt for none that condemned them hath (likely) to leave any thing behind them to preserve their memory""; the year 1666 ended with the rebellion in the west. Events in 1677 were the death of a faithful servant Garioch on 29 June (the only person to die in her family for 18 years, since she moved to this town); on Friday 13 July someone she loved expressed their hatred; and on Wednesday 10 October she was under great temptations.]

Item 60 (Meditation), pp.380-381

Meditation on taking the sacrament of communion

Saturday the 21 of April 1688

I am intending this day with the Lord's assistance to go to Aberdour in hopes of partaking tomorrow the blessed sacrament of the Lord's supper

...

and that by virtue of his resurrection he will raise me to newness of life to the praise and glory of his name

Amen

Item 61 (Meditation), pp.381-384

Meditation on the sacrament of communion

Tuesday 24 of April 1688

Yesterday by the good hand of my God upon me I returned safe home being much upheld by the strength of the Lord (though a weak and aged body) to continue all the actions of that sacred mystery I went to partake of; without any weariness or faintness

...

and let the life that I shall hereafter live be by faith in thee by which I may have victory to overcome the world

Amen

[There is a marginal biblical reference beside the first lines to Ezra 8:18.]

Item 62 (Meditation), pp.385-387

Meditation on May Day, the apostles Philip and James, and a minister suffering due to witchcraft